So I've finally snapped out of the slump I've been feeling at work of late.
I don't know how or why for sure, but I suspect it's because work is piling faster than I can mope (is this even a word?). Maybe I am one of those people who needs to be occupied to feel energised.
Yes, yes, I think I am.
Either way, :) long weekend!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
They paved paradise to put up a parking lot
That's sg for you.
I'm so going to the railway station to eat mee siam before the gov takes over and opens it up to eager hands to build a mall. Or another condo.
I'm so going to the railway station to eat mee siam before the gov takes over and opens it up to eager hands to build a mall. Or another condo.
Monday, May 24, 2010
After effects
~ of Glee: Bursting at my human seams (skin) to break out in song
~ of Gossip Girl: Want to be rich, limo-ed around and own a walk-in wardrobe
~ of Supernatural: Hunt demons. Salt circles anyone?
My weekend staple :)
~ of Gossip Girl: Want to be rich, limo-ed around and own a walk-in wardrobe
~ of Supernatural: Hunt demons. Salt circles anyone?
My weekend staple :)
Thursday, May 20, 2010
So for the past 6-7 months, I was blinded by foolish admiration.
Was. Because a little incident happened and the human element has shattered things. Slowly, I see aspects I found awe-inspring ebbing and replaced by doubts, disbelieve and disdain.
Funny how easy the pedestal comes crumbling down the minute you find something to dislike.
Nonetheless, to err is human.
Lesson reinforced: Nobody's perfect. So see the flaws in others as part and parcel of their being. Appreciate them people, both good and bad.
Was. Because a little incident happened and the human element has shattered things. Slowly, I see aspects I found awe-inspring ebbing and replaced by doubts, disbelieve and disdain.
Funny how easy the pedestal comes crumbling down the minute you find something to dislike.
Nonetheless, to err is human.
Lesson reinforced: Nobody's perfect. So see the flaws in others as part and parcel of their being. Appreciate them people, both good and bad.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Crossfire
What do you do when your boss disagrees with you and 'persuades' you to go with her option? Against your will, you do, but you feel terribly bad about it but hey, she's the boss and she's been around longer so maybe she knows if this is the best course of action. You are after all just a young fart.
And then you get a call from her boss who disagrees with this course of action and you find out that this bigger boss and you are actually on the same page.
But then, because you followed what your boss said, the bigger boss probably thinks you're the one who made that decision.
What do you do?
Let it go.
Because this happens everywhere. And if your boss is worth his/her salt, he/she would take accountability.
Learning point: Stand your ground next time.
From an optimistic point of view: At least you know a bit more about how the bigger boss thinks.
And then you get a call from her boss who disagrees with this course of action and you find out that this bigger boss and you are actually on the same page.
But then, because you followed what your boss said, the bigger boss probably thinks you're the one who made that decision.
What do you do?
Let it go.
Because this happens everywhere. And if your boss is worth his/her salt, he/she would take accountability.
Learning point: Stand your ground next time.
From an optimistic point of view: At least you know a bit more about how the bigger boss thinks.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Echo
I have a strong need for sense of belonging and acceptance. Most people do, actually. This doesn’t mean I lack self-confidence or self-esteem. I think I have plenty of those. But I crave for human interaction and enjoy being involved, having my opinions heard and so on. It gives sense to existence. Otherwise, what is the point of my sentience?
So this week, and I suppose in days preceding, my heart and mind weaved in and out of loneliness, on 2 levels (i) being butt out of discussions (ii) lacking interaction with those on the same wavelength.
With regard to (i), well, that disappointment can be surmounted by reason. Those discussions are, technically, none of my business (i.e. KPI). It was nice that I was able to provide input the last time and damn, I felt I gave compelling and rich input but it’s time to bow out and focus on my own priorities. Don’t get me wrong, I love to do work beyond my JD but if certain persons feel I am no longer needed, then well, too bad (for them). No hard feelings. I have more time to myself.
Cue point (ii). Now, this one’s tough. I find it absolutely frustrating. What is maddening is my inability to articulate why without coming off as, well, a snob. Snotty. Pompous. Arrogant.
So as a qualifier, might I say that yes, having a worthy adversary (intellectually) would be wonderful, as, well, my brain would be jolted to be more critical and so forth and team discussions would be multi-dimensional/ more flavourful . But that’s not what I’m looking at per se. How about outside of meetings? I yearn for persons with similar wavelength with whom I can have easy conversations with and at the same time can switch it up. The past couple of months, it’s been flat. Like the calm ocean flat. Nice breezy calm waters flat. No peaks no troughs. Flat. Splat.
And I have moments of boredom, quite honestly. But I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I find myself looking elsewhere. People on other teams. Even the interns. I think it’s time to venture out. Never know what gems I could find.
Hello people with sama sama wavelength, come out come out wherever you are! Far wants to play.
So this week, and I suppose in days preceding, my heart and mind weaved in and out of loneliness, on 2 levels (i) being butt out of discussions (ii) lacking interaction with those on the same wavelength.
With regard to (i), well, that disappointment can be surmounted by reason. Those discussions are, technically, none of my business (i.e. KPI). It was nice that I was able to provide input the last time and damn, I felt I gave compelling and rich input but it’s time to bow out and focus on my own priorities. Don’t get me wrong, I love to do work beyond my JD but if certain persons feel I am no longer needed, then well, too bad (for them). No hard feelings. I have more time to myself.
Cue point (ii). Now, this one’s tough. I find it absolutely frustrating. What is maddening is my inability to articulate why without coming off as, well, a snob. Snotty. Pompous. Arrogant.
So as a qualifier, might I say that yes, having a worthy adversary (intellectually) would be wonderful, as, well, my brain would be jolted to be more critical and so forth and team discussions would be multi-dimensional/ more flavourful . But that’s not what I’m looking at per se. How about outside of meetings? I yearn for persons with similar wavelength with whom I can have easy conversations with and at the same time can switch it up. The past couple of months, it’s been flat. Like the calm ocean flat. Nice breezy calm waters flat. No peaks no troughs. Flat. Splat.
And I have moments of boredom, quite honestly. But I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I find myself looking elsewhere. People on other teams. Even the interns. I think it’s time to venture out. Never know what gems I could find.
Hello people with sama sama wavelength, come out come out wherever you are! Far wants to play.