Why health?

So what if Dr Why is taking health psych? I mean he cant be all THAT bad right? And so what if i have to do APA report? For goodness sake, im a psych student. And if im serious about persuing this as my career, then i ought to be used to doing stats report...

Right????

gulp.

I bid you...splash

Bidding. Yes, bidding started this morning. Realised that they blocked bio psych off for the yr 3s. Okay, so ive got it all planned.

IF i cannot get bio psych, i will take animal behaviour. Which means i will have more points for I/O.
IF i cannot get womens health cos im taking animal beh OR if womens health is too expensive, i will take evaluating claims related to health.

Then im gonna take SW1101 for my UE. So far dev psych is not so hot so im hoping to get the mod.

I have only 693 points in my prog acc. I realise that psych students are poor students. But you know why? Cos theyre kanchong spiders who want their modules so bad (even tho eventually, they have to take the module, refer to abnormal psych last sem) that they become myopic. They dont think about their subsequent future. I mean youre gonna be bankrupt if you keep bidding at insanely high numbers. Sheesh. And because of this herd mentality, the entire bunch of students from this major dont have enough points for other modules. Sigh.

Anyway, that aside, i do hope i get what i want. If not, i'll just live with it and do my best. No point fussing. :)

Went swimming today. Did 1.1km. Ahh. So nice. Although it was freezing cos it was drizzling. But the pool was lovely. Empty. Peaceful. Till the drizzle stopped and people started to come in. Still..i love swimming. How many times have i mentioned that on my blog?

Havent really been blogging lately cos ive been lazy. Went out on tues to the metro sale at the expo. Then on wed i went out with my sis. Bought clothes!!!!! :P

Hmm. Ive yet to complete the book i borrowed from the lib. Ive yet to lose the weight i piled on after the exams. I just wish the hols would last longer...

Anyway, im off! gotta call a certain someone :)

I dont wanna go back to school syndrome.

I think that im a huge believer in the seasonal affect disorder. Not that im suffering from it..but im beginning to suspect i may be.

I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL. GArgh. Now that christmas is over (not that i celebrate it..but well, its like an indicator to me, reminding me how many more days i have left to the new year), soon, it'll be new year's day and then, school.

In fact, i feel as though school has already somewhat begun! Planning for modules is one of the most frightening, if not stressful, moments of my semester life. Sometimes, i feel that this is THE most important time. Cos if you choose the wrong mod, youre stuck with it. And if you dislike it at the beginning, chances are, you'll hate it and suffer through it for the rest of the sem (refer to EL1101). Then there's the timetable planning. To prioritise the exams schedule or the daily schedule. To get a free day on this day or that day. So frustrating. BUT the scariest thing is really not knowing what else to take!!!

Im dropping French. Oh yes, i sure am. Au Revoir. C'est finis pour moi.

Im sure of bio psych and developmental psych. Still deciding bet health psych or industrial/organisational psych. Apparently, the former requires an APA report to be done while the latter involves an extremely boring lady lecturer. Then, im thinking of women's health and changes in her lifespan as my science GEM. So im left with breadth modules to clear..and UEs. I need a module i can crap thru and get an A. Hmm.

Can you imagine, that i didnt even realise that i was stressed about school till last night? I mean, ive been irritable the past 2 days and ive been taking it out on najib. Then i realise last night, when he asked me whats wrong...and i just said that one line (read title) and this floodgate of fear/anxiety opened. And i started crying...im not ready for school. I just am not. Next sem is gonna be another tough sem. And it doesnt help that i wanna do better than this sem. I must. I know i can but i know that ive gotta work hard...really hard. And thats what scares me. What if i work hard and i dont deliver the grades?

But, he made me feel so much better. He said that i should just plan the best i can..and whichever mods are allocated to me, ive just got to suck it up and do my best. I suppose so.

So does any one out there know any mods that i can get an A for sure?

Seasons Greetings!

Merry Christmas to all my Christian/Catholic friends.

Thanks to all who sent me a X'mas card...haha..:)

Hmm..was reading the papers just now..and smack on the cover page of Life, there's a photo of this pretty 26 year old girl. She looked so familiar...and her name...Sham Van smt smt...And then i realised...that its my mom's cousin's daughter...which makes her what? My second cousin? Shamunas..thats her name. I havent seen her in ages but she looks the same. Anyhow, my mom was shocked when i told her that the article is abt her battling w breast cancer. Nobody knew. I mean when her mom and bro came over last year, they didnt mention anything...ah well..i guess maybe it was hard on them too.

Tonight im heading to my aunt's house...to baca-baca(pray) for my grandma...

Hmm. im supposed to buy my bed. Cos my bed-frame is falling apart..cos 12 years ago, my brother was moronic enough to jump on my bed. He ran from the door and landed on my new bed (the day when my bed arrived) and from that day, my bed has been creaking since. The creaking's gotten worse and the bed might actually collapse if i dont get myself a new one.

That aside, i feel like eating chocs now. I need something sweet. Gargh. Must control self.

And bleah.Bidding starts next week....but im still deciding which mods to take...realised that i do have the gift of crapping. Remember the Singapore Society module that i thought id miserably flop??? Well, heh, thats my best module!! :) So im trying to pick mods that im good at.....still looking....

My body is still aching. Every inch of my body. The badminton on thurs was great, ade! :) Altho it would have been sweet to thrash that couple beside us!

Alright. Im gonna hunt for chocs now. Im sure theres some chocs somewhere in this house.

PS: Wallace and Gromit is a positively fantastic movie. Its probably the best non-human movie made this year.

Results

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.
What Temperament are you

Haha..ta-da! My results for the above test.

What were you expecting? Oh, you mean the my yr 2 sem 1 results?

Well, to all who'd like to know, Alhamdulillah, I think i did well! Ive improved and this is my best sem so far! Full steam ahead Farah!!!!!! Wohoo! Thank God :) :) :)

I see the light. Sorta.

I love each and every one of you. Thank you for making me feel better.

And yes, i guess the last entry was written in a pique(suddenly forgotten how to spell this) of anger. The issue about my dad's reaction to Najib and all, I guess i can understand. He just doesnt want me to end up hurt and into the wrong hands.

Ive put myself in his place and true enough, if i were to have a daughter going out with a good-looking dude who's not from the same school as her and whom she met through a friend, who's in NS (and hence could be a horny little bugger of a fella) and who's future is rather uncertain until he completes NS, I'll be freaking nervous as well. In fact, i'll be so shit scared for her, i'll lock her up in the room till she's 30. Haha. But that's me. :)

Ya la...my dad just loves me too much. I mean, at least i have a dad who loves me and cares albeit in an authoritarion manner. But the one thing that still bugs me is the fact that he didnt know my major, what i study in school etc. That, i simply cannot understand.

Anyhoo, let me get this straight. Im still talking with my dad...and everything's like normal...except the fact that when i go out, i feel like im in sec school all over again. Having to report where im gg, with whom and what time i'll be back. I mean, he didnt say that i must tell him all the above...but i think i get the hint. Ive been too free since ive been in uni. I mean whenever he asks me where im going, i'd usually say "out with my friends". And i guess its wrong on my part.

Its only right for me to be clearer now. If it would enable him to trust me, then so be it.

Tippy Toes

Ok.

So i thought telling my dad and coming clean abt Najib was a great idea. Perhaps in the long run it is. But my gosh. I feel like pulling my hair out. Now everytime i go out, he'll think im gg out with najib. Everytime im on the phone, he'll think its with najib. And worse, his assumptions are always manifested by his expression of extreme displeasure which he ostentaciously displays. I mean WHAT????!!!!!!!!

What do you want me to do? Mop around at home doing NOTHING? They dont call this the holidays for nothing you know. Sheesh. I understand your concerns. I guess this may have come as a shock to you. Well, im gonna shock you even more. Im 20. yes, im no longer a mindless teenager. I never was, to begin with.

Why is it that parents always think the best of their kids? Yet at the same time, assume that their kids are mindless people who would follow their peers? For goodness sake, im not that weak-willed.

I really thought that coming clean would mean that i'd feel better. That i dont need to lie abt where im going and with whom. But this seems to have backfired. I seem to be having to explain myself more! Take yesterday....i was calling yunxian and he thought i was having a chat with najib late at night. I mean why do i have to keep validating myself?

would you prefer me to keep you in the dark next time? I mean, for the past 6 months, keeping mum worked fine for me....at least telling sis and mom was great...telling you? Maybe it was a mistake. You'll never like any guy i bring home, would you?

And now, thanks to you, i feel guilty for my feelings towards my own boyfriend. Thanks a lot.

Worse, you had to bring up everything else. But the part that hurt me the most was that you thought that i lack direction. You thought that i have no idea what im studying in NUS. You thought that im still deciding between French studies and Psychology.

There is NO such thing as French studies. Im taking them as electives. And yes, im dropping them. But you werent listening, were you.

Maybe i'll never measure up to my siblings. You seem to take more interest in their lives than mine anyway.

Gosh, i love you but im so fed-up with you.

And how can you be so mean and quick to judge? So what if i hang out with my friends from dunman? Just because they're from dunman doesnt make them bad people. You can be so arrogant sometimes. Who do you expect me to hang out with, seriously? I do go out with my JC classmates. If it helps, they're from VJ. V. So why were you still so disapproving on sat that you had to ruin my already soiled mood? I do hang out with NUS people as well. I see them ALL the time. Yet do you take that into consideration? That the reason i love spending time with my dunman friends is cos i rarely spend time w them during term time and catching up with them makes me happy? Of course you dont.

Let go. Gripping me too tightly would only push me away. Let go.

PS: The reason im not going out with any guy from NUS is because there was NONE that i was interested in nor, more importantly, was there ANY that were interested in me. SO there. What? You want me to put a personal add on IVLE? And so-bloody-what if theyre from uni? That doesnt make them saints automatically.

What-a-weekend.

Point of the day: I am a bad pms-er> I get bored easily> When i get bored, i switch off.

That aside, I left early from the class gathering just now. Unfortunately, I wasnt in the right state of...being. Refer to point above. Sigh.

Gosh. Where do i begin? Im exhausted.

First, I went to Najib's 'Social Nite' on Friday evening. It was ok. Met several of his friends. Bumped into June..the senior from swaps. Heh, met Najib's bunkmate. He brought his 6 year old sister as his date. So cute.

BUT that wasnt the highlight of the day. No, no no. It was before social nite.

Najib met my parents.

It was D-day. I always thought i'd bring him home only after he ORD but apparently, some plans had to change. My dad asked me where i was going. I tried my darnest to evade the question. I mean, if i said Safti, it would seem a little strange, now wouldnt it? So i cracked under pressure and told my dad. My dad then talked about responsibility, yadda yadda yadda...how the family should know who my friends are...who im going out with..that the family can give helpful comments on a person's character.

And so, Najib met them all. Except one of my brothers. Thankfully, all went well. And i left with him to attend the party. :)

Im so glad that its out in the open now. Only thing, my dad assumes he's a friend. Ah well. At least he know Najib exists. So im glad. And a huge huge sigh of relief.

:) My darling came to my house! :)

That aside, im also feeling a tad guilty now. I was on my way home just now and this man came up to at the mrt stat. He was, well, to summarise, trying to get to know me. I mean, he seems like a decent guy...He's a systems engineer from Qatar. He asked me if i was available. Haha. Of course, i said no. 1)he's a stranger 2) its true.
But i still feel guilty. He seems really like a nice guy. So poor thing. Working away from home which is like miles and miles away. I just hope he finds the right companion for himself.

Im tired. Gonna sleep early today. And not go out for the next couple of days. Im gonna stay home more often. I just think I should.

PS: My wisdom teeth (not tooth) are coming out. 2 on top. 1 below. Why?

Updates

I dont really know why but i cant seem to remember what i was doing yesterday or the day before, etc. I seem to live day to day. I mean i had to refer to my organiser to refresh my memory on what ive been doing over the past few days! Am i growing old? Or is my brain getting real rusty?

Anyway, on monday i went for a meeting with the Ridge. Gotta churn my bit for Jan's issue by this sunday. I spent the entire day with my dad after that. :) Went swimming. I swam 1km. Of course not non-stop lah. But i was satisfied. Hey, does anyone know what i can do to make sure my hair's not all dry after swimming?

Then on tuesday, i met up with Pema. Instead of the usual boring lunch/dinner/MEAL met up, we explored Arab street and went into the little shops. Heh, felt like a tourist in my own country. Next up, Little india. I mean i usually go to these places by car and with e family...we hardly go into the little shops so tuesday was nice :) Then i watched the DVD 'Sisterhood of the travelling pants". I admit the title seems strange but its a really nice ahhhhh movie. Alexis Bedel is acting in it. She's also plays Rory in Gilmore Girls.

Yesterday was slack day. Watched Kill Bill Vol 2 finally..then met up with sharena for a while..

Today. Hmm. today. Im supposed to go blading with karina....then theres kim and char's chalet/bbq which i dont think i can attend cos im meeting up w sha again so she can pass me some stuff for tmr.

Tmr is my darling's Social Nite. Silly that the guys have to bring dates or get guard duty or smt. Haha. Yep.

Sat is A53's outing!!! :) 7pm Esplanade.

Have i mentioned that my tuition kids would only resume tuition in feb??? FEB!!!! which means farah will have to keep a tight purse. Must stop splurging!!

However, the most pressing issue: To drop or not to drop out of SEP. Need to make the decision by 1700. :X

Spontaneous Sunday

Wohoo! Ive never laughed so much and so hard in a long time! Had a spontaneous catch up session with winston, briony and farhana. Thanks for a wonderful time guys! And i really hope our plans to travel next May materialises! Today was fun fun fun. :)

Cant wait for the 02a53 gathering this coming saturday either!

On a side note, I learnt how to cook Mee Rebus from nenek today too. Pretty easy actually.

Sunny mornings makes me feel happy

Woke up early(by my standards) today cos the glorious sun was burning my feet.

Such lovely weather. Wonder what i should do today...absolutely no plans.
There's something about waking up on a sunny saturday with no plans for the day. There's a sense of serenity i cant quite explain :)

Maybe im feeling at peace with myself cos i went running last night. Finally. And im rather pleased with myself. I ran non stop and at a constant speed which i deem to be decent. I wasnt chugging (i dont think theres such a word but it sounds like the word i mean) away...i was running leisurely. I was enjoying myself.

Now i wait...for the aches.

The NINTH?

Think i need to get a new pair of slippers/sandals.

Anyway, i think im getting the hang of doing nothing. Im amazed how time seems to fly by when you do nothing. Its like the 9th of dec already! What have i accomplised over the hols so far? Zilch.

:)

Im proud of myself. Its been a long time since i was last a professional bummer.

Heh, thanks guys, for the books recommended. But guess what? As soon as i typed the previous entry, i decided to look through my bookshelves for books ive never read before. Lo and behold....

Vile Bodies-Evelyn Waugh

:)

That will do for now.

Word of the day

Word of the Day for Tuesday December 6, 2005

logorrhea \law-guh-REE-uh\, noun: Excessive talkativeness or wordiness.

By his own measure, he is a man of many contradictions, beginning with the fact that he is famous as a listener but suffers from "a touch of logorrhea."

He is so [1]voluble that one wonders how his subjects get a word in edgewise. --Mel Gussow, "Listener, Talker, Now Literary Lion: It's Official." [2]New York Times, June 17, 1997

It's also not good if your date has logorrhea. --Monte Williams, "8 Minutes in the Life of a Jewish Single: Not Attracted? Next!" [3]New York Times, March 5, 2000

Mr. King, who possesses an enviable superabundance of imagination, suffers from a less enviable logorrhea. --Michele Slung, "Scare Tactics." [4]New York Times, May 10, 1981


There you go. There is A word for verbal diarrhea (cant stand this word. HOW do you spell it)

Books

I cant remember when was the last time I read a cheem book thats

1) a page turner
2) that makes me think
3) that requires me to have a dictionary beside me (in case i dont understand some words)
4) that's painful to begin but which leaves me satisfied at the end of the book

Anyone out there can recommend me some titles? :)

Sun's out! woohoo!

Just came back from swimming! Went with my daddy :) Ahhhhh.....so nice to feel the waters...plus the pool was relatively empty except for a bunch of weirdos sun tanning at 12 noon.

I think im a coat darker. Darn. Prefer swimming in the evening but ah well...with unpredictable weather these days, if the sun's out, cease the opportunity to do something outdoors! Its lovely to soak up the sun :)

Drove there and back. Its been a long time since i drove around.

I love swimming.....heck, anything's better than jogging!! Haha. Man, WHEN was the last time i ran? Im too embarrased to even think about it.

Soon though....Soon.

Did i mention?

That i have a new haircut?

That im bored?

That ive put on so much weight this year?

That i planned to do so many things to get rid of it but im doing nothing about it?

That my hair is taking over my life?

Hmm.

I need to eat less and exercise more.

Yeah, maybe i'll go run tmr.

Light me up!

I love going out with my darling. He makes me so happy :)

Went to orchard and walked about. Pretty lights all around. There's a photograph exhibition going on outside wheelock place, by some french dude. You guys should really have a look at them. Magnificent aerial views.

Anyway, read from yunxian's blog that results will be out on the 22nd. Heh.

Went out with mom, dad and sis today. Walked all around..looking for shoes for my sis and a pair of black pants pour moi. I mean, everyone should have a decent pair of black pants. Finally found one that doesnt amplify the size of my ass and hips. Its SO hard okay.

Anyway, I played the drums today!!!!! My dad was jamming (yes, he does..hahah) and i asked if i could try...so i did! For an entire song..though my sister was grimacing. Haha, i played to "Cant help falling in love" as my dad sang and his friend played the guitar. hehehhehe

So fun. I wanna learn how to play the drums proper!! :)

Last night

Yesterday's meet up with aisyah, ju and tini was really nice. Heh, realise that you can NEVER judge a book by its cover. Man, found out a whole load more about them. Yeah, it was nice seeing them again. And haha, probably minutes of my life were taken away as i sat among them and had to inhale the cigarette fumes. Amazing how many sticks they puffed while we chatted at starbucks. Still, the atmosphere, sans smoke, was great. And for a moment, just for a tiny flash of a moment, i wanted to try what it feels like to smoke...one of em told me that your head would feel disconnected from your body..haha. Yeah, but dont want lah. I think cholestorol from my present diet would be be enough to kill me. I dont need smt extra to kill me now do i?

We hung out at starbucks near borders. Bloody hell. Everyone there smoked. My hair stinks. And my throat felt so burnt. Haha. Sat there for like hours man.

Then at 1o, we made our way back to city hall. Met Rauf and presumably his date. Haha. Mini dunman gathering! There, i met up with najib. So gorgeous in his formal attire. But my gosh. He's so freaking shy. I was with my friends at the platform and as he came nearer, he slowed down and he was like "so many people". Sheesh. So we left...pity i didnt really intro him to them. Najib, you are too shy for your own good!!!! Those were my really gd friends you know!! Nevermind, next time! Sigh.

And boo. Im not gg wakeboarding anymore. :(

Friday already?

Surprisingly, my butt and right arm still aches from tue's badminton. Heh, im so unfit. Couldnt last 1/2 hour without feeling like im gonna collapse. Never mind, no pain no gain. Im gonna go running tmr. Hahah. Right.

Goint out with a few sec sch friends. No idea what we're gonna be doing but theyre a spontaneous bunch to be with so heh, wonder what will happen.

Karina!!! I wanna go wakeboarding!! But wait, is 80 bucks cheap? But i dont mind! I wanted to try last sem but i had no one to go with :(

Anyhoo, Im thinking of dropping french. Dad wasnt too happy bout that. I bet he thinks that im the kind of person who quits when the going gets tough. But seriously, i really do love french...but if its gonna suck my cap down, shouldnt i just cut and run? I mean, logically, i should. I want to do honours in psych..not french for goodness sake!

Thinking of taking mandarin. Fiza says its fun...plus i can absolutely guarantee that i have friends to teach and communicate with me. Heck, look around! Haha. Unlike French!

Anyway, gonna get the book from her and yunxian's gonna tutor me!! :)

Still, im not sure, its kinda sad to drop french. Dont know lah. Darn module preference exercise is making me think of the modules to take for next sem already. So far, im thinking of taking biological psych, develomental psych and i/o psych. Wanted to take a level 4000 module called advanced abnormal psych. I emailed the HOD but he said that i should have to wait till my 4th year to take it cos level 4000s are for honour year students. yeah. IF i get to do my honours.

Yeah, so thats 3 modules....if i take LAC1201, then i need one more.....but what? I cant stand any other faculty modules....eek.

Any suggestion? Preferably a module i can ace? hehe