Oh yea, I was in counselling class the other day when i had this strong sudden urge to color/highlight my hair.

I'm feeling the urge again. Black, with red/purple streaks. It'll grow away by early next year when I'll dye it back to the color I have now, so it'll look 'normal' again by commencement.

Sound perfect. Someone stop me.

END POST~3.50pm

I've been somewhat putting my life on whole with regard to school stuff because Ive been hanging on to the notion that I'll miraculously get a room on campus. I think its well about time that I move on. I just received a reply from the housing people and they've already sent out the first batch of re-allocated rooms to the wait list applicants. Cue: Wheres mine?

So obviously, I didnt get la. I mean why would people apply for the wait list only to reject it once they get a room? Doesnt make sense. So, as much as I want a formal rejection letter from them so I can cleanly move on, I'm going to move on anyway.

And I'm going to make this work.

I have an inkling that the ethics com is going to get back to me very soon. After all, I received an email from him 2 days ago saying that he needed to clear things up with them..and I dont know how, but Im having a good feeling about it..
Also, he's asked me if I wanted a student helper to aid me in data analysis so I'll be able to still use the time when I have classes to conduct experiments. So cool. Of course I said yes. Any help is better than no help.

Wow. I cant believe this is going to really happen. Me, an experimenter! Insya-Allah of course, it'll get approved as soon as possible so I may begin my study....

I had my first grp presentation on tues..I guess we didnt really live up to his warp idea of 'participation' among group members. Ours was formal and hassle free. Which is ideal to us I guess. BUT, he apparently wants hassle and fumbles so he can see teamwork among the groupmates, as in, if I fumble and someone from my grp jumps in to help me out, we get higher pts. If there's a technical glitch and we all worry together, we get higher pts. What the?

Whatever la ah. Its done so Im glad. And I think we did our best! :)

Ran 5 k yest morn! Wohoo! :) Heres to a fat-fit me.

END POST~12.11pm

Im feeling annoyed right now because Im fed up with the current state of the online forum for my forensics module.

Everyone is clamouring for participation points so much so that the standards of the posts are getting lower with every post. The forum is plagued with irrelevant posts, threads with no link, and worse plain regurgitation with only the slightest hint of paraphrasing of what the previous person had already said. I'm disgusted.

Then there's evo psych forum which is so bloody cheem you wonder if these people have already read 100 books on evo psych or smt. How come the people who post stuff are so wide read and the people who reply them understand them. How come I dont? I feel so darn stupid la. Urgh. I should really post smt intelligent by the end of this week!

I really really feel so dumb ever since school started.

Boo. Yr 4 is not fun at all.

And last fri, i realise that yr 4 can be pretty lonely too. Other than your friends you hang out with, the others seem to not give a shit about you. Like they're so absorbed in trying to understand the materials themselves till they dont share or willingly share with you when you dont understand. And they're all freaking muggers.

Thats it. That IS IT. I have had enough.

Watch out! Here I come...Full speed ahead!

END POST~10.08am

Gonna sleep on the couch tonight cos my nenek's around. While I may gripe about giving my bed up to her each time she comes, when she finally arrives and I salam her and see her and when she says "I love you" in the adorable way that she does (she says it in a sing-song manner and in English), I cant help but melt. Whats my bed for a couple of nights anyway? I love my nenek. She deserves the best. And yes, I think my bed is the best one around :)

Ran 4k today. At least I ran. So im happy about that. I also finally tried fried mars bars that people have been raving about. Ok la. It just tastes like goreng pisang flour coating the mars bars. Nothing fantastic but Najib seems to like it so much that he tried making it at home himself. I know. Run then eat chocolate. So what? At least I ran.

Week 2 of school and people are so on the ball it scares me. Yr 4 is so much more diff than I expected it to be. Slackers dont seem to exist anymore. ARGH. And its wk 2 only yet I feel so guilty for not doing as much work as I ought to.

Going to sch tmr despite it being my free day cos I have a form to submit. 3 hours of travel to submit a form.

Also, I've been asked to post the following question and so Ive decided to start it as a series/segment on my blog. Heee..Its called....

Far's questions about life, the world and the universe #1
1) Why was there a long hiatus before mcdonalds brought back the milkshake to spore?
2)

Ok. There was another bugging qn on my mind but I cant remember...Stay tuned for more of Far's qns abt life, the world and the universe!!!

END POST~11.53pm

Have I mentioned I bought myself a new pair of running shoes recently? Acc Najib, popular brands like nike/addidas aren't that great. They're just popular cos well, a lot of ads go into them. Apparently, the good ones are Asics and Saucony (and maybe new balance although friends have told me NB wears quickly) And true enough, search runnersworld.com and these are the 2 brands runners recommend :)

So I bought Asics because I searched all of queenstown for saucony and only found one little shop selling it after I bought my asics. Anyway, I have to say, its not at all as pretty as the range for the other two brands but ok la, Ive come to the point where all I want is good support for my feet and durability.

And so far, I've run quite a bit! Ran the reservoir on sunday, hit the gym on tues and did 5k (first time in my life i did that non-stop and at a decent pace) and then yest I did a recovery run of 3k at a faster pace :)
I have finally found a hobby! Running :) It's actually quite fun once you've run past the first km or so..it's like your legs just gain momentum and you just wanna keep going :) Of course, having pumping music plugged to your ears helps.

I feel like running again today..or am I pushing too much? 3 days in a row? Hmm.

Strange thing though: How come when Im at the peak of my fatness, Im also sort of approaching the peak of my fitness (given if i continue with this)? So so very strange.

Aside: Why do people come up virus/worms/etc? Anybody knows how to get rid of the img1756 file that was passed on msn a last week? I think its called the IRC-Worm/Delf.CF.

GRRR...

END POST~1.54pm

Yesterday I came home at 10.45pm and I realise that maybe I should apply for a hostel after all. Especially since like Im so drained after lects alone..imagine if I have deadlines!

Yesterday also marks 2 tues in a row that Ive witness tragedy. Last Tues was the mrt accident at tamp. I saw the scdf pulling out something wrapped in white from under the train. Yes, I was one of the crowd KPOs. Then yest, about nearly 12 midnight, I was on the phone when I heard a loud screeching noise then a thud. Car accident la. As usual, cos the junction near my block has seen its fair share of collisions. No one got injured. But that's not the point. I got damn pissed off for many reasons. First, the car swerved onto the pavement and onto the patch of grass near it, knocking the fire hydrant as well as the metal rail of the staircase leading to my block. So damage to public property is. THEN, I saw from my window, the driver and the passenger running away from the scene. The male passenger came out first and then scrambled to help the woman driver (grrrr..) out. Then they ran off! I thought they were afraid of the car exploding or whatever. But when my bro rushed down to check if they were injured, he found nobody. Those two morons left their car there and they fled the scene! Is that bloody irresponsible or what? The ambulance came but nobody needed the help. Then finally, after some time, the police came. By then, I had already gone back upstairs (yes, I KPO-ed again) and my mom said a tow truck took the vehicle away at around 3 am. I mean seriously. Why the heck would you want to flee the scene? So stupid! This is spore. Your licence plate is there. You will be traced within minutes.

2 possibilities- 1) The woman has no licence. 2 ) Drunk.

Either way, I really do wonder who the heck is going to pay for the damages because I really hope it isnt the tax payer's money. Also, I wonder, will they be charged even more severely because the fled the scene.

And Im angry because there could have been someone walking on the pavement. That someone could have been me! Or worse, my mom who came back only half an hour before and gosh, thinking of that riles me! It could have even been the neighbourhood kitties! GRRRRR.. I really hope they get a fair penalty.

Alhamdulillah, no one was hurt. The accident really makes us realise that one can die anywhere. Even when you think you're safe, walking along the pavement just 2 m from your block.

May God protect us from harm/danger/accidents. Insya-Allah.

END POST~10.39pm

It's the Back-To-School post!

I had my first class of my final year today. Evolutionary psychology. A 3 hour long seminar that left me mentally drained and tummy-ly empty. I have to say, a lot of discussion went on and the questions A/p Elliot poses sure are tough. Heh, feel intellectual la. And I really like Elliot. He's really really such an adorable prof :) I nearly tripped him though. My stupid bag was in his way. So embarrasing for me cos I think I said 'oh shit' quite loud. Ah well. And he remembers me :) I guess cos I emailed him a lot abt evo psych when I was doing his dev module about a year and a half ago :) And I met him during my internship.

Wah, 3 hours only and yet I feel so tired. I dont understand. I dont think its food cos when Im at home, I dont usually feel that hungry even if I dont eat a lot, like today. I can sit for hours watching a movie or tv and I wont feel so tired. So how come sitting in a lecture and just listening is so tiring? It doesnt make sense. Najib seems to think that cos in movies, I'll be munching popcorn. Hmm. Perhaps. Then how come, when I go out and come back at night, I dont feel as tired as coming home from school at night? I dont get it! Is it all in the mind? Or are lectures just tiring cos brain work is required? Hmm.

Though my lect was at 4, I went to school for lunch with Pema in the new canteen. I dont like the new canteen. Its too open. I feel watched. Its def better in terms of cleanliness and ventilation but must they make it so open? Maybe I just dont like changes.

I got my new Nussu diary. Finally, I can get organised again. This year, we can choose between getting a blue or a pink cover so despite the fact that I was drawn to the blue one, I took the pink one, then I felt a little regret but now I feel better about it. Quite pretty la. Next time, they should just hand it to me so I dont have to choose. Ask everyone. The more choices I have, the more fickle I am.

Which reminds me, I need to decide if I really want this campus accomodation. Im having doubts.

And can someone remind me to drop clinical neuropsych asap before I get a W grade. Choy.

END POST~10.50pm

At 1900 hrs Sydney time, aka ard 5 plus nearly 6pm, I received the following sms from Farhana..

"I took a pic wif matt damon! He's in syd for ultimatum premiere. Wohoo! I got his autograph too!"

She's only been in Sydney for one month and she's lucky enough to get him! Im so jealous la! Those who know might remember that I was so in love with him after I watched Bourne Identity. Swoon.

Here's one of the pics she took with her friends and my Matt. :)

There she is, on the left, smiling like a deranged fanatic, with him :)

END POST~11.55pm

I want these songs :)

1) Big girls dont cry- Fergie
2) Wait for you-Elliot Yamin
3) It doesnt get better than this-Katy Fitzgerald

4) Memory- Bon Jovi

But mostly, I want Suddenly I see by KT Turnstall. In fact, I think Ive fallen in love with her songs :) Black Horse and the Cherry Tree is not bad either :) wohoo. haha. She is talented, man.

END POST~1.41pm

Ade gave me chocs :) I love Ade. So happy for her cos she's done with school! 3 years. How time flies! I still remember how devastated I was that my badminton kaki was studying overseas. But ta-da. She's back :)

I am feeling satisfied. After badminton (I was a bit frustrated because I couldn't move about the court as I usually would because the soles of my nike were coming off), I decided to sweat it out further so I went to the gym. Again the shoes got in the way, but thankfully only on the treadmill.

So I'm all showered now and feeling healthy :) (And Ive put e chocs aside...for now)

I really have to start running outdoors again man. How am I gonna make it for the Shape run if I cant even stand the morn sun anymore? I need to get a new pair of shoes asap so I can season it in time for the run too, which , is in 4 weeks time! Yikes.

And i'm excited because Im gonna see my darling today! Havent seen him since last sunday and school is starting next week so yea... :)

Whee~

END POST~12.49pm

Sunday's nearly over. Is it me or does time fly?
One more week of liberty to slack before school. Ah. School. Bleah.

Yest's bbq-turned-pizza party with my fellow interns turned out to be a blast. 12 people. Card games. Food. Drinks. Company. Excellent :) And yeah, the SEA trip may actually materialise. We need a really good itenairy or it'll end up like the melacca trip we took tho :P

Met up with the pubs psych soc ppl on fri. I hadnt seen Eugene, Justina and Kwee Ting, etc. since term ended so yeah, I also had a fantastic time at Settlers :):):) I LOVE Kwee Ting because she's like super duper nice la. I dont think I contributed much to pubs and yet she still blanja-ed me. hee..Ok, I'll come down and give the freshies a talk only because you requested my presence..heheh.

Yeah, then 5/3 class outing the same night.

Gonna meet up w Ade in ~10 hrs time for badminton. I really really hope I can wake up in time given that I've been having great difficulty rolling out of bed lately. That's a bad sign, isnt it? I read something about there somewhere. I just cant remember what exactly.

Anyone knows where I can get a cheap yet brand new Ipod mini?

Bah. School. Is. Starting. Soon. Must. Get. Straight. As. Need. To. Mug. Everyday. No. Room.To. Be. Average. Must. Shine.

Haiya, but whatever happens happens la right? I'll just do my very best for everthing and leave the rest to God.

Yeah, I'll work really hard till May 08, then Im off to Perth-Sydney to see my darling and Farhana..then the SEA trip with e interns! Or SEA then perth-sydney. Either way, I MUST go somewhere!

END POST~11.36pm

I feel empty and yet satisfied at the same time..Ive felt this way before a few years back. I cant exactly remember when...but it was around the same time..a lazy hot afternoon, sun shining outside and wind blowing into my room..so peaceful...and after the exact act am I experiencing all of these. And its not deja vu.

I've just completed reading the final harry potter book. I always feel empty after I read any of the Hp books. I guess that's cos I get completely sucked into the story and when ive reached the final sentence and close the book, I feel a longing for it to continue...

Escapism.

I am satisfied with the ending. I dont know how she did it but rowling tied up all the loose ends perfectly and completed the story. Complete. I like that.

You know, I havent found any other book that can grip me as much as these books have. The themes are brillaint. Friendship, love, duty, honor, death, circumstances, prejudice, greed, envy, corruption, etc. In essence, the strengths and weaknesses of being human. Above all, the innoncence and realism of the content despite being a fantasy book is what makes the series compelling.

I sigh now because Im sad that its over. It seems like I have to grow up. The books provided me a way to get away from reality, you know? Just to immerse myself and grow with the characters over the last few years.

And Ive grown :)

I guess I like books or tv series (gilmore girls) like these because the characters grow up as I grow up too..and now that Im nearly 23 next year, will there be a book or series or whatever that I can grow up with?

Return to innocence.

END POST~4.11am