Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Friday, December 24, 2004
i love technology!
Yes, so i may be hypocritical but honestly, sometimes i do love technology.....especially the internet! It makes the world a smaller place really! Im currently chatting with my aunt and cousin in NOrway while chatting with a friend from KL. Man, i havent spoken to my aunt and cousin in ages so this is really easy for me to wish them a merry christmas!
Just got back from the two parties. Cant believed i squeezed into my sister's sandals..my feet hurts now!
Just got back from the two parties. Cant believed i squeezed into my sister's sandals..my feet hurts now!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
random thoughts
So im in school right now. Yup. in the central library, passing time by while i wait for justina to meet up with me to get shaun goh's prezzie. Finally cleared up the SWAPS store with xiaoyan and justina yesterday. So i came back to school to finish what was left undone...to stick the inventory list up. That kinda reminded me abt the NP store that i used to do lists for too..cant believe we actually counted the number of buttons and badges!
Anyway, i kinda pissed gene off yest. I think, one of farah's new year resolution would be to stop playing pranks on people. Like what my friend sean says, pranks has its pros and cons. I suppose the pro would be the kick you get while the con could be the lost of trust people have in you. Yes, gene, i remember the story of the boy who cried wolf. Im really sorry! One day, we would just look back at this and laugh right?
Had a weird dream this morning. Brad pitt and George clooney made cameo appearences. Ahhh...but it was during some kind of war or smt...oh well!
watched oceans 12 on monday so maybe thats why. anyway, i think steven sodenberg(how do you spell it) tried too hard to make his movie clever this time...it turned out to be a mess really. But hey, at least the movie was entertaining!
Have two parties to attend tmr..Shaun goh and shareena. Havent seen shareena for quite some time and lynn is going for her party so haha the Iras peeps can catch up!
Pema will be back tmr! Ya...okay....my fingers are numb..cant believe how cold the library is right now..
My friend took the liberty of telling me that my posterior has grown bigger. Damn. I need to exercise. Adeline!! wheres our badminton game??? And i STILL havent jogged in eons!!!!!! Sighs!
Results will be out soon i think... on boxing day. Hmm. Hmm indeed.
Anyway, im leaving this post with an excerpt from my fav xmas song (apart from Wham's "last christmas")..hey, even tho i dont celebrate it, i can enjoy it right? besides, it doesnt have any religious connotation to it...its called "my grown up christmas list"...i heard it like last yr and felt, well, i cried lah ok? just look at the lyrics!! so sad! It's originally by amy grant but ive only heard buble's version....the lyrics might seem really familiar cos this writer from Life was going on abt why he likes the song too...
Grown-up Christmas List
"Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasy
Now Im all grown up now
Can you still help somehow
Im not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up xmas list
NOt for myself but for a world in need
*No more lives torn apart
That wars wont even start
and time will heal all hearts
Everyman would have a friend
That right will always win
And love will never end....
THis is my grown up xmas list
What is this thing called?
The innocence of youth?
Maybe only in this blind belief
Can we ever find the truth...
(Chorus)"
Anyway, i kinda pissed gene off yest. I think, one of farah's new year resolution would be to stop playing pranks on people. Like what my friend sean says, pranks has its pros and cons. I suppose the pro would be the kick you get while the con could be the lost of trust people have in you. Yes, gene, i remember the story of the boy who cried wolf. Im really sorry! One day, we would just look back at this and laugh right?
Had a weird dream this morning. Brad pitt and George clooney made cameo appearences. Ahhh...but it was during some kind of war or smt...oh well!
watched oceans 12 on monday so maybe thats why. anyway, i think steven sodenberg(how do you spell it) tried too hard to make his movie clever this time...it turned out to be a mess really. But hey, at least the movie was entertaining!
Have two parties to attend tmr..Shaun goh and shareena. Havent seen shareena for quite some time and lynn is going for her party so haha the Iras peeps can catch up!
Pema will be back tmr! Ya...okay....my fingers are numb..cant believe how cold the library is right now..
My friend took the liberty of telling me that my posterior has grown bigger. Damn. I need to exercise. Adeline!! wheres our badminton game??? And i STILL havent jogged in eons!!!!!! Sighs!
Results will be out soon i think... on boxing day. Hmm. Hmm indeed.
Anyway, im leaving this post with an excerpt from my fav xmas song (apart from Wham's "last christmas")..hey, even tho i dont celebrate it, i can enjoy it right? besides, it doesnt have any religious connotation to it...its called "my grown up christmas list"...i heard it like last yr and felt, well, i cried lah ok? just look at the lyrics!! so sad! It's originally by amy grant but ive only heard buble's version....the lyrics might seem really familiar cos this writer from Life was going on abt why he likes the song too...
Grown-up Christmas List
"Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasy
Now Im all grown up now
Can you still help somehow
Im not a child but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up xmas list
NOt for myself but for a world in need
*No more lives torn apart
That wars wont even start
and time will heal all hearts
Everyman would have a friend
That right will always win
And love will never end....
THis is my grown up xmas list
What is this thing called?
The innocence of youth?
Maybe only in this blind belief
Can we ever find the truth...
(Chorus)"
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Back from Langkawi!!!!!!!
Haha, yeps, i got back late thu night so you can consider it friday...and i was so reluctant to get back to reality so thats why i didnt bother switching on my hp and blogging for days. The time i spent away from technology was blissful.
The trip was fabulous. I went parasailing and snorkling. Made a new friend along the way, discovered teens from malaysia are exactly like teens anywhere in the world. Took a train through the whole west coast of malaysia. From singapore all the way to perlis. So haha i traversed the whole of malaysia by train!
A bit sad to be back but hey, theres nothing like home..esp the toilets! man, the train toilets were tiny!..and i even had to pee in complete darkness one night...well, the only light was emanating from my watch!
Langkawi is so beautiful. the weather was perfect. Too bad i didnt have enough money to stay longer cos theres much more to explore!
Went shopping with my mom yesterday. I think we kinda regressed to our childhood cos there we were, standing at the railings at centrepoint, watching mojo jojo trying to steal xmas from the powerpuff girls. i guess my mom is trying to make it up to me. I never got the chance to be one of those kids whose parents would dutifyully sit with em at the mall and watch kiddy shows. haha. we enjoyed ourselves. We even managed to catch taufik and sylvester live at some starhub roadshow. At least we're satisfied that we got to at least see em perform live once. Oh, and haha, my mom caught something taufik threw in the crowd. Ive never seen my mom move so fast. okay, besides the fact that there were times i saw her swwoping and diving for something...to grab seats on the mrt! I love my mom!
Finally, ive got myself a digital camera! Long story but farah is getting tech savvy by the day! I finally understand the difference btw a 3.2 and 5.0 Megapixel camera and stuff. Kudos to me.
okay, ive got stuff to do i think...but grr...im too lazy to move..bah, its the holidays! I deserve to be a slob!
The trip was fabulous. I went parasailing and snorkling. Made a new friend along the way, discovered teens from malaysia are exactly like teens anywhere in the world. Took a train through the whole west coast of malaysia. From singapore all the way to perlis. So haha i traversed the whole of malaysia by train!
A bit sad to be back but hey, theres nothing like home..esp the toilets! man, the train toilets were tiny!..and i even had to pee in complete darkness one night...well, the only light was emanating from my watch!
Langkawi is so beautiful. the weather was perfect. Too bad i didnt have enough money to stay longer cos theres much more to explore!
Went shopping with my mom yesterday. I think we kinda regressed to our childhood cos there we were, standing at the railings at centrepoint, watching mojo jojo trying to steal xmas from the powerpuff girls. i guess my mom is trying to make it up to me. I never got the chance to be one of those kids whose parents would dutifyully sit with em at the mall and watch kiddy shows. haha. we enjoyed ourselves. We even managed to catch taufik and sylvester live at some starhub roadshow. At least we're satisfied that we got to at least see em perform live once. Oh, and haha, my mom caught something taufik threw in the crowd. Ive never seen my mom move so fast. okay, besides the fact that there were times i saw her swwoping and diving for something...to grab seats on the mrt! I love my mom!
Finally, ive got myself a digital camera! Long story but farah is getting tech savvy by the day! I finally understand the difference btw a 3.2 and 5.0 Megapixel camera and stuff. Kudos to me.
okay, ive got stuff to do i think...but grr...im too lazy to move..bah, its the holidays! I deserve to be a slob!
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Back from Sentosa!
And yes, i think im losing my voice. Why is it everytime i visit sentosa, it rains? huh? WHY? urgh.
It was a nice 3 days tho. I never really thought it was possible to carry out fruitful meetings on sentosa. heh, i finnally found my direction. As in, since i havent been attending meetings cos of the fasting month, ive been rather lost but im kinda on track now. At least now i know what i have to do. Im gonna be having the sub com meeting tmr.Then after i come back from lang
It was a nice 3 days tho. I never really thought it was possible to carry out fruitful meetings on sentosa. heh, i finnally found my direction. As in, since i havent been attending meetings cos of the fasting month, ive been rather lost but im kinda on track now. At least now i know what i have to do. Im gonna be having the sub com meeting tmr.Then after i come back from lang
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Yay...Its the HOLIDAYS!
Hey..I'm so thrilled I can blog from home!! Finally! There's so many things I want to type in. Was gonna start blabbing about the exams i had but since its OVER, i shall not bother about it! Whatever happens, happens.
Went for a movie with pema yesterday. Watched Bridget Jones diary. Hilarious! Haha, gives hope to non "skinny people who still require slimming pills cos they think without it they'd grow fat and die ugly". Haha. I mean really, it just gets to me when you see a naturally lean celebrity endorsing slimming supplements. Oh puhlease! Get Lydia Sum to lose weight using your supplements or smt and then it'd be at least credible! In any case, i believe in pure exercise and a healthy diet. Pish.As if i do that. Still, at least I know that that's the proper and ideal way to do it.
I need to start exercising again. Feel like a slob lately. Havent had a run since before the fasting month. Oh gosh, the inertia to start again!!! Argh.
Speaking of which, I think ive pretty much outgrown the jalan hari raya phase. I mean, really, I dont know why, but everytime i see a big group of people dressed in their baju kurungs and heavy make-up, i cringe. Such attention seeking. I mean come on la...why so much make up??? And some as young as like what?? 9 years old? Am i being hypocritcal? Yes, its fun, i know...to be able to get all ya-ya with your friends..and it gives you a valid reason to check your friends place out...homes tell a lot about people. I mean they grow up in there......then there's the money issue. Ok, look, yes yes, it is customary to give out green packets to unmarried and unworking people...but seriously, i think its ridiculous to accept green packets from your friends' parents! They dont even know you! What difference would a couple of bucks be to a 19 yr old? I mean sure, the kids would be thrilled but i think its embarrassing to see a bunch of 19-20++ yr olds lining up to accept the token. I mean you go to a persons house, enjoy his/her hospitality and get paid for what exactly? hmm? So im reluctant. Thank goodness i had exams as a polite means of declining certain invitations. Open houses and parties are okay. Just dont give me the green packets! I come solely to chill and well most importantly to see my friends at their most comfortable- in their homes. Now, Im not saying everyone who goes jalan raya are like that but some of them are. They go out in a big group and serbu (attack) one of their friends homes...some of them in the group arent even the person's friends! like what the!!!
Anyway, thats why i prefer the open house concept. Have a party. Get your friends together on the same day. And have fun!!!!!!
Singapore idol is this wednesday. VOTE Taufik!!!!!!!! Cos honestly he's talented isnt he? I mean he's definitely better at representing singapore than the other fellow..Slyvester(sounds like salivester...btw, his name is supposed to be spelled sylvester..not that his fans care to take notice). Okay, not gonna dive into this idol fever crap. Just vote Taufik will ya? If youre willing to pay 0.50 cents la. Btw, if taufik makes it big and if i ever see him on the streets or smt, the first thing i'd say to him is "Oi, when are you gonna pay my family $5 back??". haha.
Gonna be a busy december. Incidentally, i might be going to sentosa like 3/4 times! I mean really, why sentosa? Ah well, singapore's a tad tiny to go anywhere anyway. Im going Langkawi with my bro! We're gonna do it the amazing race style....get the tix and stuff on the spot! haha..looking forward to that.
I need beach wear. I need a bag. I need a dress. I need shades. I need to go SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love the holidays......dont you?
Okay, since this blog-from-home thing is highly unpredictable, the next time i blog might be the next time im in school. As such, HAPPY NEW YEAR evreyone!!
Went for a movie with pema yesterday. Watched Bridget Jones diary. Hilarious! Haha, gives hope to non "skinny people who still require slimming pills cos they think without it they'd grow fat and die ugly". Haha. I mean really, it just gets to me when you see a naturally lean celebrity endorsing slimming supplements. Oh puhlease! Get Lydia Sum to lose weight using your supplements or smt and then it'd be at least credible! In any case, i believe in pure exercise and a healthy diet. Pish.As if i do that. Still, at least I know that that's the proper and ideal way to do it.
I need to start exercising again. Feel like a slob lately. Havent had a run since before the fasting month. Oh gosh, the inertia to start again!!! Argh.
Speaking of which, I think ive pretty much outgrown the jalan hari raya phase. I mean, really, I dont know why, but everytime i see a big group of people dressed in their baju kurungs and heavy make-up, i cringe. Such attention seeking. I mean come on la...why so much make up??? And some as young as like what?? 9 years old? Am i being hypocritcal? Yes, its fun, i know...to be able to get all ya-ya with your friends..and it gives you a valid reason to check your friends place out...homes tell a lot about people. I mean they grow up in there......then there's the money issue. Ok, look, yes yes, it is customary to give out green packets to unmarried and unworking people...but seriously, i think its ridiculous to accept green packets from your friends' parents! They dont even know you! What difference would a couple of bucks be to a 19 yr old? I mean sure, the kids would be thrilled but i think its embarrassing to see a bunch of 19-20++ yr olds lining up to accept the token. I mean you go to a persons house, enjoy his/her hospitality and get paid for what exactly? hmm? So im reluctant. Thank goodness i had exams as a polite means of declining certain invitations. Open houses and parties are okay. Just dont give me the green packets! I come solely to chill and well most importantly to see my friends at their most comfortable- in their homes. Now, Im not saying everyone who goes jalan raya are like that but some of them are. They go out in a big group and serbu (attack) one of their friends homes...some of them in the group arent even the person's friends! like what the!!!
Anyway, thats why i prefer the open house concept. Have a party. Get your friends together on the same day. And have fun!!!!!!
Singapore idol is this wednesday. VOTE Taufik!!!!!!!! Cos honestly he's talented isnt he? I mean he's definitely better at representing singapore than the other fellow..Slyvester(sounds like salivester...btw, his name is supposed to be spelled sylvester..not that his fans care to take notice). Okay, not gonna dive into this idol fever crap. Just vote Taufik will ya? If youre willing to pay 0.50 cents la. Btw, if taufik makes it big and if i ever see him on the streets or smt, the first thing i'd say to him is "Oi, when are you gonna pay my family $5 back??". haha.
Gonna be a busy december. Incidentally, i might be going to sentosa like 3/4 times! I mean really, why sentosa? Ah well, singapore's a tad tiny to go anywhere anyway. Im going Langkawi with my bro! We're gonna do it the amazing race style....get the tix and stuff on the spot! haha..looking forward to that.
I need beach wear. I need a bag. I need a dress. I need shades. I need to go SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love the holidays......dont you?
Okay, since this blog-from-home thing is highly unpredictable, the next time i blog might be the next time im in school. As such, HAPPY NEW YEAR evreyone!!
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Monday, November 22, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Let the mugging begin
Indeed! Im in school now, finally getting started on E lang. Strangely, I actually enjoy reading the text!
Tiring day indeed yest....but I had fun! 26 ppl turned up! People i never even expected to come like Norman!!! Haha..he actually reads my blog! 26 people managed to squeeze into my humble home. It was kinda stuffy so i apologise to all those who had to perspire and worse, who didnt get to seat for long!!!
Video-cam(ed) the whole affair..I'll be editing and making it into a VCD soon;that is, once i figure out how to!
Once again, Thanks to all those who turned up! Really appreciated that I didnt end up like the little boy in the psych video...the one where nobody turned up for his birthday party!
And thanks for the Ferraro Rochers.(I have 6 boxes of it now, heh, one for each member of my family)
Mug!!!!!!!!!!1
Tiring day indeed yest....but I had fun! 26 ppl turned up! People i never even expected to come like Norman!!! Haha..he actually reads my blog! 26 people managed to squeeze into my humble home. It was kinda stuffy so i apologise to all those who had to perspire and worse, who didnt get to seat for long!!!
Video-cam(ed) the whole affair..I'll be editing and making it into a VCD soon;that is, once i figure out how to!
Once again, Thanks to all those who turned up! Really appreciated that I didnt end up like the little boy in the psych video...the one where nobody turned up for his birthday party!
And thanks for the Ferraro Rochers.(I have 6 boxes of it now, heh, one for each member of my family)
Mug!!!!!!!!!!1
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
C'est Finis
Indeed, it's over. Whoosh, one semester of french, gone with the wind. I just had my final oral just now..and well, yesterday was the last french lecture. We had a test and then we played a game. It was a nice ending to a nice module with nice classmates and nice teachers. Nice. I mean we see each other twice, sometimes 3 times a week! We gave yannick the markers after all! And he's no longer teaching in NUS from next semester. In any case, the few of us who'll be continuing with french are plotting to join the same lecture next semester!
Whooshh...again. Time flies. A week left before the onset of the FINALs. THE finals. So i suppose i wont be typing in any time soon cos its officially the reading week and i wont need to come to school. Even if i do, i think bringing a lap top would do me no good.
Okie, so in any case, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! Maaf zahir batin (that translates to :forgive me if ive offended any of you in the past yr)
Good luck to everyone out there!
PS: me and pema gonna celebrate now...shopping or movie..hmmm...what? we deserve it! we've mugged hard!
Whooshh...again. Time flies. A week left before the onset of the FINALs. THE finals. So i suppose i wont be typing in any time soon cos its officially the reading week and i wont need to come to school. Even if i do, i think bringing a lap top would do me no good.
Okie, so in any case, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! Maaf zahir batin (that translates to :forgive me if ive offended any of you in the past yr)
Good luck to everyone out there!
PS: me and pema gonna celebrate now...shopping or movie..hmmm...what? we deserve it! we've mugged hard!
Friday, November 05, 2004
Inspiration-less
I mean really, I thought I'd be able to type something out. I mean i havent typed in in a while and quite a lot has happened i think....i think....i think.....i think i need to eat gingko tablets. I cant seem to recall....
Okay, for one, i had my maiden drive last night. Aba finally gave me the P plate and fixed it on the car. Whoa...it was just like i dreamed the moment to be....A nice relaxing drive, with the stereo playing my Michael Buble CD....cruising down the expressway....ahhhh.....
I must say, driving an automatic car is super easy! Anybody can drive! Anybody with a $1300++ license to drive that is! Haha..speaking of license, can you imagine how efficient Singapore is? I mean, i received my real, permenant license via registered mail yesterday! Yesterday!!! When i just passed on monday!!!!!
Anyway, I still havent gotten my Hari raya baju...should i even get one? My mom already gave me the money but seriously, its not like im miserly or anything but I think its a waste of money. I hardly use the baju kurungs i bought in the last few years..and since im not gonna go jalan raya with my friends this yr cos of exams...and that i only have a few relatives to visit, why should i buy a >50 dollars 'traditional' baju (which has nothing to do with my tradition..whatever that is..im still trying to figure out if i have one)....i might as well buy clothes to wear to school right??? or that black dress i saw in Metro....ahh...
Im feeling pretty jaded now...perhaps that's cos i woke up late and that morning laziness has yet to be purged from my system...WAKE UP FARAH! It's 1.40pm!!!!
Im having a hari raya lunch thingy on the 15th and i know this is gonna sound craazyyyy...but there's 50 people on my list! Crap. I mean I thought i invited my SWAPS and VJ friends and stuff....and i didnt expect to have that huge a number. I hope they'll be able to squeeze into my place..and that Umi can cook enough food....
okay, 13 days to go. I better start studying...LIKE NOW.
Okay, for one, i had my maiden drive last night. Aba finally gave me the P plate and fixed it on the car. Whoa...it was just like i dreamed the moment to be....A nice relaxing drive, with the stereo playing my Michael Buble CD....cruising down the expressway....ahhhh.....
I must say, driving an automatic car is super easy! Anybody can drive! Anybody with a $1300++ license to drive that is! Haha..speaking of license, can you imagine how efficient Singapore is? I mean, i received my real, permenant license via registered mail yesterday! Yesterday!!! When i just passed on monday!!!!!
Anyway, I still havent gotten my Hari raya baju...should i even get one? My mom already gave me the money but seriously, its not like im miserly or anything but I think its a waste of money. I hardly use the baju kurungs i bought in the last few years..and since im not gonna go jalan raya with my friends this yr cos of exams...and that i only have a few relatives to visit, why should i buy a >50 dollars 'traditional' baju (which has nothing to do with my tradition..whatever that is..im still trying to figure out if i have one)....i might as well buy clothes to wear to school right??? or that black dress i saw in Metro....ahh...
Im feeling pretty jaded now...perhaps that's cos i woke up late and that morning laziness has yet to be purged from my system...WAKE UP FARAH! It's 1.40pm!!!!
Im having a hari raya lunch thingy on the 15th and i know this is gonna sound craazyyyy...but there's 50 people on my list! Crap. I mean I thought i invited my SWAPS and VJ friends and stuff....and i didnt expect to have that huge a number. I hope they'll be able to squeeze into my place..and that Umi can cook enough food....
okay, 13 days to go. I better start studying...LIKE NOW.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
I PASSED MY DRIVING!!!!!!!!
okay, ive actually typed out a nice entry about this...so i shall paste it up when i bring my laptop to school...
so here it is:
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST-an edited excerpt from Farah’s personal diary
You bet I did! Its raining heavily now but I’m still so thrilled. It’s been raining since I left for the test centre. By then, grey clouds were hovering threateningly over me. And when it finally showered, I thought to myself “God really doesn’t want me to pass”. The visibility was pretty bad too! But thank god (alhamdulilllah) that when it came to the actual test time, the rain trickled to a drizzle and stopped eventually. I got Route 7-the hardest route. Difficult route + bad weather = Bad luck….or so I thought. But in Cheryl’s words, it turned out to be “a blessing in disguise”. The tester modified the route as he claimed that the original route would be jammed. So, with only 10 points, ladies and gentlemen, Farah passed her driving! After the whole test, (which seemed to pass by so fast), I got back my marksheet and then proceeded to this room to watch some video on road safety. While waiting for the video to air, I started calling and messaging almost everyone! What can I say? I just needed to gush and celebrate with people! I deserved it. Thanks a million Cheryl for remembering and for psyching me up for the test!
I gave my driving instructor (uncle) a box of hari raya cookies to thank him. (Thank god I was fasting or he would have cornered my into treating him to lunch…eeeyew…). Before we parted, he said to me “Drive carefully and slowly ah….young girl like you..must take care”…For a tiny-whiny moment, I felt the soft mush one usually feels when you have to part from someone who saw you through some ordeal…and well, come on, he taught me for nearly 11 months..then the moment vanished. I’ll never see my quirky ci-ko-pek of a driving instructor again! Haha….It’s also weird that “my boyfriend” (the driving instructor’s pathetic attempt to matchmake me with another one of his student learners) called him to ask if I passed. One heck of a strange relationship. I’ve only seen the bugger once.
Came home and was still high and absolutely thrilled. Showed the slip of paper to my dad and bro..who were waiting for me to break the news….Now that driving’s over and tuition’s ended (Rena did abysmally for her finals but she’s contented so oh well…I did my best for her anyway), I have no excuse not to focus….19 days more!!!!!!!!
I CAN DO IT!!!
so here it is:
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST-an edited excerpt from Farah’s personal diary
You bet I did! Its raining heavily now but I’m still so thrilled. It’s been raining since I left for the test centre. By then, grey clouds were hovering threateningly over me. And when it finally showered, I thought to myself “God really doesn’t want me to pass”. The visibility was pretty bad too! But thank god (alhamdulilllah) that when it came to the actual test time, the rain trickled to a drizzle and stopped eventually. I got Route 7-the hardest route. Difficult route + bad weather = Bad luck….or so I thought. But in Cheryl’s words, it turned out to be “a blessing in disguise”. The tester modified the route as he claimed that the original route would be jammed. So, with only 10 points, ladies and gentlemen, Farah passed her driving! After the whole test, (which seemed to pass by so fast), I got back my marksheet and then proceeded to this room to watch some video on road safety. While waiting for the video to air, I started calling and messaging almost everyone! What can I say? I just needed to gush and celebrate with people! I deserved it. Thanks a million Cheryl for remembering and for psyching me up for the test!
I gave my driving instructor (uncle) a box of hari raya cookies to thank him. (Thank god I was fasting or he would have cornered my into treating him to lunch…eeeyew…). Before we parted, he said to me “Drive carefully and slowly ah….young girl like you..must take care”…For a tiny-whiny moment, I felt the soft mush one usually feels when you have to part from someone who saw you through some ordeal…and well, come on, he taught me for nearly 11 months..then the moment vanished. I’ll never see my quirky ci-ko-pek of a driving instructor again! Haha….It’s also weird that “my boyfriend” (the driving instructor’s pathetic attempt to matchmake me with another one of his student learners) called him to ask if I passed. One heck of a strange relationship. I’ve only seen the bugger once.
Came home and was still high and absolutely thrilled. Showed the slip of paper to my dad and bro..who were waiting for me to break the news….Now that driving’s over and tuition’s ended (Rena did abysmally for her finals but she’s contented so oh well…I did my best for her anyway), I have no excuse not to focus….19 days more!!!!!!!!
I CAN DO IT!!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
I got back my psych test results yesterday! Im so so so so happy. ;) I was super high the whole day...then the french paper came back...and Farah was high no more. Ah well! C'est la vie!
French lecturer was pretty irritated yesterday. Was complaining about the admin system in NUS and about how NUS wont pay him till a few months later...and how he had to buy his own markers...so I thought of a very gd idea..since our last lesson's coming soon, haha as a joke, I propose buying him a bunch of markers. I toldd kenneth about it..he thinks its funny! HAHA..
la la la...half an hr more to RP.
French lecturer was pretty irritated yesterday. Was complaining about the admin system in NUS and about how NUS wont pay him till a few months later...and how he had to buy his own markers...so I thought of a very gd idea..since our last lesson's coming soon, haha as a joke, I propose buying him a bunch of markers. I toldd kenneth about it..he thinks its funny! HAHA..
la la la...half an hr more to RP.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Resistance is futile
Just finished my psych lecture. A pretty interesting one, i must say. It dealt with motivation and emotion, and how some people get anorexic and stuff. There was this one thing Dr Cha said that was so hilarious I had to put it as my title today...you see, there is something called the weight set point. Basically, its this equilibrium thingy in your body that controls your metabolic rate. So below this wight set point, your metabolic rate would decrease, vice-versa...which is why dieting never works. Anyway, so what determines the weight set point? its the no of fat cells in your body. So when you were a child, whenever you increased weight, the no of fat cells increase..all the way till youre 2 yrs old. Thats when the weight set point's determine....so, Dr Cha said smt like "so to all the ladies who wanna lose somemore weight, resistance is futile"....
Hahahhaha.......and i went damn. So fat babies shall remain fat babies!
anyway, yesterday, i was on the bus...293 on the way home at about 4.20. I couldnt understand the bus driver.Like wassup man! You see, these two really old folks got up the bus. Its really amazing that they managed to get to their seats in the first place...such fragile looking people. They didnt pay for their trip and after a while, the stern looking bus driver rudely asked "Lu belum bayar ah?" (you havent paid) So the old indian lady muttered to her husband and both began searching for change in their purses. oh no...they didnt have enough. All this while, as i looked on, i noticed this malay lady taking her purse and digging for money too...then she made her way to the front and placed some change in the old lady's hand. All this while, the bus driver casted furtive glances from the rear view window..and worse, he looked angry that the malay lady helped out! Like what the!! Wierd bus driver on a power trip I suppose. I mean, give the old folks a break will ya??
Hahahhaha.......and i went damn. So fat babies shall remain fat babies!
anyway, yesterday, i was on the bus...293 on the way home at about 4.20. I couldnt understand the bus driver.Like wassup man! You see, these two really old folks got up the bus. Its really amazing that they managed to get to their seats in the first place...such fragile looking people. They didnt pay for their trip and after a while, the stern looking bus driver rudely asked "Lu belum bayar ah?" (you havent paid) So the old indian lady muttered to her husband and both began searching for change in their purses. oh no...they didnt have enough. All this while, as i looked on, i noticed this malay lady taking her purse and digging for money too...then she made her way to the front and placed some change in the old lady's hand. All this while, the bus driver casted furtive glances from the rear view window..and worse, he looked angry that the malay lady helped out! Like what the!! Wierd bus driver on a power trip I suppose. I mean, give the old folks a break will ya??
Monday, October 25, 2004
Red Monday
So im wearing red. Couldnt come up with a better title. I've just finished my only lesson of the day.Im supposed to send my handphone for repair but somehow, i just cant seem to get my butt un-glued to the bench. A little while more then.....
Handed up the research paper. Oh dear, i should not have read other people's titles. Im so gonna score shitly for this paper. ah well. Got back my museum report.The lowest in class was a B+....so yup. Should i be happy? :)
Random thought of the day: WHY why cant women wearing skirts be mindful of their sitting decorum? I mean like hello, i dont wanna see your panties!
Anyway, yest was the last episode of Mists of Avalon. So that leaves me with Witchblade(still trying to figure out the show) and Gilmore Girls as my weekend entertainment. Oh, and law and order of course.
I love gilmore girls. I mean, its a fantastic show. I practically grew up watching it. When Rory had her final exams, so did I. When rory worried about which university to pick, so did I. When rory had her vacation, so did I. When rory went to university, so did I. I supose in a way, She represents an ideal role modern for gals my age. She's brilliant, independant, pretty, has a understanding and totally cool mom, she had a gorgeous boyfriend who still loves her. Like whoa.
Okay, enough...ive really gotta go home now!
Handed up the research paper. Oh dear, i should not have read other people's titles. Im so gonna score shitly for this paper. ah well. Got back my museum report.The lowest in class was a B+....so yup. Should i be happy? :)
Random thought of the day: WHY why cant women wearing skirts be mindful of their sitting decorum? I mean like hello, i dont wanna see your panties!
Anyway, yest was the last episode of Mists of Avalon. So that leaves me with Witchblade(still trying to figure out the show) and Gilmore Girls as my weekend entertainment. Oh, and law and order of course.
I love gilmore girls. I mean, its a fantastic show. I practically grew up watching it. When Rory had her final exams, so did I. When rory worried about which university to pick, so did I. When rory had her vacation, so did I. When rory went to university, so did I. I supose in a way, She represents an ideal role modern for gals my age. She's brilliant, independant, pretty, has a understanding and totally cool mom, she had a gorgeous boyfriend who still loves her. Like whoa.
Okay, enough...ive really gotta go home now!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Personality Disorder Test results! HAHA...
Please remember that this test isn't meant to diagnose you. Only a professional can do that. Below are your test results, broken down for the ten different personality disorders. You are rated "low," "moderate," "high," or "very high" probability for each disorder. Low or moderate ratings mean that you are unlikely to have the disorder. High or very high means you are more likely to have the disorder. Only a professional can diagnose a disorder, however. Scroll down past the results for recommended books that might help you.
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html
Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.
Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.
Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html
Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.
Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.
Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
Friday, October 22, 2004
sigh
okay, so yesterday's french test was a bummer. I kept getting mixed up between imperatif and passe compose. It was such an easy paper...and i made such a stupid mistake. I well, felt shity after that. It was mainly cos of my English test result as well. i just passed. and so now, im frantically looking for people to tutor me. So far, ive managed to get karina and ranjani to help......to think i even had nightmares about that. I didnt want to come for eng lect today but conscience prevail...besides, I WILL NOT BE A SORE QUITER. i will not resent a subject when i do not do well in it. ive gotta change my mentality. so erhem I like EL1101E. I like EL1101e. I like El1101E. I Like EL1101E.
ok, ive gotta go for econs tutorial now. I will try not to skip my lect later. If i do, that would be like 4 times in a row, one whole month, 1/3 of a semester of cutting econs lect. HAHA. no no i will not.....
sigh. i think im PMS-ing.
i dropped my hp yest..and now it cant switch off. :(
ok, ive gotta go for econs tutorial now. I will try not to skip my lect later. If i do, that would be like 4 times in a row, one whole month, 1/3 of a semester of cutting econs lect. HAHA. no no i will not.....
sigh. i think im PMS-ing.
i dropped my hp yest..and now it cant switch off. :(
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Englisheeeesssssssshhhhh
Argh. Argh. Argh. I dont understand. why am i still at the bottom of the class for stupid EL1101E???? i mean its freaking English! I have been scoring for eng since like primary one! like what the? Its like some cruel joke. Ha ha ha.
Breathe farah breathe....
everything
happens
for
a reason.....
maybe im too cocky..and im paying for it.....
i'll go kiss the floor now. just kidding just kidding. -_-
Breathe farah breathe....
everything
happens
for
a reason.....
maybe im too cocky..and im paying for it.....
i'll go kiss the floor now. just kidding just kidding. -_-
Saturday, October 16, 2004
A post from home!
I am so full. So so full and contented. Had a great dinner a an hour ago. Nothing beats my Umi's cooking! I was gonna type something actually but I cant seem to remember. Talk about short term memory. Which reminds me, Ive gotta study psych.
Oh! I remember what it is now...I PASSED MY ECONS TEST!!!!!! Just when i thought there was no hope! That I would embarass myself with low marks considering exactly one yr ago I was studying the exact same thing! Whee~
Is it me or is the weather really really hot at night?
Earlier today, I had my last tuition session with Rena. In a way, she reminds me a lot of myself when I was 14. Troubled with studies and finding out who my friends really are. Imagining that teachers are from a totally different planet. Thinking your parents just dont understand. Feel like you're spinning and spinning and spinning around, trying to find and come to terms with who you are. I hated Sec 2. I had a discussion with Pema about this after French class. The french lecturer had previously said someting rather patronising..."Maybe you asians have adolescence problems later in life" Yeah, right..like when we're 40? So i made a hypothesis.. most of us would have probably encountered it when we're 14...and i bagan asking a few ppl and well, they concured.Well, it isnt an accurant survey anyway. The sample size was far too small. But still, it doesnt change the fact that being 14 was a nightmare.
In any case, I should get back to work.
And yes, while and after praying with my family yest, I remembered about all the things that has happened over the past year. I have truly been blessed. I have a great life. Prayers really do work. They really do. So i just have to keep my faith...Amin!
Oh! I remember what it is now...I PASSED MY ECONS TEST!!!!!! Just when i thought there was no hope! That I would embarass myself with low marks considering exactly one yr ago I was studying the exact same thing! Whee~
Is it me or is the weather really really hot at night?
Earlier today, I had my last tuition session with Rena. In a way, she reminds me a lot of myself when I was 14. Troubled with studies and finding out who my friends really are. Imagining that teachers are from a totally different planet. Thinking your parents just dont understand. Feel like you're spinning and spinning and spinning around, trying to find and come to terms with who you are. I hated Sec 2. I had a discussion with Pema about this after French class. The french lecturer had previously said someting rather patronising..."Maybe you asians have adolescence problems later in life" Yeah, right..like when we're 40? So i made a hypothesis.. most of us would have probably encountered it when we're 14...and i bagan asking a few ppl and well, they concured.Well, it isnt an accurant survey anyway. The sample size was far too small. But still, it doesnt change the fact that being 14 was a nightmare.
In any case, I should get back to work.
And yes, while and after praying with my family yest, I remembered about all the things that has happened over the past year. I have truly been blessed. I have a great life. Prayers really do work. They really do. So i just have to keep my faith...Amin!
Friday, October 15, 2004
God loves me
Yes, HE does. French is postponed to thursday. Phew. So farah's weekend schedule:
1) Mug for psychology
2) Mug for French
3) Worry about SEA research paper because i will only have four days since i intend to get started only when both my tests are over. It doesnt help to know SOME people finished theirs! (nudge nudge karina) -_-
1) Mug for psychology
2) Mug for French
3) Worry about SEA research paper because i will only have four days since i intend to get started only when both my tests are over. It doesnt help to know SOME people finished theirs! (nudge nudge karina) -_-
English, cute babies, and bulan ramadan.
I just finished the dreaded EL paper. I just feel this overwhelming relief.It wasnt easy but i was already expecting that. Besides, i fell asleep reading the book and only managed to read/skim through the book on the MRT.(sat between two sleeeeeepy heads. are my shoulders that comfortable?) so there, its over. Thank god I brought a dictionary. A BIG help indeed.
Went out with pema, kenneth and Mark yest. Buka-ed at NYDC. There was this super dooperly cute baby. i think he's iranian or smt and he's soooooooo cuteeeeeeeee... he kept seeking our attention and he even grabbed the waitress' butt. Her reaction was so hilarious! Gosh, i hope my children would be as gorgeous as that!
Its the start of the fasting month. I wonder if i should skip my econs lect. so that would be 3 in a row. But really! the whole family would be breaking fast together...and since Umi's working the afternoon shift and Mhd's shifts are irregular....this yr would be different....
anyway, i received a msg from a very old friend. hmm.
haha i just met Monsiuer(how do you spell it...ARGH) Gilbert...and we spoke french..hahah.
okay, ive gotta be a lab rat...after Eugene briefs me on the survey thingy.
Went out with pema, kenneth and Mark yest. Buka-ed at NYDC. There was this super dooperly cute baby. i think he's iranian or smt and he's soooooooo cuteeeeeeeee... he kept seeking our attention and he even grabbed the waitress' butt. Her reaction was so hilarious! Gosh, i hope my children would be as gorgeous as that!
Its the start of the fasting month. I wonder if i should skip my econs lect. so that would be 3 in a row. But really! the whole family would be breaking fast together...and since Umi's working the afternoon shift and Mhd's shifts are irregular....this yr would be different....
anyway, i received a msg from a very old friend. hmm.
haha i just met Monsiuer(how do you spell it...ARGH) Gilbert...and we spoke french..hahah.
okay, ive gotta be a lab rat...after Eugene briefs me on the survey thingy.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Taking it slow.....
I have decided...i am not going to panic. I am going to take this semester easy. It is my first semester after all and i should cut my self some slack. So what if i had initially planned on making it into the Deans list and getting on my way to a first class honours? Ambitions ambitions ambitions. Tsk tsk. remember what happened earlier in J1? I wanted to take 4 A levels with 2 S papers...remember how I wanted to take maths and econs S? hahah...I ended up dropping an A level sub. But Im still happy. But that doesnt mean im gonna be a completely unmotivated person. i will keep trying hard and do my work and all but i will not be stressed. I want to live longer! Plus, i dont really know what i should expect for the exams so i'll be using this sem as a gauge.
Im in the SWAPS room right now actually...was storing some stuff and since i brought my lap top i might as well try if this room has reception and what do you know? it does!!!! Signal Strength=Very Good. It's pretty quiet in here and heck, i think its more conducive to do my work here than in the lib. At least i'll have my privacy. Am i even allowed to do this? I don't know..but as far as im concerned, i have the keys so why not? Im not doing anything bad here.
I have officially ended my lessons and i intended to study my english BUT i didnt bring my file. Urgh. Too bad...i think i'll just go home later...
Im in the SWAPS room right now actually...was storing some stuff and since i brought my lap top i might as well try if this room has reception and what do you know? it does!!!! Signal Strength=Very Good. It's pretty quiet in here and heck, i think its more conducive to do my work here than in the lib. At least i'll have my privacy. Am i even allowed to do this? I don't know..but as far as im concerned, i have the keys so why not? Im not doing anything bad here.
I have officially ended my lessons and i intended to study my english BUT i didnt bring my file. Urgh. Too bad...i think i'll just go home later...
WHEE~~~~~~
I did it! Im not a tech bimbo after all!!! haha i regained my computer skills...you see little chewren, farah was taught how to create web pages when she was primary 6...then she just forgot about it!!! not anymore!!!!!!!! Ive finally linked my friend's bloggies to mine!!!!!
whee~
whee~
Monday, October 11, 2004
10th October 2004
KEY note
I feel incredibly stupid right now. God, where do I start? Everything seems so surreal now. I’m just feeling overwhelmed with all that’s happened…..
I went down to Photostat my SEA presentation stuff on transparencies and to make a duplicate set of keys to the SWAPS cupboard. I had to get it done by Friday. I suppose I decided to do it today cos I wanted to show the others that I’m pretty efficient. Oh man, it turn out quite contrary. The impression of me after that event would have remarkable changed.
So I went to the shop with the bunch of keys, gave it to the guy and left, heading to the photocopy shop. When I came back, the lady was still making the keys and I had ½ left before Gilmore Girls started. So when she was done, she gave me back the original set. That was when it all began….
I was dumbfounded, stupefied, f***king pissed cos the bunch of keys in my hand didn’t feel right. I remembered instinctively that there was like 2 or more keys… where were they? I panicked. Shit. Shit. Shit. I’m so screwed. I argued with the shop keepers. I didn’t care what passers-by thought of me. I wanted my keys back. They kept insisting that what they returned me was precisely what I had handed to them. I felt helpless.Defeated…and I did the unthinkable. I started to cry. Sob violently was more like it. And in between the gasps of air, I choked on my words and explained to them, “It’s not my keys…I need them back..I need them back”. I was so sure I gave them the whole bunch. I was so sure.
My mind raced. I couldn’t do anything..I had to think of something. I reached for my handphone and called Gene. Pick up Gene…pick up…I called Eugene next. No answer. And then I called Zhisheng. When I heard the click of an answer I felt relieved.. and then I burst out sobbing into the phone, explaining to Zhisheng, feeling utterly useless and incompetent. I was initially hesitant to call him cos I’ve always felt intimidated by him. I always felt useless in his presence. Like during the acad meetings. So it was odd speaking to him…but he was so nice about it. He even offered to come down to settle things….then I called my sister in the meantime..within moments she came down. By then, I had spoken to Gene and he assured me that there was another set of keys with the admin. My sis and I decided to leave after confirming again with the shopkeepers abt the bla bla bla…that if they found the keys the should contact me. So we left…..
I was still so scared. How could I screw up such a small matter? What is wrong with me? Simple thing and I cant handle. I was irresponsible. Resigned, we were about to climb the stairs back home when suddenly my sis spotted a bunch of 3 keys on the lift landing, in one corner. I felt a flush of shame, humiliation…and relief. I called Gene…and then Zhisheng. Thank god. So I went back to the shop and apologized profusely for being such an asshole. I truly truly am.
Reflecting on this incident has thought me a lot. It made me realize how weak a person I am. How I behave under stressful situation. I melt down. Imagine, this is such a small issue and I blew it up. I lost my composure, humiliated myself. I feel like just burying my head in sand or walk around with a paperbag on my head. Shame on me. I am not as strong as I always thought myself to be. Damn.
I feel incredibly stupid right now. God, where do I start? Everything seems so surreal now. I’m just feeling overwhelmed with all that’s happened…..
I went down to Photostat my SEA presentation stuff on transparencies and to make a duplicate set of keys to the SWAPS cupboard. I had to get it done by Friday. I suppose I decided to do it today cos I wanted to show the others that I’m pretty efficient. Oh man, it turn out quite contrary. The impression of me after that event would have remarkable changed.
So I went to the shop with the bunch of keys, gave it to the guy and left, heading to the photocopy shop. When I came back, the lady was still making the keys and I had ½ left before Gilmore Girls started. So when she was done, she gave me back the original set. That was when it all began….
I was dumbfounded, stupefied, f***king pissed cos the bunch of keys in my hand didn’t feel right. I remembered instinctively that there was like 2 or more keys… where were they? I panicked. Shit. Shit. Shit. I’m so screwed. I argued with the shop keepers. I didn’t care what passers-by thought of me. I wanted my keys back. They kept insisting that what they returned me was precisely what I had handed to them. I felt helpless.Defeated…and I did the unthinkable. I started to cry. Sob violently was more like it. And in between the gasps of air, I choked on my words and explained to them, “It’s not my keys…I need them back..I need them back”. I was so sure I gave them the whole bunch. I was so sure.
My mind raced. I couldn’t do anything..I had to think of something. I reached for my handphone and called Gene. Pick up Gene…pick up…I called Eugene next. No answer. And then I called Zhisheng. When I heard the click of an answer I felt relieved.. and then I burst out sobbing into the phone, explaining to Zhisheng, feeling utterly useless and incompetent. I was initially hesitant to call him cos I’ve always felt intimidated by him. I always felt useless in his presence. Like during the acad meetings. So it was odd speaking to him…but he was so nice about it. He even offered to come down to settle things….then I called my sister in the meantime..within moments she came down. By then, I had spoken to Gene and he assured me that there was another set of keys with the admin. My sis and I decided to leave after confirming again with the shopkeepers abt the bla bla bla…that if they found the keys the should contact me. So we left…..
I was still so scared. How could I screw up such a small matter? What is wrong with me? Simple thing and I cant handle. I was irresponsible. Resigned, we were about to climb the stairs back home when suddenly my sis spotted a bunch of 3 keys on the lift landing, in one corner. I felt a flush of shame, humiliation…and relief. I called Gene…and then Zhisheng. Thank god. So I went back to the shop and apologized profusely for being such an asshole. I truly truly am.
Reflecting on this incident has thought me a lot. It made me realize how weak a person I am. How I behave under stressful situation. I melt down. Imagine, this is such a small issue and I blew it up. I lost my composure, humiliated myself. I feel like just burying my head in sand or walk around with a paperbag on my head. Shame on me. I am not as strong as I always thought myself to be. Damn.
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Today, Sat, 9th Oct
I am in school. Yes, on a saturday. I am in school because I intend to mug, and I will. I told my parents I'll be back by eleven pm. I will finish my SEA research paper by this weekend. I will. I will. I will.
I have to.If I don't, I'll be in serious doo-doo cos I have practically no time. There are tests coming up...tests which i cannot afford to screw up.
I skipped econs lect yest. So effectively, i've skipped 3 lects this semester. Twice in a row for econs. So much about conscience. It's not about conscience anymore. It's about being pragmatic. Why bother sitting in an LT if nothing gets through my head? Time is precious in university. I stayed back in school till 9+ yest. Helped Justina do the noticeboard as well.
Speaking of being pragmatic, I want a boyfriend who can drive. What's the point of having a bf if he cant drive? I might as well just date the bus driver.Alright, maybe if he cant drive, at least let him have a car so I can drive it! And he has to be smart so he can help me out in my work. I mean I don't need emotional support or whatever. In fact, why does anyone ever want to have a boyfriend? Had an interesting discussion about that yest with Justina as well.Oh well, i can't say anything cos Ive never been attached-thank god. Haha i'll prob be the most nightmarish gf on the face of the planet!
Was watching the BUSH-KERRY debates live from Washington University on CNA. Bush is full of crap. I hope Kerry wins. I shall not dive into the reasons why. Had you watched the debates, you'd agree too.
Alright, Ive gotta resume reading through piles of dusty books from "University of Singapore". Ancient, I tell you.
PS: i ate in the arts canteen all by myself today.Realised it's really not that bad eating alone!! I just chomped down my food and left! 15 mins only! Time saving. :) Im proud of myself!
I have to.If I don't, I'll be in serious doo-doo cos I have practically no time. There are tests coming up...tests which i cannot afford to screw up.
I skipped econs lect yest. So effectively, i've skipped 3 lects this semester. Twice in a row for econs. So much about conscience. It's not about conscience anymore. It's about being pragmatic. Why bother sitting in an LT if nothing gets through my head? Time is precious in university. I stayed back in school till 9+ yest. Helped Justina do the noticeboard as well.
Speaking of being pragmatic, I want a boyfriend who can drive. What's the point of having a bf if he cant drive? I might as well just date the bus driver.Alright, maybe if he cant drive, at least let him have a car so I can drive it! And he has to be smart so he can help me out in my work. I mean I don't need emotional support or whatever. In fact, why does anyone ever want to have a boyfriend? Had an interesting discussion about that yest with Justina as well.Oh well, i can't say anything cos Ive never been attached-thank god. Haha i'll prob be the most nightmarish gf on the face of the planet!
Was watching the BUSH-KERRY debates live from Washington University on CNA. Bush is full of crap. I hope Kerry wins. I shall not dive into the reasons why. Had you watched the debates, you'd agree too.
Alright, Ive gotta resume reading through piles of dusty books from "University of Singapore". Ancient, I tell you.
PS: i ate in the arts canteen all by myself today.Realised it's really not that bad eating alone!! I just chomped down my food and left! 15 mins only! Time saving. :) Im proud of myself!
OCTOBER 6th entry.
Major major bummer! I totally forgot about Adeline’s birthday on the 5th! To think I was msn-ing her that afternoon!!! Shucks. Sorry ade…for what its worth, Happy Belated 19th Birthday!!! I hope you received my sms though!
Why is it that people I know are ending up in the hospital? First Nenek and then I just heard that Shaun G. got warded for food poisoining. Nenek’s been discharged though. Apparently not much damage has been done to her besides 4 or 5 fractured ribs on her right side. Toilets are super dangerous for old people. Heck, it’s even dangerous to anyone! I remember slipping and falling after I came out of the shower on the first day of school last yr. I have yet to visit her but I shall wait for all the family politics to end.
I hate family politics. Why cant everyone just be open and honest and trust each other? God, whatever it is, I pray that if and when my siblings and I ever get married and move out, we’ll continue to be as tight as we are now.
Which reminds me, bulan puasa is fast approaching. Its next Friday to be precise. Which means, I’ll be fasting soon. The funny thing is, I quite like the idea. I’m beginning to think that lunch is a waste of time:
1) you look for people to eat with
2) you find people to eat with and then you people waste time deciding which canteen to eat
3) you wonder what to eat
4) upon deciding that you’ll have to queue up
5) then you eat and chat and eat and chat
6) then you go to the toilet and fill up your water bottle and
BAM! Break’s over.
So, I have convinced myself. I suppose I will spend my breaks in the comfort of the central lib with fellow ‘fasters’. And since the fasting month is about abstinence, I shall be abstaining not only from food and water, but from vulgarities, gossips, lusting (hahaha) etc etc. Farah will be a nice person with no snide comments about anything for one month, hopefully, that is. And hopefully that one month of cold turkey would do me some good. w HeE~
Oh ya speaking of nice,…Kenneth, you are such a nice dude!! Thanks for the MP3s man! Didn’t aspect you to get it done so fast! So efficient!!! Thanks again!! (wait a sec, are you even gonna read this thing?)
PS: Maybe setting up this blog was a bad idea. I think I’m spending too much time on my laptop, especially because I’m using it to post entries on this blog. This has become a bloody distraction and an outlet for further procrastination. So, STOP BLOGGING!!!
Moby’s EXTREME WAYS is a fabulous psych-up song.
Why is it that people I know are ending up in the hospital? First Nenek and then I just heard that Shaun G. got warded for food poisoining. Nenek’s been discharged though. Apparently not much damage has been done to her besides 4 or 5 fractured ribs on her right side. Toilets are super dangerous for old people. Heck, it’s even dangerous to anyone! I remember slipping and falling after I came out of the shower on the first day of school last yr. I have yet to visit her but I shall wait for all the family politics to end.
I hate family politics. Why cant everyone just be open and honest and trust each other? God, whatever it is, I pray that if and when my siblings and I ever get married and move out, we’ll continue to be as tight as we are now.
Which reminds me, bulan puasa is fast approaching. Its next Friday to be precise. Which means, I’ll be fasting soon. The funny thing is, I quite like the idea. I’m beginning to think that lunch is a waste of time:
1) you look for people to eat with
2) you find people to eat with and then you people waste time deciding which canteen to eat
3) you wonder what to eat
4) upon deciding that you’ll have to queue up
5) then you eat and chat and eat and chat
6) then you go to the toilet and fill up your water bottle and
BAM! Break’s over.
So, I have convinced myself. I suppose I will spend my breaks in the comfort of the central lib with fellow ‘fasters’. And since the fasting month is about abstinence, I shall be abstaining not only from food and water, but from vulgarities, gossips, lusting (hahaha) etc etc. Farah will be a nice person with no snide comments about anything for one month, hopefully, that is. And hopefully that one month of cold turkey would do me some good. w HeE~
Oh ya speaking of nice,…Kenneth, you are such a nice dude!! Thanks for the MP3s man! Didn’t aspect you to get it done so fast! So efficient!!! Thanks again!! (wait a sec, are you even gonna read this thing?)
PS: Maybe setting up this blog was a bad idea. I think I’m spending too much time on my laptop, especially because I’m using it to post entries on this blog. This has become a bloody distraction and an outlet for further procrastination. So, STOP BLOGGING!!!
Moby’s EXTREME WAYS is a fabulous psych-up song.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Blues and Black
I finally did it. I finally mustered the guts to endure the pain. I finally rubbed the blue blacks of my legs. Heh, I wonder who was the genius who thought of it. Its like 85% gone! Yay! You see, klutsy me slip and fell down the stairs near the transitlink/atm machine in school on Sat. Thank god no one was ard to witness it. Haha you should have seen the look on Pema’s face! She was so shocked and worried while I was laughing as I went down the steps! Stupid high heels. Never again!!! Maybe i shouldn't have worn a skirt today. I look abused!
Im in the library now, in my zone. Yup, Ive found my study space and NOBODY will steal it from me. It will henceforth be known as "FARAH's AREA" so keep clear!
Woke up this morn and realised Aba and Umi were not in bed. I thought it was rather weird. Then during psych lect break i got a missed call from Umi. Nenek broke her ribs after falling in the toilet. I hope she's okay. I cant visit her cos i have French from 6-8pm. Maybe I'll visit tmr instead.
Okay, I've got to stop blogging. Need to mug mug mug for french.
Bon apres midi!
Au revoir!!!
Im in the library now, in my zone. Yup, Ive found my study space and NOBODY will steal it from me. It will henceforth be known as "FARAH's AREA" so keep clear!
Woke up this morn and realised Aba and Umi were not in bed. I thought it was rather weird. Then during psych lect break i got a missed call from Umi. Nenek broke her ribs after falling in the toilet. I hope she's okay. I cant visit her cos i have French from 6-8pm. Maybe I'll visit tmr instead.
Okay, I've got to stop blogging. Need to mug mug mug for french.
Bon apres midi!
Au revoir!!!
Monday, October 04, 2004
crack
oh my gosh, oh my gosh. HE has a girlfriend! here i was thinking he's gay or smt. okay, i should feel nothing yet i feel...
hurt.
whatever la. whatever.
still. ouch.
of all the days to find out.
hurt.
whatever la. whatever.
still. ouch.
of all the days to find out.
MY first official post
Phew, finally I've managed to create a post! It seems that my PC at home has bad blogger connection. So that means that i can only blog from school. oh well, at least that means that my lap top would be put to good use.
Ive just had a meeting with my SEA grp. So far so good. We might me done by this weekend, in time for Monday's presentation. That means im only left with the research paper.
Alright, since this is officially my first post, might i just clarify with certain curious friends that i need not validate myself for setting up a blog? I like to express myself. Dont worry, I'll share what i want to. I have a seperate diary where damaging stuff will never surface on this blog. For one, I will not disclose names of ppl, especially if im defaming them. Besides, in my two yrs of keeping a real journal, I've often wished that certain opinions of mine gets aired in public such as my opinions on certain issues pertaining to say current affairs? This blog will therefore be my platform, my talking point, and it would a challenge as well. I mean lets see how far i can go on maintaining this! haha i might just abandon blog!
Oh dear, i just said i needn't validate myself and there i went!!!! Anyway, i hope that this blog could help me redeem myself. I know i act pretty flaky and substance-less in front of people. Sometimes I wonder why I do that. I suppose that makes me seem less intimidating and I like it that way. Flaky flaky flaky. But ppl laugh, and when in turn they feel comfortable. I wasn’t like that last time and I know some of you can attest to that. I was, once upon a time, intense. I still am around these select few ppl. I used to be the one with all the answers too. Now I just shrug them off unless i think that something ought to be corrected or smt. Some people love ‘educating’ me so i just wince in silence if they're wrong. Am i being selfish then? I mean if they think they're so smart, why ruin their happiness? God, im such a ppl pleaser. Heh, look, this blog thingy making me evaluate my self!!!
One more thing i insist on mentioning:Im not gonna make this blog all gloomy...some ppl tend to express such negativity on thier blogs...like its the end of the world!
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL in every single way!!!!!!
Alright, that was a mega long entry. But it’s the first and hopefully not the last…..
PS: I FINISHED MY SEA MUSUEM REPORT AT 12.58 AM THIS MORNING!!!! WHEE~~~~
Ive just had a meeting with my SEA grp. So far so good. We might me done by this weekend, in time for Monday's presentation. That means im only left with the research paper.
Alright, since this is officially my first post, might i just clarify with certain curious friends that i need not validate myself for setting up a blog? I like to express myself. Dont worry, I'll share what i want to. I have a seperate diary where damaging stuff will never surface on this blog. For one, I will not disclose names of ppl, especially if im defaming them. Besides, in my two yrs of keeping a real journal, I've often wished that certain opinions of mine gets aired in public such as my opinions on certain issues pertaining to say current affairs? This blog will therefore be my platform, my talking point, and it would a challenge as well. I mean lets see how far i can go on maintaining this! haha i might just abandon blog!
Oh dear, i just said i needn't validate myself and there i went!!!! Anyway, i hope that this blog could help me redeem myself. I know i act pretty flaky and substance-less in front of people. Sometimes I wonder why I do that. I suppose that makes me seem less intimidating and I like it that way. Flaky flaky flaky. But ppl laugh, and when in turn they feel comfortable. I wasn’t like that last time and I know some of you can attest to that. I was, once upon a time, intense. I still am around these select few ppl. I used to be the one with all the answers too. Now I just shrug them off unless i think that something ought to be corrected or smt. Some people love ‘educating’ me so i just wince in silence if they're wrong. Am i being selfish then? I mean if they think they're so smart, why ruin their happiness? God, im such a ppl pleaser. Heh, look, this blog thingy making me evaluate my self!!!
One more thing i insist on mentioning:Im not gonna make this blog all gloomy...some ppl tend to express such negativity on thier blogs...like its the end of the world!
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL in every single way!!!!!!
Alright, that was a mega long entry. But it’s the first and hopefully not the last…..
PS: I FINISHED MY SEA MUSUEM REPORT AT 12.58 AM THIS MORNING!!!! WHEE~~~~