Hi friends,
Im helping my friend (Kim) out by looking for people interested in adopting a black cat called 'Snowy'. The cat needs a home and needs to be saved from AvA because apparently, the former will electrocute her for 6 hours before letting her die (Im not sure if this is genuinely true, but if it is, Oh My Gosh. like why would you do smt like that?! So cruel!) My friend has been taking care of the cat thus far till someone in her hostel complained and so now the cat needs some saving. Pictures of the cat can be found at http://pinkplushcushions.blogspot.com/
If youre interested or know someone who is, let me know asap and I'll relay the msg to her.
END POST~7.11pm
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
You know, after reading the Ridge, I really want to know how come all these while, arts students arent allowed to S/U their lang modules.
I mean WHAT THE HECK? why on earth was this policy made in the first place? Doesnt mean once youre in fass youre inherently good at ALL languages.
Stupid stupid admin people.
Is there any protests going on? I want to join. I want to S/U my freaking french mods man.
Anyway, Ive already joined this facebook group protesting the S/U thing. People, join the group as well ok? Its quite a rational, peaceful group of people..at least thats what ive gathered from reading the threads. Anyway, link to the group can be found on my facebook profile.
END POST~12.41pm
I mean WHAT THE HECK? why on earth was this policy made in the first place? Doesnt mean once youre in fass youre inherently good at ALL languages.
Stupid stupid admin people.
Is there any protests going on? I want to join. I want to S/U my freaking french mods man.
Anyway, Ive already joined this facebook group protesting the S/U thing. People, join the group as well ok? Its quite a rational, peaceful group of people..at least thats what ive gathered from reading the threads. Anyway, link to the group can be found on my facebook profile.
END POST~12.41pm
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Lesson of the week: Laziness is not an excuse.
Yesterday, I dragged myself to class even though
1) I was unprepared
2) It was my only lesson
3) It was from 6 to 9pm
4) It was just presentations by other groups on readings I havent done
BUT Im glad I did because at least I listened and had an idea on what the readings are about. And apparently, the materials are examinable too.
Anyway, this week will see my final lab participants for this semester. Looks like my hopes of finishing my data collection for guys are dashed. I shall have to continue with them next year.
I have a counselling essay due this friday. Thankfully, its a group essay. Initially I was apprehensive about doing a group term essay cos well, how on earth would ideas flow? But I love love love my group because the guys are so hardworking. So much so that Im the slacker! I havent been the slacker since.....since I cant remember! I feel a little bad cos I havent been putting in much..so Im gonna make sure that my bit of the essay does justice to theirs AND Im gonna make sure that I edit it well :)
Ok, gotta prepare for my next participant :)
END POST~11.09am
Yesterday, I dragged myself to class even though
1) I was unprepared
2) It was my only lesson
3) It was from 6 to 9pm
4) It was just presentations by other groups on readings I havent done
BUT Im glad I did because at least I listened and had an idea on what the readings are about. And apparently, the materials are examinable too.
Anyway, this week will see my final lab participants for this semester. Looks like my hopes of finishing my data collection for guys are dashed. I shall have to continue with them next year.
I have a counselling essay due this friday. Thankfully, its a group essay. Initially I was apprehensive about doing a group term essay cos well, how on earth would ideas flow? But I love love love my group because the guys are so hardworking. So much so that Im the slacker! I havent been the slacker since.....since I cant remember! I feel a little bad cos I havent been putting in much..so Im gonna make sure that my bit of the essay does justice to theirs AND Im gonna make sure that I edit it well :)
Ok, gotta prepare for my next participant :)
END POST~11.09am
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Ah yes, I was going to give my personal take on the current debate about whether a certain law should be abolished. Oh bother. Now Im too lazy to type it out even though I came up with a pretty good post in my head.
But the crux of it is that we simple are not ready and quiet frankly, we may never be ready to revoke it. Does that justify the status quo? Hmm.
Is it fair to those who choose to have sexual habits that are different from the others? Definitely not.
Is it right for the state to trespass on the mate preferences of an individual? Definitely not.
The right to be different. Rights.
After all, if I choose to eat prata, it is my business isnt it? Because I have to fulfil my basic need to survive and I like prata.
But if I choose to kill and eat you, will that still be acceptable as my right to nutrition? An extreme example, I know.
Point is, levels of acceptability are defined by people. We dont eat one another cos we endanger our each and everyone's existence, and that is unacceptable unless we can agree on who we should or should not kill to eat ie, set boundaries. In any case, laws are erect to protect people from acts that fall outside these boundaries of acceptibility.
While same sex preferences does not cause harm (in fact, I feel harm is too unneccessarily harsh a word to use) to others directly, it causes discomfort to others and threatens their deep seated believes and schemas which are governed and manifested in 'moral' or religious doctrines.
So I understand why majority are rooting that the law in question remains. Cos they feel threatened.
But the thing is, must protection come with punishment? Should same sex couples be charged for commiting acts which fulfil their basic needs for emotional and sexual attachment?
The whole furor now came about because that law should have never been formally placed. People have indirect means of shunning an act and placing boundaries. But to punish and conform the needs of others is wrong, esp by the state.
But abolishing the law now is tantamount to sending the message that it is now acceptable ,when it isnt.
It isnt acceptable to people because they cannot reconcile it with their personal and/or collective views on it.
But it is also wrong to deny same sex couples the right to their needs.
What to do? I guess we must all first be tolerant and rational. That is the first step to understanding and the accepting. It took a long time before women had the right to education and blacks and whites could study in the same school.
Its going to take an even longer time for people to accept same sex couples. Discussing about sex itself was or maybe still is difficult and taboo because of the intimate, private and basic nature of it. Whats more to talk about sex preferences?
I say, keep the law for now. Educate the masses because I dont buy their 'disturbing the moral fabric' argument. Seems pretty airy fairy.
Educate. Then see how it goes in future.
Although I have a feeling the law's gonna stay for a very very long time.
Oh why cant people get along?
END POST~1.40pm
But the crux of it is that we simple are not ready and quiet frankly, we may never be ready to revoke it. Does that justify the status quo? Hmm.
Is it fair to those who choose to have sexual habits that are different from the others? Definitely not.
Is it right for the state to trespass on the mate preferences of an individual? Definitely not.
The right to be different. Rights.
After all, if I choose to eat prata, it is my business isnt it? Because I have to fulfil my basic need to survive and I like prata.
But if I choose to kill and eat you, will that still be acceptable as my right to nutrition? An extreme example, I know.
Point is, levels of acceptability are defined by people. We dont eat one another cos we endanger our each and everyone's existence, and that is unacceptable unless we can agree on who we should or should not kill to eat ie, set boundaries. In any case, laws are erect to protect people from acts that fall outside these boundaries of acceptibility.
While same sex preferences does not cause harm (in fact, I feel harm is too unneccessarily harsh a word to use) to others directly, it causes discomfort to others and threatens their deep seated believes and schemas which are governed and manifested in 'moral' or religious doctrines.
So I understand why majority are rooting that the law in question remains. Cos they feel threatened.
But the thing is, must protection come with punishment? Should same sex couples be charged for commiting acts which fulfil their basic needs for emotional and sexual attachment?
The whole furor now came about because that law should have never been formally placed. People have indirect means of shunning an act and placing boundaries. But to punish and conform the needs of others is wrong, esp by the state.
But abolishing the law now is tantamount to sending the message that it is now acceptable ,when it isnt.
It isnt acceptable to people because they cannot reconcile it with their personal and/or collective views on it.
But it is also wrong to deny same sex couples the right to their needs.
What to do? I guess we must all first be tolerant and rational. That is the first step to understanding and the accepting. It took a long time before women had the right to education and blacks and whites could study in the same school.
Its going to take an even longer time for people to accept same sex couples. Discussing about sex itself was or maybe still is difficult and taboo because of the intimate, private and basic nature of it. Whats more to talk about sex preferences?
I say, keep the law for now. Educate the masses because I dont buy their 'disturbing the moral fabric' argument. Seems pretty airy fairy.
Educate. Then see how it goes in future.
Although I have a feeling the law's gonna stay for a very very long time.
Oh why cant people get along?
END POST~1.40pm
I was going to post something intelligent. And then I forgot what I wanted to say.
You know, I think my neurons are dying at an exponential rate. My memory is poorer and my absorption rate of new information is significantly slower than it was 2 years ago, and pathetic compared to what it was 10 years ago.
Am I the only one experiencing the effects of ageing at this point in my life? I'm actually quite afraid.
And frustrated.
END POST~12.43pm
You know, I think my neurons are dying at an exponential rate. My memory is poorer and my absorption rate of new information is significantly slower than it was 2 years ago, and pathetic compared to what it was 10 years ago.
Am I the only one experiencing the effects of ageing at this point in my life? I'm actually quite afraid.
And frustrated.
END POST~12.43pm
Sunday, October 21, 2007
I seriously have issues with failure.
Ive psychoanalysed myself. And this is what Ive found out so far. Im leaving the developmental/psychodynamic bit out first..
Anyway, my ultimate goal in life is to be happy and satisfied. In order to get there, I need to feel a sense of accomplishment..success in a nutshell. I define success to be realised when I get favourable outcomes of something which I put in effort in. Hence, if its something favourable which I get without putting effort, well, that isnt really success to me. That would be a bonus.
So because I want success and happiness so much, I want to put in as much effort as I can into things I do. But, because of this need for success and the need to put in all my energy into that something so I'll feel the satisfaction later, I get afraid that all my efforts will go to waste if the outcome isnt the one I want.
Hence I end up with maladaptive coping styles. Avoidance coping to be precise. Which would explain the 2 movies, shopping cum eating spree I had yesterday, and the raya open house I attended despite having something due this afternoon.
So now I know why I procrastinate and why I binge eat when Im stressed.
Still explaination does not equal justification.
Gosh, I need therapy.
END POST~11.17pm
Ive psychoanalysed myself. And this is what Ive found out so far. Im leaving the developmental/psychodynamic bit out first..
Anyway, my ultimate goal in life is to be happy and satisfied. In order to get there, I need to feel a sense of accomplishment..success in a nutshell. I define success to be realised when I get favourable outcomes of something which I put in effort in. Hence, if its something favourable which I get without putting effort, well, that isnt really success to me. That would be a bonus.
So because I want success and happiness so much, I want to put in as much effort as I can into things I do. But, because of this need for success and the need to put in all my energy into that something so I'll feel the satisfaction later, I get afraid that all my efforts will go to waste if the outcome isnt the one I want.
Hence I end up with maladaptive coping styles. Avoidance coping to be precise. Which would explain the 2 movies, shopping cum eating spree I had yesterday, and the raya open house I attended despite having something due this afternoon.
So now I know why I procrastinate and why I binge eat when Im stressed.
Still explaination does not equal justification.
Gosh, I need therapy.
END POST~11.17pm
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Allahu akbar, Allahu akbar, Allahu akbar. La ilaaha il Allah Allahu akbar. Allah hu akbar Wa Lillaahi'lhamd..
Meaning: Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest. There is no god worthy of worship except Allah. Allah is the greatest and all praise due to Allah.
The takbir Aidilfitri (above prayer) has never failed to cause a lump in my throat. For any muslim who hears the melodic reading of the takbir, Im quite sure a myriad of emotions will run through his/her veins. It marks the end of Ramadan. The holy month when the gates of heaven are open and that of hell, closed, with syaitan chained away. The month of introspection, the month of renewed faith. I was struggling to hold back my tears last night during break fast when the prayer came on the radio.
I felt a tinge of regret because this Ramadan hasnt been as fruitful as I wished I had made it out to be. For one, I was consumed by worldly affairs, grumbling about tests, datelines, work,etc. etc. I did not manage to read as much on my faith as I wanted to. I did not sembahyang terawih as often as I would like to. It was only towards the remaining days that I felt this indescribable feeling of blessed to be born Muslim. To be proud of who I am. In spite of the unfortunate misunderstandings of this beautiful religion.
I read the papers today and I felt a rush when I read how this boy read up on various religions and settled on Islam. Alhamdulillah. Now, dont get me wrong, I dont support evangelism at all. I dont believe in pushing people, cornering them into adopting a faith out of obligation or guilt. So, when I hear about people reading up on Islam by themselves, completely voluntary, and trying to understand it with a clear mind, I feel happy for them. Even if they dont end up Muslims, at least they had a thorough read about it :) Thats what the boy did. Good on him :)
The other thing I'll miss abt Ramadan will be the nightly dinners with my family. There's hardly any other period except Ramadan when everyone at home makes their darnest effort to break fast together, and then pray as a family.
Anyway, Insya-Allah, we'll get to experience the next Ramadan together :)
So, today's Hari Raya! :):):) As usual, my family winds up rushing to clean the house and stuff cos everyone's busy with work every other day. Everything's so last minute. Can you believe I was in the middle of scrubbing my toilet when aunty and family came over. So embarrasing. So cleaning and stuff was done by 2 plus. Then we slacked around and finally left home at 5pm. Haha! We managed to cover 4 houses today and I think that's it for me this year cos I have lots of work to finish.
In a nutshell, only 1 relative remarked abt me gaining weight (wohhoo!) and another said I lost weight (she must be short sighted) :) Overall, ok la..I enjoyed myself :)
Alright, its nearly midnight. I'll need to finish up some work before I sleep.
So, I just want to end this post by saying Eid Mubarak and Maaf zahir batin. If Ive offended anyone with my thoughts, words or actions, please accept my sincerest apologies, ya?
END POST~11.46pm
Meaning: Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest. There is no god worthy of worship except Allah. Allah is the greatest and all praise due to Allah.
The takbir Aidilfitri (above prayer) has never failed to cause a lump in my throat. For any muslim who hears the melodic reading of the takbir, Im quite sure a myriad of emotions will run through his/her veins. It marks the end of Ramadan. The holy month when the gates of heaven are open and that of hell, closed, with syaitan chained away. The month of introspection, the month of renewed faith. I was struggling to hold back my tears last night during break fast when the prayer came on the radio.
I felt a tinge of regret because this Ramadan hasnt been as fruitful as I wished I had made it out to be. For one, I was consumed by worldly affairs, grumbling about tests, datelines, work,etc. etc. I did not manage to read as much on my faith as I wanted to. I did not sembahyang terawih as often as I would like to. It was only towards the remaining days that I felt this indescribable feeling of blessed to be born Muslim. To be proud of who I am. In spite of the unfortunate misunderstandings of this beautiful religion.
I read the papers today and I felt a rush when I read how this boy read up on various religions and settled on Islam. Alhamdulillah. Now, dont get me wrong, I dont support evangelism at all. I dont believe in pushing people, cornering them into adopting a faith out of obligation or guilt. So, when I hear about people reading up on Islam by themselves, completely voluntary, and trying to understand it with a clear mind, I feel happy for them. Even if they dont end up Muslims, at least they had a thorough read about it :) Thats what the boy did. Good on him :)
The other thing I'll miss abt Ramadan will be the nightly dinners with my family. There's hardly any other period except Ramadan when everyone at home makes their darnest effort to break fast together, and then pray as a family.
Anyway, Insya-Allah, we'll get to experience the next Ramadan together :)
So, today's Hari Raya! :):):) As usual, my family winds up rushing to clean the house and stuff cos everyone's busy with work every other day. Everything's so last minute. Can you believe I was in the middle of scrubbing my toilet when aunty and family came over. So embarrasing. So cleaning and stuff was done by 2 plus. Then we slacked around and finally left home at 5pm. Haha! We managed to cover 4 houses today and I think that's it for me this year cos I have lots of work to finish.
In a nutshell, only 1 relative remarked abt me gaining weight (wohhoo!) and another said I lost weight (she must be short sighted) :) Overall, ok la..I enjoyed myself :)
Alright, its nearly midnight. I'll need to finish up some work before I sleep.
So, I just want to end this post by saying Eid Mubarak and Maaf zahir batin. If Ive offended anyone with my thoughts, words or actions, please accept my sincerest apologies, ya?
END POST~11.46pm
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
My first time submitting an assignment late.
Skipped counseling to finish it..Im glad I did!
Anyhoos, the bulk of deadlines are OVER~ :)
And can you believe its almost hari raya? This month's gone by so fast I can hardly keep up!
So anyway, something's happened to my face. See, I was trying to pretty myself for raya cos lately Ive had a couple of pimples. When Im stressed, i touch my face...a lot. So, i went and put oxy on my zits..maybe I put too much or smt because after I washed it off, my face started itching like crazy. And the itch was terrible.
Now, my skin's feeling tight and mighty dry andwhen i touch my face, i can feel the dryness..it feels.. scaly.
Sobs. I want my face back.
END POST~3.11pm
Skipped counseling to finish it..Im glad I did!
Anyhoos, the bulk of deadlines are OVER~ :)
And can you believe its almost hari raya? This month's gone by so fast I can hardly keep up!
So anyway, something's happened to my face. See, I was trying to pretty myself for raya cos lately Ive had a couple of pimples. When Im stressed, i touch my face...a lot. So, i went and put oxy on my zits..maybe I put too much or smt because after I washed it off, my face started itching like crazy. And the itch was terrible.
Now, my skin's feeling tight and mighty dry andwhen i touch my face, i can feel the dryness..it feels.. scaly.
Sobs. I want my face back.
END POST~3.11pm
Monday, October 08, 2007
I have to complete a 2000 word essay by midnight. Which leaves me with abt 7 hours. My mind is blank.
Ive decided to hand in the thing late. Oh, Im gonna try to make the dateline. Otherwise, forget it. No point rushing and doing a crappy piece of crap-a-doodle -smoke- nonsense- waste- of- time- to- read-essay-shit, right?
I can do this. I just need to focus and narrow the scope of things.
My question? After changing my mind ever so many times?
" What would you regard as the most significant attribute separating humans from animals, and how might it have evolved?"
How can I not be philo about this? I hate philo. Darn evo.
I need a miracle.
END POST~4.40pm
Ive decided to hand in the thing late. Oh, Im gonna try to make the dateline. Otherwise, forget it. No point rushing and doing a crappy piece of crap-a-doodle -smoke- nonsense- waste- of- time- to- read-essay-shit, right?
I can do this. I just need to focus and narrow the scope of things.
My question? After changing my mind ever so many times?
" What would you regard as the most significant attribute separating humans from animals, and how might it have evolved?"
How can I not be philo about this? I hate philo. Darn evo.
I need a miracle.
END POST~4.40pm
Saturday, October 06, 2007
I was supposed to be doing reseach for my evo essay today but I woke up feeling very lethargic. Props for getting up anyway considering I hadnt slept a wink on thurs cos I was preparing for friday's tests and assignment.
So instead, today was....Pamper Self Saturday :D
It all started with my sister asking me if I'd like to accompany her at the hairsalon. She was gonna treat herself after accomplishing something. I was reluctant at first because I was tired and I have a paper due on monday. Then, I decided, what the heck! Im feeling blah and I need a good deal of pampering.
So we booked an appointment at Icon-Shunji Matsuo because well, it sounded chic. But when we got there, it was packed and I didnt like the vibe. I mean, we were ushered into the crammed place and then because there werent enough seats, my sister and I would be seperated. I mean No Way! A visit to the hairsalon is an experience. Its not just the do thats important. Its the whole package! From ambience to company to service. So while no one was looking, I grabbed my sister and we left the salon and headed to One salon, an offshoot of Reds Hairdressing. The minute we stepped in, the service was impressive. The interior was nice too :) And the stylist was friendly and very very patient cos we kept asking him tonnes of questions and recommendations. In the end, my sister got herself straighter hair while I left, with 3 colors in my hair and having abt 3 inches of hair cut off. Style wise, I did ask him to do whatever he wanted with my hair, except chop it all off or anything shorter than my shoulders. I guess he did the best he could with the restrictions and because my type of hair. Ive been asking people if should get a fringe. The verdict is....no. Because my hair is too wavy/curly. So with the exception of the color and highlights, I look pretty much the same from the front. From the back however, the three colors are very distict. And apparently Im supposed to style and scrunge the hair at the back..but I suppose not combing it would be enough :)
So yup. Im happy. My wallet's burnt. But im happy.
Yay :)
END POST~12.16am
So instead, today was....Pamper Self Saturday :D
It all started with my sister asking me if I'd like to accompany her at the hairsalon. She was gonna treat herself after accomplishing something. I was reluctant at first because I was tired and I have a paper due on monday. Then, I decided, what the heck! Im feeling blah and I need a good deal of pampering.
So we booked an appointment at Icon-Shunji Matsuo because well, it sounded chic. But when we got there, it was packed and I didnt like the vibe. I mean, we were ushered into the crammed place and then because there werent enough seats, my sister and I would be seperated. I mean No Way! A visit to the hairsalon is an experience. Its not just the do thats important. Its the whole package! From ambience to company to service. So while no one was looking, I grabbed my sister and we left the salon and headed to One salon, an offshoot of Reds Hairdressing. The minute we stepped in, the service was impressive. The interior was nice too :) And the stylist was friendly and very very patient cos we kept asking him tonnes of questions and recommendations. In the end, my sister got herself straighter hair while I left, with 3 colors in my hair and having abt 3 inches of hair cut off. Style wise, I did ask him to do whatever he wanted with my hair, except chop it all off or anything shorter than my shoulders. I guess he did the best he could with the restrictions and because my type of hair. Ive been asking people if should get a fringe. The verdict is....no. Because my hair is too wavy/curly. So with the exception of the color and highlights, I look pretty much the same from the front. From the back however, the three colors are very distict. And apparently Im supposed to style and scrunge the hair at the back..but I suppose not combing it would be enough :)
So yup. Im happy. My wallet's burnt. But im happy.
Yay :)
END POST~12.16am
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Hmm. I found out that the forensics test will consist of short ans qns and not mcq. Bummer.
Plus point of the day: I am falling in love with statistics again...oh, the joy of understanding the fundamentals behind concepts that people take at face value..oh..if i only had the time to leisurely read each chapter. Why, of course, I had to squander my break by hibernating.
I still have 36 hours so yippie.
I want a popcorn making machine. I was so close to persuading my mother into buying it 2 years ago when it was on sale for just 50 bucks but noo..my sister had to intervene. It was a mini machine. So cute.
I'm going to go hunting for it when this sem is through. I hope they still stock it :)
END POST~6.22pm
Plus point of the day: I am falling in love with statistics again...oh, the joy of understanding the fundamentals behind concepts that people take at face value..oh..if i only had the time to leisurely read each chapter. Why, of course, I had to squander my break by hibernating.
I still have 36 hours so yippie.
I want a popcorn making machine. I was so close to persuading my mother into buying it 2 years ago when it was on sale for just 50 bucks but noo..my sister had to intervene. It was a mini machine. So cute.
I'm going to go hunting for it when this sem is through. I hope they still stock it :)
END POST~6.22pm
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
I have finally woken up from my september slumber. Im finding it hard to breathe suddenly. i guess its because Ive received an email from my sup. Funny how my chest constricts and my blood pressure increases and i have this sudden rush of angst whenever i think of my ht but particularly when i think of that man. A big part of me wants to be benign and let go of all negativity and be zen. The other part wishes he'll keel over and die. And then run over by a truck a few times before an anvil drops onto him, extinguishing the very last breath left in his vile body. SIGH. I know. Such evil thoughts. I never thought i could type that all out and not feel a tinge of remorse and even felt...strangely contented. I guess im really numb la huh.
Anyway, hopefully, in a year's time I'll look back and laugh ruefully.
For now, Im still trying to ensure my zen-ish side prevails. I need to pray more. I need to purge my evil thoughts. I need to be forgiving of people's idiosyncracies. I need to let go.
It is bulan ramadan. I should be at peace. Should. Trying. Sigh.
Astagfirullah.What would the nabi do?
Breathe.
END POST~12.02am