SomethingS new

Yesterday was a first for me. Many firsts actually!

First time double 'dating'. Went out with Yunxian, Raymond and Najib. I thought maybe it would be safer to hang out with more than one person so that if my dad asks where im going i can in all honesty say "with friend-S".

We watched The Island. Not bad lah. First time watching a movie with Yunxian. First time watching a movie at Bugis.

Then for the first time, we all went to the new National Library. Huge.

Quite funny yesterday...me and yx were nervous whether our bfs could get along. They hit it off, thankfully. And i found out that Raymond is such a humorous guy. Funny! And talkative! Yx and Raymond look nice together. :)
And somehow, me and yx kept saying the exact same phrase at the same times! So bizarre!

All in all, it was a nice outing. Wouldnt mind doing it again! :)

Earworm

Did you know that earworm is the word to describe the i-have-a-song-stuck-in-my-head condition.

Yeah, and can you believe i have a malay song stuck in my head now? I was channel surfing yesterday and I chanced upon Suria and they were like playing songs in btw programmes or smt...so here it is. Begone earworm! Whoosh.

"Kaulah segalanya,
yang menyinar hidupku kasih,
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai
Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu, ikhlas sejati"

Im still trying to translate that. Bleaugh. Its a mushy song for sure. But it sounds nice.

HUGE discovery

Alright. Maybe not so huge...but,

GASP!!!!!!!! IVE GROWN FATTER !!!

Im gonna start crying.(as if..trying to be dramatic, so excuse me)
I was clearing my wardrobe this time round...when i chanced upon my VJ skirt. I decided to try it...you know, just to see if i could fit...and to MY HORROR, it was TIGHT! Worse, this is the pair of skirt that i hardly used in jc because it was to LOOSE then.

IM FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do i see the D word approaching? Diet.
And how bout the E word? Exercise.
And the R word? Resist indulgences.



or maybe, just maybe, when i was in jc, i never wore my skirt at waist level but at hip level? Boo. Im not consoled.

Hmm...interesting.

Is he pretending that nothing happened? Cos he's sure acting like that! Smiled at me this morning and even helped me clear my room as I fixed my DIY bookshelf i bought. (I like DIY stuff! I felt like a carpenter. Hehhe...D&T lessons sure did help man.)

Im not complaining. Ive got a few possible reasons why he hasnt asked me;
a) He thinks the sms was meant for HIM. Hmm.
b) He quitely accepts the fact
c) He's testing me and my honesty
d) He didnt read the sms
e) He read the sms and thought it was a joke or smt
f) He lost his hp. RIGHT. I heard it ring this morning.

Either way, i shall listen to what my mom, najib and yunxian (and her mom) said. I shall pretend nothing happened and if he asks me, i'll tell him its a joke. OR i could tell him the truth. I mean eventually i would, wouldnt i? Its just too soon.

Ah well. I'll think of that later. I have bigger issues at hand. Im in the midst of clearing my room now that ive gotten my shelves. Im tired. And everything's like spewing on the floor. My sis will not be a happy person when she gets back. Doesnt help that she's sleep deprived cos of her night shift.

Bleaugh. Im HUNGRY. Shall eat first.

Complete Blunder.

I am so mega screwed. Couldnt sleep last night. Two reasons for that really.

First is the fact that im still partially DEAF in my right ear and im getting very irritated. Ive tried everything: from pinching my nose and blowing (hoping air would shoot out) and blowing my nose hard to jumping up and down. Im beginning to think i have mucus in my ear cos there was too much in my nose so it spread. GARGHHHHHHHH. I hate sticky green icky mucus. get OUT of me!

The next reason. You would not belive it. I sent an sms meant for my boyfriend to MY DAD. HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO GOONDU? And i didnt notice it till two hours later when i checked my 'sent' messages folder. Told Najib bout it and he was like "act cool"...told my mom and she was like "you didnt send anything mushy right?" RIGHT. I am so screwed. Mom told me to pretend its a joke to a friend or smt. And she laughed. I could have banged my head into a wall....i was so nervous. Luckily, my dad didnt come home till late last night. He's sleeping now.

Wonder what the aftermath would be like. Pray for me, dear friends.

God, help me.

Blocked

Woke up this morning to discover that my right ear is blocked! Im partially deaf! Gargh. You know that feeling when water gets in your ear after swimming? Yes, irritating isnt it. I want my ear back!

Am msn-ing with justina and yx now....kenneth too. Ken's still in switzerland and he's bought me chocolates! Yay! Justina and Yx discussing whether we have time to hang out for a while cos ive got tuition at 4pm. What a time. Tuition smacked in the day till 8pm. -_-

Got my abnormal psych module so im left with my gem and SS. I hope my points are enough cos i didnt come up with a back up plan...so i might be left with 4 modules. Crap. So i pray i get both modules!!!!!

Was just browsing thru the announcement on IVLE and i chanced upon this wakeboarding intro class.....oooh..i want...but i dont wanna go alone. Yunxian seems keen....any more takers? Its 60 or 65 bucks and will be held next wed and thur (3rd and 4th Aug)...Come on, it'll be fun!

anyone else interested?

Kissed by the sun

Im burnt.

At first, i thought the red glowy-ness of my skin's kinda cool..and the fact that somehow, the combination of sun and saltwater tightens your skin into a naturally botoxed state was splendid....then the reverse happened...

Red has turned to black..and my tight skin has given way to flaky skin...Gargh.

Tioman was fantastic nonetheless. A nice, quick getaway sums it up. Went snorkelling and stuff. So nice!! The waters are pristine and definitely inviting. If only the waters in singapore arent so polluted. Maybe then i'd venture to swim at the beaches here. In any case, its good that the beaches in Malaysia are nice enough. It took me only 4-6 hours to get to Tioman. Nice.

The journey home was scary tho. It was raining and so the little speedboat we were on had to brave the choppy waves. Each time we collided with an incoming wave, it felt like we were hitting concrete. I've never been so afraid....we were at the mercy of the vast sea. But faith...a whole lot of it calmed me..and i know we'd be okay. If youve ever watched the movie A Perfect Storm or the likes of that, then im sure you'll know what i mean by choppy. And scary.

After surviving that 1 hour ride, we landed safely in Mersing only to almost fall prey into the hands of this cheat-of-a-driver. He wanted to charge us his "special" price of RM$240 to singapore. What rubbish. We paid only RM$110 to get to Mersing. I guess he saw my dad's golf clubs and expected us to be willing to pay. He kept tailing us even though my dad said No. Eventually, he brought it down to RM$120. So we agreed. Then, even before we left, he pretended that he needed some money for gas and that he was out of it. He kept turning the ignition switch when my dad told us that he saw the tank was full....so the guy dropped us off at the gas station and went off! (he could still drive off when he claims his tank was empty?!!) Then, another car from behind, which my dad thinks had been tailing us, offered to send us back. So dubious. Luckily, a bus to Johor was parked at the station.We hopped on the bus and were off. From there, we took the singapore-JB express and my gosh, i felt so safe to reach the singapore immigration. So safe.

Bidding has commenced! I hope i get the mods i want. So far, i only need to bid for abnormal psych in this round.

Going to run some errands with my sister in a while...and i have YET to clear my room and revise my french...

PROCRASTINATION is EVIL.

Off to Tioman!!

Alright guys, Im off! I hope sunny weather will greet us when we get to the lovely island!

I'll be leaving in a few hours...gonna take a drive up to Mersing or smt and then take a ferry from there because Tanah Ferry terminal STOPPED direct ferrys/ferries from here! -_-.

Anyway, I will be back latest by this Monday.

Yup! Seeya!!!!!

Rain rain go AWAY.

I dont like rainy days. I wanna see the clear blue skies again. I wanna see sunshine again! I wanna get better! *sniffs*

On a lighter note, I GOT STATS 2 PREALLOCATED!!!! Wohoooooo! Yes! Im one step closer to getting all the modules i want. All i need is to bid for abnormal, ss and Gem. So if SS is really from the general account, then i can dedicate all my programme account to abnormal psych! Yay. :)

Aww...just got an sms from him...he wanted to call me but they have to assemble. And he put that sad face thingy :( So sweet of him.
But funny thing is, i always thought they would be busy busy busy running around, rolling in mud and digging trenches. Apparently, they have a lot of free time. He even admits that training hasnt been as intensive as he expected. Hmm.

Feel kinda bad for not helping daphne with the BBQ. It turns out that i might not be able to come down for the BBQ on thurs..i wont be celebrating gene's bdae in that case.....cos im leaving on thurs instead. And tmr is the exco chalet but i cant come cos ive got tuition...

Am i turning into an unsociable person? I mean, i havent really been going for any Swaps activity, have i?

So am i? Hmm.

Sniffles

Why do i always fall sick just before a trip?

But my grandma is right. If im sick, i shouldnt mop around the house and act all sick. I should go out...and do stuff! Take my mind off the fact that my body is weak and my nose is runny and my eyes watery.

So im going to go shopping later! Whee~

I just hope i dont collapse.

Oh yes, never watch alien vs predator, minority report and the stepford wives all on the same day. You wouldnt be able to have a peaceful dream. What a nightmare!

And its funny that the video rental near my place categorised Stepford wives as comedy. IT should be put under horror, in my opinion.

Alright, my neck and shoulders are achy cos im lying down and propping myself up to type this. Yup.

And i miss him. Boo. :( Wont be seeing him till the end of the month cos even when his confinement ends this weekend, i'll be away at tioman. Ah well.

inertia again..whats new?

I am bored. But i am one heckuva lazy person. I cant seem to get myself to do anything productive!

I mean, i woke up early this morn (7am) and went back to sleep cos i had nothing to do after reading the papers. Woke up again at 12 noon and decided to clean up the house, including my room. So yes, i swept almost the whole house, tidied the hall and i must say, it does look significantly neater...but when i got to my room, i looked around and groaned. No way. Not today. So i just tidied up my table a little and get this cleared my wallet. I felt contented throwing all the receipts.

Ive finished reading the books i borrowed from the library yesterday. Was supposed to go out with Yunxian but it rained so we called it off.
I know i have things to do. I just remembered that i have TWO portfolios to write for SWAPS. I just cant get myself started...and i know im supposed to start revising my french. Kenneth informed me earlier that the immersion peeps have improved tremendously so im like in deep trouble.

But i cant seem to get started. Hmm..but i gotta get started soon. Time is running out. School is starting real soon and i wanna make sure ive settled everything by then.

Oh yeah! Im going tioman somewhere next week when my sis gets her leave! Woohooo! :)

Listening to the radio now...The Darkness' "I believe in a thing called love" never fails to make me laugh..especially when i think of their MTV. Hahahahahhahahahahahhaha....

Un fit.

What does a girl who hasnt run for ages and who cant really run to begin with is asked to run with her friend? And the tiny lil fact that her friend CAN really run? That he completed a 10Km marathon and came in 18th (and that was when he just recovered) and he considers 3km a sprint when the girl considers it a marathon?

Gargh. [buries face in pillow]

Ive told him countless times that i cannot run for nuts. Why do people who can run always assume everyone can run like them? I cant. Ask my JC classmates. I mean ask anyone.
And the tiny fact that im pretty verbally abusive when im tired. I mean, imagine running beside someone who's all smiley and "come on, you can..." and all you feel is slapping the person with a frying pan. Or your hands. If you had the strength, that is.

I feel like a slob....BUT
I feel so motivated by him to run though.

But i will not run with him. Yet. Thank goodness he's stuck at camp. Hahhahahahha...i highly doubt he'd wanna run on his off days. Then again.

ok ok ok ok ok. Im gonna run....soon....its for my health. And my mental well being. I feel like a slob. I need to run off that feeling. I wanna feel the adrenaline. I wanna feel a little bit more alive.

I hope i can get pass 1 km. Dear God, i hope i can.

Good evening

[Yawn] Just woke up. Nyak. Nyak. Nyak.

Oh man, i was so psyched up for school till i realised last Thurs and was reminded again today (my bro's commencement ceremony) about how painful it would be to wake up early every morning and take that ardously long journey to school. (to think on normal days, i'd have to take public transpot) I hope i get the time table i want. Please let me get the time table i took so long to draft. Please.

Anyway, i wont be able to go on Msn much till i figure out whats wrong with the wireless connection to my lap top. For any computer whizzes out there, what on earth are "packets"? How come my lap top can send but cannot receive? And when i do get online, i'd get d/c in no time cos of the packets thingy. It was perfectly fine before!!

Im thinking of chucking my table and buying a bookshelf. I dont even use the table. And i need e space for books. Ive only taken two semesters and i dont have space already. IKEA, anyone?

Amusing. If only i could count the number of people asking me the same question. Yes. I am with someone. And haha, you know that "Your profile has been viewed xx times since mm/dd/yy" on friendster? Amazing how the number shot up when i put a pic of us online.

Speaking of him, he will be out for his grad tmr!

Anyway, had a SWAPS exco meeting yesterday. Wasnt in a meeting mode yest so i kinda blah things. Until i had food that is. Before that, i felt that i was outside looking in on the rest. Wow. Ive never seen such a dedicated and extremely passionate bunch of people. My hats off to all of you. Shame on me for sitting amongst you while in all honesty, i was kinda bo chap then. Then again, that was before i had food in my system. Im pretty sure, deep down, i do care. I mean, heck, come to think of it, i do! I mean SWAPS welcomed me and coloured my first year as an undergrad. I instantly made friends and learnt a lot over the two semesters. Learnt my limitations. My strenghts. Whatever happens to the society, i will always cherish the times i had with the 18th exco.

As to whether the society will split, we all know it is the inevitable. The arguments made for and against the motion were kinda balanced and yet circular at the same time. I do hope that whatever decision we make, it will be a decision that we can look back on and be satisfied with.

Jolted

I was rudely awoken this morning by a very very loud and extremely frightening drone from outside my window and which seemed to have lasted forever.

The time was 3.30am.....AM. IN THE MORNING when it happened. At first it was a faint drone...then it got progressively and deafeningly loud. My eyes opened instantaneously. Thoughts dashed in and out of my head. Could this be it? Armageddon? End of the world? (its was 3 bloody AM i must emphasise). I looked out the window and to my horror, i saw........

TANKS. SAF TANKS.And those bridge builders thingy. Streaming happily along Avenue 9.

War? Whats happening??!! Then, tugging very hard at the back of my head, came a more realistic probability....NDP. And that got me so angry.

What is their problem? Tearing down civilian streets like that in the wee hours of the morning? Scaring people out of their sleeps, making sleep deprived people jump to radical conclusions? I hope nobody suffered from outbreaks of hysteria!!

So much for stealth army boys. Sheesh!

And i was really really frightened. Especially cos i was alone in the room. Sis was at work. Man, was i scared. I covered my ears but the droning went on for the next goodness knows how many more minutes before slowly ebbing away in the distance.

So much for my hope of having an uninterupted sleep.

potluck?

So like why are potlucks called potlucks?

Anyway, the potluck went pretty fine....friends actually prepared food! Like rice and chicken and fish...all i brought was snacks...it was nice hanging with my sec school peeps...reminiscing bout the past..and all the zany memories...havent seen manju in ages and my gosh, she's still the same! Havent seen yali since i left dunman either! Then of course there was Tini, shikin and aisyah...farhana has mumps and widya couldnt make it.

Nice time at pasir ris park.....

And then i got a call from him. :) :) :)
He says he's fine, his bunk mates are on, the mats there are funny and that his company/bunk/whatever overlooks the sea. And the best part, he"ll be out this tues night cos he has to attend his graduation ceremony, which means that there might be a possibility that we can go out for a while. What a bonus!

so anyway, why are potlucks so called?

Many a things hath happened...

Thursday was my sis's commencement. Was and still am so proud of her... :) We were granted access to the VIP area cos my sister was chosen as one of those to meet President SR Nathan...So we got to mingle with him (he asked my father which part of Pakistan we were originally from...Hahahah) and took pics with him and Dr Tony Tan. The president was a chatty guy really!

Also, remember that wannabe reality tv date show "eye for a guy" or whatever? Well, that wolfgang guy was there...his bro was graduating too..pretty good looking chap.

Anyhow, my sis came out in the malay papers yesterday...to inspire the malay/muslim community i suppose. hmm.

And, Najib enlisted. Gargh...its only for 3 weeks before he can come out but i cant help feeling kinda heavy hearted....worse, i fell asleep when he tried to call. [kick self] ah well. I"ll be seeing him soon... :)

Went out with cheryl too...she dragged me out so i wont wallow at home alone..thank you my "favourite friend"! hehehhehehehehhehehe

And later ive got tuition (after a month hiatus, i almost forgot i have a job!) and meeting up my sec school friends for a potluck at pasir ris park....

Then next week.....i dunno whats happening next week...im thinking of getting my life in order before school...ive kinda gotten a rough time table out...and oh yes, farah, PLEASE REMEMBER TO SELECT A SLOT FOR FRENCH LECTS BY NEXT WED.

That oughta remind me!

have a nice weekend y'all!

resistant to change

Why? Why must NUS bloody change the system? Its so troublesome trying to piece a perfect time table for next sem. First, i have to memorise the module codes. Then, i gotta check if the exams clash on a different page....then i gotta go to other faculty websites to get the codes of the other mods i want....GARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forget it. I shall plan later.

Its the holidays. Its still the holidays.

I feel like blogging

Yesterday was my daddy's birthday. Yep, 4th of July. It was a nice little family party. Just the six of us, nice and cosy.....I gave him some inspirational poster (cos he's been looking worried these days...dunno why) and some MPH vouchers cos he loves books and i just couldnt find the right one for him..so yeah...and i gave him a big hug. :). The others are gonna get him a home theatre system...right...that led to discussions on how our hall should be redecorated and bla bla bla....all 6 of us just sat there and started discussing...it was nice...it was no longer just the parents making the decisions...all of us have a say now...anyway,

I love my dad so much.

The day before was my cousin Linda's and my friend Shaun's birthday...even though you guys arent near me, doesnt mean id forget you know!!

And so, today. Well, nothing happening. Might be going out with him

Tomorrow:Might be going out with him again

Thurs:My sister's commencement and my parents 28th wedding anniversary.

Fri: My baby's off. SIGH. :(
Going out with cheryl to take my mind off it.

And from then on, i would very much like to go out with you....yes, you reading this right now...cos i"ll probably be miserable and bored at home....or maybe i might just plunge into getting ready for the next sem.....i STILL havent cleared my room!!!!

Right....oh yeah, i feel kinda out of Re-fresh.....its like i was looking thru the pics (just briefly) and i realised that im not like in e photos...i wasnt there much....even though i worked on the publicity for the camp...i still feel so detached. Like i wasnt in the main com at all. In fact, even while i was there, i felt pretty alienated. It seems the progs ppl seem to be the ones who were useful and stuff...Dreaded the pre-camp especially. Ah well. At least the others had fun and the camp was relatively a success so in that sense, i feel happy that my job was done.

I feel down. Perk me up. Please.

Bleaurgh. Happy thoughts happy thoughts!!! Ok, feel better now.

pour moi??

A call from France!! For me?

Yeah! My gosh, i thought kenneth was joking when he said he's calling from France....he did mention where but i kinda forgot! Heh. Apparently, he was waiting for his train to Paris where he's heaing to Marseiile after so he had time to kill hence he decided to call me cos he misses me!! So sweeeeeeeeeeeeet! Nobody's ever called me from a different continent and spoken to me for more than 10 mins! Ok, other than my Aunt but still! Whoa!!! :)

Another reason why i believe that i have wonderful friends in this world!!

Anyway, he told me that he met up with some of the students from NUS who went for the immersion..and he said that they've gotten significantly better...they even went on to study the grammar we'll learn next sem. GREAT. Just great. I know nuts. I gotta start refreshing my brain...and SOON.

Ah well, till then, let me slob...and heal my back....speaking of which, i can walk! Though i hardly think i can survive walking/sitting for long durations....HEAL BACK...HEAL!!!!

Feel so loved..

Thanks guys. Thank you so much for all the concern. Smses that have been pouring in asking me how i am. Not to mention the tags too. Thank you.....Im okay..I"ll live!

And, Im GETTING BETTER!!!!!!!!

I pretty sure i"ll be okay in another 2 to 3 days time. Medicated plaster im using is really helpful. Like millions of tiny ppl massaging me all the time..ahh..

Well, the docs said (haha, my sis and bro lah...i mean i"ll never have to see a doctor again in my life! so cool. and convenient. and FREE consultation.hehehe.) its either a muscle sprain or slip disc which is now ruled out. So yea, its a muscle sprain. My personal physiotherapist (farhana, even tho she's still a student) said that my back muscles are weak and are in shock. Massaging might aggravate it especially if the person doing know nuts so i better not massage it. She also said medicated plasters may provide temporary pain relief. So like what my docs said, I just need to rest it out. Might take days or even weeks to completely recover.

And yes cheryl, i might have to learn yoga and pilates soon. Farhana recommended it to me. Said at my age, i still have time to strengthen it....otherwise, when im older, i might end up with chronic back pain. So any idea where i can sign up? or can you be my personal yogi? :)