This is my 660th post. And this isnt a happy one.

Ive been hobbling to get around as there's something wrong with my right foot. What exactly? I have no freaking idea. Sprain? Fracture? I dont know.

Dont you hate it when you have no control over your own body? For instance, what's causing you intense pain? Finding out what ailment you have gives you some control because then you'd know how to treat or manage it. But I dont even know what I have. I'm so freaking angry that the doctor I went to see last week refused to give me an x-ray. Doing so would have given me closure if it truly isn't a fracture. Why was he so insistent on not acceding to my request so much so that he said " clinically, there's nothing wrong with you". But if that's the case, why does it bloody hurt when i walk? I'm paying for it so why cant you just gimme the damn x-ray? Well, stuff my pain up yours, you pompous man. You have x-ray vision ah? Honestly, do some doctors have some god-complex issues or what?

Anyway, been having quite a temper lately.

I. Have. Mood. Issues.

And yet another 100 bucks, this time on shoes! :) Quite a deal, though. Two comfortable, cushion-y pairs for just under a hundred. Yay!

Walked by level one of the new mall. Whoa. Didnt realise I was still in tamp until I left the building and saw the interchange. Why would I ever move? We have everything here!

Note to self: Look good = feel good (even on rainy mondays)

I found a miracle pill that chases blocked nose away. Atarax. I used to be anti-pill popping cos I believed my body can heal itself with plenty of rest. Well, true. But little bitter pills help the body heal faster. Natural way good. Natural plus little boost is even better.

I've been holing up in bed since Friday night, ocassionally heading down to get food supply (cereal bars..no appetite). I feel slighty better now although all that lying down has made me light headed when standing. I tend to swerve to the left or to the right when walking. But I'm so glad the sore throat is gone. I hate sore throats. But it's a mandatory stage before the big ah-choo. Once the sneezes kick in, the soreness wanes.

Was thinking of hanging out by myself and getting fresh air. I havent done that in ages. Take a bus, take a nice walk around..and just be with myself. Oh, but the weather...grey clouds...I feel like just staying in bed and wrapping myself in blankets and watch dvds/movies. Work tomorrow. I'm so glad it was a long weekend to recuperate.

and of course,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! :):):)

The prospect of working on a saturday morning sucks to the core. Context statement arose fr may have sparked the following thread though ive had it simmering in my head for quite some time already.

To do: Find a consistent commitment on Sat mornings (and afternoon if possible) so will remain untouchable henceforth. I would rather do a thousand things than to take freaking public transport to freaking other end of singapore on freaking saturday.

Criteria: Must be highly inflexible (i.e. cannot skip) so it is 1) valid 2) shows im really not skiving 3) shows i have a life outside work and thus can no longer be assumed that im easily available 4) makes me feel morally guilt-free cos its valid what. what to do?

Possibility: regular physiotherapy sessions or some gym things or classes.

Any suggestions, people?

Blisters are part of life, it's true. But lately, they've been a huge part of mine. Week after week, the abuse continues. My poor toes.

We miss slippers.

So I spent nearly $200 yesterday. $150 on clothes and the rest on food. I wanted to shop and I wanted to splurge but why did I feel so conflicted on my way home then and feel uneasy still? Two possibilities:

1. I regret buying two black dresses that are work-ish
2. I didnt get to buy that black dress from zara (for going out)

The more i think about it, the more I want that darn zara dress. But that would make 3 black dresses. But its so pretty..and comfy..and I want it. But where am i going to wear it to? But a girl can live with more dresses than she needs, right? I mean one can always keep in case an event crops up...and ta-da! Dress available. Hmm. Should I? Should I? (Yx is probably sick of me vacillating). Maybe I should wait it out. If im still feeling unsatiated by next weekend, Im going to get it. Oh yeah.

I have turned into a consumerist.

On a separate note, it's been a fabulous workless weekend! Pity the weather is crazy. So hot yesterday and now it's overcast. Might go for a short run in a bit. I signed up for 10k run (I know, what was i thinking after injuring myself last year training for it) and that's going to happen May 24. Heh, leaves me over a month to stop gorging self on junk and start lacing up those running shoes. I have resolved not to overtrain like before. Nice, slow jogs..thats all :) Wish me luck.