I'd just like to share the following site with everyone. Please, give it a chance and spare some of your time. View with an open mind. Open.

http://ummahfilms.blogspot.com/2007/07/its-here-ummah-films-season-2-finale.html

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Whine. Whine. Whine.

I am screwed. screw-ed. ARGH!!!!!!!

Its friday. Friday. I have spent one whole bloody week doing nothing productive except my thesis stuff. OH MY GOSH. I have mid term papers on Monday, Tuesday and 2 papers plus an assignment due on Friday.

ALAMAK!!!!!!!!!!

Why, of all the times in the world, must I have irregular sleep patterns?

I can do this. I have time. I can salvage whats left of the week and start mugging...

Im in school now. Gonna settle some lab stuff. Then gonna start on counselling readings. MUST finish counselling readings by today.

Insya-allah.

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Evidence of real procrastination (got this from vemalan's blog) :

I AM
64%
OPTIMUS PRIME
Take the Transformers Quiz



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Found out a sec school friend of mine got engaged recently. I wasnt invited. Mixed feelings about it. At first I was a bit sad and felt left out because another friend got invited and I didnt. Then I realised that I was being plain silly. For one, its an engagement, and only close friends and family are invited. Im not that close la so its understandable. I guess all we shared was a CCA. Anyway, I am happy for her :) A new phase in life. I kinda always knew she'd be the first few friends to get hitched!

Who's next? Ade? :P

PS: procratination. thou art my friend...again.
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Who am I kidding?
There's so much shit in my head.
Everyone keep telling me take things one thing at a time. How can I when everything is swarming and swirling in my head.

Thesis is time consuming. I just want to sit down and read my textbook (for other mods) dammit.

Yes, farah cannot time manage.

Bad bad bad bad bad day. I want to be optimistic but......

*Clench fists*Grit teeth*Chew tongue/gums*

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This is insane! I came home two hours ago and Im still not showered and its nearly 1am.

Haha, remind me never to go on facebook at night. Im finally getting the hang of it. AND I just created a group! NUS Psychology. Heh. I figured that someone had to get the ball rolling...so please, if youre a psych major, join join join!

I had a really cool lab session for forensics early this evening. Fingerprinting! Heh, felt like those Csi people, dusting for fingerprints and all.

Ive also finally ended a segment of data collection so phew :) :) :) All thats left will be the lab sessions for the guys, the 2 online follow ups and lab sessions for females and Im done for data collection. Im hoping to finish the guys by end of Oct while for the females, hopefully by January next year. Meanwhile, I should be done with my lit review and methodology in Dec . Then in Feb, I'll do my data analysis and then finish writing my thesis by March. If insya-allah, my target schedule goes acc to plan, I think I can at least have 2 weeks or so to edit the final product twice or more. :) Insya- Allah.

Also, many thanks to Yunxian and Pema for helping me out over the past couple of days despite the fact that you guys are busy. I love you! :) So lucky to have you as my friend. You have no idea how much your time meant to me. HUGS. Of course to Jeannie as well..dont know if you realise it but the lift to school in the mornings has been so so so timely. I really needed them esp over the past couple of weeks.

And yes! Today I bumped into familiar faces in school. It feels so warm and fuzzy to see people I know..and people who kinda 'grew' up w me in nus. School really hasnt been the same since people started disappearing from the table. Its quite sad. Everyones too busy. But know what? I'll try to plant myself there more often. See how it goes..maybe someone just needs to initiate :) And on the plus side, now that there's not many ppl, one can actually study at the table!

Ok. Off to shower. Late. Its been a long week. Welcome, mid-sem break. (omg. so fast)

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169/200 females. 42/100 males.

Jeannie drove me to school today:) So im super early. But its okay, at least I can quickly settle stuff and head home. Im in slob wear today. Can you believe Im wearing track pants to school? Im sick of wearing heavy jeans. Heh, I wear this slacks when im going to ntuc near my house or when I gym and Im too lazy to shave my legs. Anyway, so what. People wear more slack stuff than me anyway. Ahh..so comfy. I need to get myself more of these.

Besides, I'll be holed up in the Psych Soc room stapling my questionnaires.

Yep. I came all the way to school to staple 300+ sets of questionnaires. I'm so thankful to kweeting cos she's allowed me to store nearly 4500 pages of paper in the room. Phew. I love kweeting. I'll really blanja you ice cream la k?

Speaking of kweeting, where is she...need to get the keys from her so i can start!

Oh yes, is anyone willing to be my lab-rat? I need to practice hooking up the equipment to someone and quite possibly do several dry runs. Its non-invasive, I promise. I'll probably book the labs during term break...please.......

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Why have I not blogged? I guess its always the same old things over and over again huh? My anxieties with school, yadda yadda yadda. Is that interesting? Interesting or not, who cares? Im gonna blog abt them anyway :P Haha. So redundant asking the previous question right?hee... Im in a la-di-dah kinda mood right now.

So, my research has started full swing. Over the past week Ive been obsessively checking the online research participant sign up sheet to see if Ive reached my target number of participants. As of now, I have 128 out of 200 females and an abysmal number of males..35 our of the 100 I need. Come on guys...sign up!!!

That aside, the fasting month started a 4 days ago last Thursday and I dont know why, but I feel more at peace with myself and the world. All my anxieties about dateline and thesis and stuff doesnt seem so significant when I think about the big picture. Academics is only a small part of life. And whats important is that I do my best in everything I do. The rest is truly up to Allah. I need to keep reminding myself about this. The more I let go of things I cannot control, the more I pray and submit to God, the less anxious I feel...and the more satisfied I'd feel with whatever life hits me with. After all, everything, good and bad, comes from Allah, doesnt it? :) Everything in life. Who I am today. What I have around me. Alhamdullillah.

I really need to let go and stop fussing and worrying abt the snowballed consequences of everything I do. I was talking to Najib the other day and it hit me. The reason why I feel so pressured to perform is because I dont want to let the people who entrusted me with certain responsibilities/expectations to be let down. Good and bad, I suppose. At least that drives me. One does need motivation in life.

And so, mine is : Do the best in everything you do, put in all that you can, then leave the rest to God. Whatever the results may be, always say Alhamdulillah. Never feel anger, jealousy nor pride. What matters is that having done everything you can, you should feel satisfied. :)

I need to keep reminding myself about this. But even as I type this, it seems harder than it seems.

Anyhoos, now that its fasting month, I'll also spend less time eating so that should pretty much free up my time to mug.Oooh, Im trying to factor in my new fav activity other than eating: running :) Think i'll run after breaking my fast. :)

Speaking of run, Ive put off blogging abt my shape run last sunday cos I was waiting for the pic to come out. It has but I cant seem to put pics on blogger without having it appear above my text. The run was fantastic. My first. My sis and I were running alongside each other and when we reached the finish line, we held hands :) We did it together. We trained and we ran. Yay. And and and, I'm so proud of us because we ran non-stop. Having never run 5 km prior to signing up for the run, we've come a long long way. Now, when I go jogging, I dont run below 5k anymore because its psychological la. Because its become very do-able :)

I'm thinking 10k by next year. Insya-Allah.

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I just received this from my cousin today! Welcome to the world baby Ariel :)

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Why is it my seniors who have taken GLM think its manageable? It so difficult! YIKES.

So much admin work to do before I can start collecting my data.

AND AND AND, its Sept already! Gosh. How time flies.

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APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!

Ethics has approved my study! Im finally going to start on my thesis!

Wohoooooooo :) :) :)

Alhamdulillah!

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