Immobile

I cant move. Much. I cant sit up, i cant walk fast, i cant sway my hips(why would i in the first place..but STILL), i am pretty much movement-challenged.

Ah yes, the back ache. Back sprain. Whatever. It just hurts like hell. It was hurting real bad on Tuesday night. Couldnt even walk. This shooting pain at the end of my spine each time i took a tiny step. Ended up walking like a penguin. Like grandma(oh how i empathise with you nenek, i really do).

Was convinced by everyone to go home. So i gave in. The campers were getting worried about me and my senior June said its no use if i stayed...so i went home...brother fetched me. I was kinda crushed...i was only getting to know my freshies better!!! I wanted to go Sentosa for the amazing race....but i had to listen to my body (among others)

Its been days and it still hurts. At least i can walk a little bit more......i remembered i cried in the loo cos i couldnt undress. It was so painful. So painful.

Was so touched today. My OG called me up and put me on speaker phone....and they told me the news...THEY WON!! Power smurfs (they came up with the name. Dont ask.) won first place! I thought they were pretty bleah but they did it in the end!!!!! I guess it was a good thing i left....then they couldnt keep depending on me....and the other perm facis daphne and kai jun and cheryl nott and parvin.

Anyway, cheryl nott told me that they dedicated a song to me during the finale night. Wow. Touched. In fact, when i was on speaker phone, they sang to me!!!!! So nice! There i was, lying down in bed, listening to them. I was so moved!!! And they all went "we love/miss you farah"...gosh.....[beams happily] Thank you elda, diana, kelvyn, hafiza, qi jun, kitty, michelle, elaine!

So what now? no idea. on my bed as i type this. Thank goodness i have wireless!

Off to camp...

Please let me be ra-ra before the camp starts full swing. Im like so out of sync with camps and cheers and ya ya stuff like that......im kinda dreading the late nights, sleep deprivation and hoarse throat that would leave my voice all husky and artificially sexy. Haha.

Not to mention the packing. I hate packing! I just packed and unpacked and now pack again only to unpack later? Plus i have to pay 30 bucks for that?

Oh well. This is just the inertia talking. Im sure i"ll have a blast once i get the Rah back into the Fa. Yeah.

Gargh. Just got word that im a perm faci(permanent facilitator). PERM???? there goes my efforts to skive. Sigh. Okay..i can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

Just breathe and put on a big smile.

And bring strepsils. Lots of em.

Gimme a blah...BLAH! Gimme a Blah Blah....BLAH BLAH! Gimme a blah blah blah.....BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!

Will be back on thurs!

Im off!

MSN version 7.0

Okay, i just and finally downloaded the newer version. I couldnt be bothered to previously cos i thought that with my home internet connection, it'd take ages but heh, it took me less than 3 mins. So yea! I love that nudge thing!!!!! So cool. And irritating...which is why i like it!!!!

Speaking of nudge, i miss him. Is it wrong to say it out loud to the world? What am i afraid of? That others would roll their eyes like i once did to them? Perhaps. Yes, I MISS HIM. I miss my Nudgieeeeeeeeeeee.There. Felt better? Nope. He's still not here is he?

Boo.

Okay, now im rolling my own eyes at myself. For goodness sake, you have a life farah! Sheesh. OK ok ok...

Kinda glad he isnt here actually. Have a lot of Swaps things to do so if he's around, i"ll find excuses to hang out with him instead of doing my work....things like calling up a whole lot of ppl and putting on this ultra saccharine voice asking if they're still interested in the camp next week. Shudders. I did that. And i did that only cos i had nothing else to do.

Wait a sec, i actually have a lot of things to do before oh-my-god-school's-opening again...

1) Revise my french cos its basically non-existent in my left hemisphere of the brain. Gosh, is that where language is at? I dont even know. My brain's all rusty. I never did enjoy cognitive psych to begin with. How i manage to scrape thru it is a miracle.
2) RUN. cos i havent ran since that one day wonder of 3.6km.
3) Read. Like finish the LOTR book.
4) er.....clean up the aftermath of the exams...ie: my room is still in a mess, particularly with that pile of papers on the shelf with all my tutorials and lect notes....do i keep em or burn em?
5) Buy more clothes before term starts?
6) Focus. Prepare myself to be a full time mugger. Like really. Really really. Like nothing else matters. Except my books. My modules. Okay, ok, besides my other life-ly commitments like family and blah blah.....and now that my CCA might be how-do-i-put-it-nicely....going kaput, i will be CCA-less. Hahahha....wheee. Then my only other commitment is my ECA. Thats only on weekends once he enlists. SO yea, i have no excuse not to perform better this coming semester. In fact, look at me now! Im all psyched up for school!

Right. Now i gotta pick my modules really wisely. And do you think a 3-day work week is recommendable? Ive always had mondays off. I was thinking of getting Fridays off as well. That would be so cool. But then again, imagine common tests.....yikes. Back to back? No way. Lesson i learnt from last semester, i do not have long attention spans. My attention span could possibly equal primary school kids.

Speaking of which, ahhhh, yes, tuition. My source of income. Now, that would be on Saturdays. But i reckon my ECA i/c would understand. I do want my own cash flow. Gosh, i hope they keep employing me forever. Tution is the most lucrative career any undergrad could have. Now how many times have i said that?

Meeting up with Pema later for a catch-up. Havent met her in ages!

Au revoir~ (the only decent french thing i can say now. Ashamed, I am)

I'm back!!

Okay, ive been back for quite some time now but ive been very hesitant to blog.....to get back to reality.... you know the feeling that you just dont wanna snap out of it? but i guess its time...

I had a wonderful time in Egypt. So memorable. Took a whole lot of pics! Thank goodness for my 1GB SD card which i borrowed from my brother. Took over 500 pics. Man, everything abt Egypt is nice.

Took my first airplane flight of my life. First time in the parts of changi airport only accessible to those flying/arriving.....whoa. I like flying.

Anyhow, i really honestly wanna start typing about my wonderful experiences in Egypt but man, once i start, i honestly dont know if i"ll be able to stop.

Egypt is nice. Lovely, Beautiful ppl...especially in Cairo and Alexandria. And believe me, this Muslim country is liberal. Really. The ppl there really know how to dress up. And they're so gorgeous. Man, i was at Cairo Mall on the last night before flying home and i was like "WHY???? Why cant singapore have oh so yummy looking ppl like these?"

Okay, back to reality. groans.

But really, egypt is nice. Its only hot and dry in the South but once you head north, its actually cooler than Singapore!

And yes, i went into the second pyramid. And yes, i saw the mummies. And yeah, i rode a camel! In fact, i tried almost every form of transportation while i was there. Rode a horse carriage, a bus, a taxi, was a pedestrian (very scary experience. traffic is a killer but strangely, the drivers are very polite to pedestrains!), a motorboat, a felucca, a camel, a cruise ship along the river nile, a train frm aswan to cairo and finally, FINALLY, an airplane!

And yeah, heh, we could pass off as locals. Until me and my mom opened our mouths to speak. My bro could speak Arabic so they thought he was egyptian. Which was why our experience in Cairo mall was great..cos we blended in and were not treated like tourists.

Anyway, blogging from Yunxian's house. Yx is flirting over the telephone in a bid to get guys down for our swaps camp. Gross. She can really really flirt. Yes, you can.

Bon voyage!!!

Egypt, here i come!

This will be my last post till I get back home. I reckon I wont blog from over there! Gonna resort to the plain old simple way. A travel diary. :)

Ooh, yes, I will be back on the 18th I think. Im still kinda not sure. 18th or 19th. Either way, I'll be back!!!!!

Alright everyone!!!

Im outta here!

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

My bags ARENT packed......

I am a horrible packer.
I cannot pack for nuts.
I am getting stressed because I have never EVER been away from home for so long, let alone on another continent!

Blimey, my first airplane trip!

I wanna bring my whole room!!!

Haiya, im just looking at the mess i made....luggage thrown open, filled to the brim..i think im bringing too many t-shirts! but i cant help it!! And dont get me started on the undergarments. i have ceremoniously left them out...for now. It will just make me feel worse....

Gargh.

Its just packing......its just packing......breathe farah breathe (would love to but too bad my sinuses are clogged up with mucus...*sniffs*).......okay...i can do this...

Still got a couple of errands to run before i leave fri morning at ard 5 plus AM. (gosh.)

1)Collect new pair of contacts (eyesight's deteriorating at an astounding pace)
2) Get a SD card for my digital camera
3) Consider activating my roaming (i mean, how am i to contact someone for help if i get kidnapped and shipped off to Sudan?)
4)Change some of my Sing dollars to US dollars because most money changers here do not carry the Egyptian pound and most money changers over there do not recognise our Sing dollars. So mah fun. (how do ya spell it?)
5) Pack my bags....yes, pack em up!

Okay, busy busy busy.....

[i hope sanitation there's good]

Mushhhhh

Ok ok ok ok ok.

I, Farah, can be a mushy person. when i want to, that is.
In fact it grosses me (and some of my friends) out to think i can but on the other hand, im relieved to know that i can. so im normal. whatever normal is.

BUT i still roll my eyes at all the excessively lovey-dovey ppl (on escalators,elevators,buses, and all the incredibly unromantic places where they -can you believe it- twine...heh, but its good that they do that on crowded Mrts. Save space. Sheesh. GET A ROOM PEOPLE!) and make snide comments.

Back to me. Mushy. Ive become an emotional mushball lately. Okay. Thats all i can bring myself to type.
Like what someone said...im contradictory. I am an emotional person yet i cant stand people showing their emotions....to which i retorted (i think) "it should be private, mah"

Then again, could it be that im just hypocritical?

Anyways, I just drew up my list of things to pack for Egypt. I have no idea how im gonna squeeze things in my luggage. My main worry however, is to find that i have not packed enough undergarments. Man. Can you imagine recycling? Gross. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks.

Sore throat...boo.

Gargh. I dont wanna be sick. I cannot afford to!! Im gonna be flying off in a week!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im gonna binge myself on strepsils. (someone, please remind me about the laxative effects of an overdose of sweets...yes, it happened to me before)

So the results were yesterday...one word: ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!

God really loves me :) Yay.
Im so so grateful. And happy. And satisfied.
Considering everything I went through over the last semester, I am contented. I think I did my best and yeah...im just happy. Its okay that I did worse off than last sem but hey, there's always another few sems to catch up. Must work harder from now on...

And to my dear friends out there. I hope you guys are happy with your results. And if its okay with you, i'd rather not discuss with you my grades or anything....Please respect my wishes okie? I just wanna be happy.
Thank you so much!!!!

Whee~

First

On mon, i had the best run in two years..make that the best run of my life actually! Went further than expected. I mean i pushed myself.....im amazed what mind over body actually means now. Heh, I jogged 3.6 Km non stop! And i hadnt ran in two weeks! 3.6 Km! this is Farah youre talking about! thats a mean feat for her man! Applause please!!! I guess this may be a one off wonder...maybe had the energy after all that slobbing around! At least i dont feel so wasted anymore! Yay!

Went to science center yesterday! havent been there in ages! The place is kinda different when you come at your own leisure and not with a class on some school excursion!

Watched Madagascar after that. What a let down. Plot could have been developed but heck, its a kid's show. Still, i had my fair share of laughter. Wouldnt have enjoyed the show much without the company i had. :p

Ahhh....whee~

you make me feel whee-ish~

Hello, anybody there?

Think Farah Think.

Do you really wanna end up being the slob that you almost are? You can stop this evil transformation!

My dear friends! Help me please! I am bored. Take me away from my bed!!!! I am getting bed sores from just lying there and staring at the ceiling! Heeeeeeeeeeeeelp......
If you do not drag me from here, the next time you come to my house, you will not recognise me......for i will have transformed....into........a pillow.
Hmm. Maybe all pillows were humans once...but they slobbed around all day that they began to look like the very thing next to them.

Gargh.....TAKE ME OUT!!!

Babes, dudes! Where are you?

Sobs.

Im so bored, thats why.

The Classic Star Wars Test

Farah, you're Obi-Wan Kenobi

"If you strike me down, I will become more powerful than you can possibly imagine." Truly the words of a confident teacher, you and "old Ben" share the calm wisdom of someone who's seen it all. You are probably the type of person who enjoys giving back to the community, whether by organizing the annual block party or volunteering time to help others.You know you're not perfect and that's why being a mentor is so fulfilling. You can teach others about the mistakes that you made. Like Obi-Wan, you are an excellent judge of character — often recognizing aspects of yourself in others. You know how to teach life lessons without being preachy, and while you may not quite have the Jedi mind trick figured out, your honest conviction can be very persuasive.

Hmm...interesting. I thought i'd be a wookie. Hoeugh~

Blues

I am a selfish person.
I want things my way or i get pissed.
I am not understanding. I try to. But face it, im not.
I rationalise whenever i can but i still feel sore later.
I get upset and i upset people when i do.
I dont like to be hurt and dissapointed...cos i get sad..and angry...but mostly sad...and angry....and then guilty for feeling angry..then i feel sad again.

Im too soft for my own good.

Im too emotional.

Im too sensitive.

I need to grow up.

A great review

On msn now with Nirwan, who's explaining to me "The clone wars" some cartoon tie up to ep3...i finally geddit! Now i know why that general grievous guy kept wheezing in the movie. Watched it last Sat. Read Nirwan's blog for a summary of the show.

An excerpt:
"Dialogue seems to have improved generally. Gotta love the cryptic warnings of that green little Yoda, hehe. Jar Jar Binks has *finally* been moved into total obscurity and the Chancellor is simply awesome; hearing him work his insidious ways is simply chilling. There are still a couple of pretty idiotic lines, one of which appear in the conversation between Padme and Anakin. Once you hear it, you'll be like "groooooooooaaaannnn".

Still, it's a pretty damn good movie and Lucas managed to redeem himself for the bleh efforts of 1 and 2. Star Wars is ultimately about the rise and fall of Anakin Skywalker and Hayden Christiansen definitely managed to show the inner turmoil that exists within his character. The last scene is pretty touching and shows us the spark of humanity that Luke will eventually appeal to in order for Anakin to redeem himself."


I think he did a great review (honestly, dude, you write well, go be a journalist!!! or better still, a flick reviewer!)...and i think Palpitine (affectinately known as Palpy) is one heckuva genius villain. Ok, really, do read his blog...there's some link thingy that you can choose not to open in the event you havent watched the show...spoilers so to speak. I mean NIrwan really did a prac crit (Practical Criticism to the non lit students) of ep3! Applause, please!

Star wars fever aside (i was informed yesterday that somewhere in town, there were M&Ms dressed as characters yest...if only i were there. Id give the M&Ms big hugs! ), [darn, i lost my train of thought. Bah. Shall blog next time.]

Blast from the past...

Met up with kartini,aisyah,widya and shikin today. It was really really nice to see them after so long!Whoa...havent seen some one of them after the Os.

Of course there was the inertia..i mean, gosh, i was worried that i might be dead bored. After all, the meeting i had with certain peeps frm sec school (my class no less!) last monday wasnt exactly exciting.

But today was different!

It was really nice....fun. I enjoyed myself...we're gonna meet again in july. 9th July babes! Dont forget! :) Ive missed you guys so much..

Beautiful day!

Its so nice and sunny outside!!!!!!!

If only everyday could be as sunny and windy as this....and the mornings and nights, nice and cool.

:)

Bumming at home. Listening to the radio....
Okay, partially bumming cos trying to settle some Swaps publicity for the upcoming freshmen orientation camp. yes, cannot escape responsibilities can i? haha. But im not gonna blog much about work la and im not complaining cos quite frankly, im glad i have at least something to do over the hols.

Supposed to have dinner with Pema today. Her birthday's coming up and we were supposed to meet and exchange our presents. (my long overdue cap!) but we've rescheduled it to sat cos we"ll both be in school for the arts open house. Im pretty glad actually. Cos my entire body is aching!!!!

So that makes 2 wednesdays in a row that ive stayed home! Maybe, i should declare wednesdays "Slacker Day".

Heard results are coming out soon. Gargh. But, cannot escape the inevitable la. And no matter how bad it is, know what? Its life baby. I"ll accept it and i"ll work harder. I mean, look around...other people have bigger problems to worry about. ok, so im consoling myself.....but its true!

Okay, shall resume stoning/bumming now.

Ouchhhhhh......

I am pre-empting how my body would feel in 24hrs. I would probably find myself completely immobile when i wake up tomorrow. In fact, I can already feel the aches building up on my arms, shoulders and yes, the right butt cheek. You guessed it, I just played badminton.

It was a fun game. I mean I trashed the dude i was playing with. Even though i was cramming at some points and feeling immensely uncomfortable (oh, life as a girl) and I even thrashed him with my left hand! Haha..najib,najib, najib, you suck lor. Hahhahahahahahha....man, if only i had stamina, then i can really really beat you, with a smile.

Went for a ride ard tampines on a yellow van that claims o be a car. I mean really. -_-. But it was an experience..hahahahhaha....a millenium falcon? Hahahahhahaha.

And yes, tiger ali singh, nice name. :)

Watched Dogville yesterday. Nicole Kidman is a fantastic actress. Real brilliant performance. Show was draining. Really was. Kinda reminded me of watching Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf. You just feel spent at the end of the show.

Bumped into tonnes of ppl in town yesterday. Why is it that whenever you dont want to be seen by people you know, you end up seeing them nonetheless?

I think i look awful in yellow.

Im on my diet......yet again. Yes, i farah, am gonna try to resume my anti fast food stand. hey, i was successful for 3 months okay? I remember after watching Supersize me with Ave and Nirwan last year, i was so appalled, that i stayed away from the lard side.

Star wars episode 3's finally out. Cannot wait to watch it...anyone out there has the Attack of the clones vcd/dvd? can i borrow? Need to refresh memory.

Dry

Gargh.

The mother of the kids I tutor has just informed me that I am to resume tuition the week before school reopens. Great. What does that imply? I"ll be BROKE for one whole month! Dry, penny-less, pockets emptied out. Okay, so i exaggerate. I mean i still get my allowances and all but nothing beats earning the money i have. It gives me justification for indulging myself whenever I leave home and come back with bags of clothes and stuff. Now i'd probably feel guilty.

Ah well, perhaps I shall learn to be thrift once again. Yes, thrift. A word ive forgotten for quite some time now.

Besides, its only for a month. I can survive. I mean im not that high maintanence, right?

Right.

Besides, i shall take this to be a vacation not only from school but from work too.

Had a splendid dream today. I didnt need to repeat any modules. And i got what i wanted. I woke up at 6am feeling great before realising that it was only a dream.

Then i went back to sleep.

Then i had another more realistic dream. I had to repeat those modules. Well, the lecturer told me he wasnt sure but he said 4 ppl needed to repeat it and it might include me. Then i woke up and was GLAD it was only a dream.

The inner turmoils of Farah. Oh, i need divine intervention.

PLease pray for me.

:)

Wow.

I spent the whole day out of my house yesterday.

Went for breakfast at macs in the morn, went to clementi to settle some SASW thingy....then brought a friend ard NUS campus....then went to jurong point and loitered and then watched House of Wax (damn lousy..but im such a coward..kept grabbing my friend's arm...sorry NH. But that will be THE LAST TIME i watch a "scary" movie.)....then went bowling at marina sq...then went to the terrace place thingy at the esplanade...wow...the view is kinda nice! I'd never been there before.

Yeah....fun fun fun.

Nice.
Thanks dude.

Skins

Yikes, im going crazy!!

I cant seem to find THE blogskin for me! I reckon i need a change of blogskin..need something a bit more refreshing..what do you think?

PS: If you guys come across a skin that screams "Farah", do tell okie? Thanks!

Mothers' Day

Yeah, so last sunday, finally, all six of us managed to come together to celebrate mom's day. I must say, that was the most memorable mothers day ever.

I mean, when was the last time the 6 of us went shopping together? Okay, it wasnt exactly shopping but we were wondering ard bugis together while waiting for our reservation at this malay restaurant at jalan Sultan. It was strange cos if im not mistaken, we havent hung out together(besides over lunch,dinner or hari raya) in like a long long long time.

Anyway, dinner was great. There were like performances and stuff..and since it was mom's day, they pulled my mom up on stage! So so funny! It was some contest on how to wear the kain samping..so the two moms had to compete and then model in front of the whole restaurant. Man, it was sooooo entertaining! My mom rocks! She totally sashayed her way! Hahah and boy, i never knew she was so competitive! Since the winner would be given to the contestant with the loudest cheer, i screamed my lungs out! But cheh, in the end, both moms got the same prize. No fair.

anyhoo, gave my mom a watch...all of us shared..she seemed pleased.

Moving on....

Okay, EYEBAGS. HOW DO YOU GET RID OF EYE BAGS?
i dont geddit. my exams are over. ive been sleeping more....and yet my eyebags are worse than during the exam period! Why??? Not to mention dark rings. GARGH.