I mean REALLY!

Wah. Ive always thought Spore was relatively elder friendly till today.

Im freaking appalled lah. So today I took on the nice grand-daughter (and niece) role of bringing my 80 year old grandma and 60 year old auntie to the bank and the CPF building in tampines.

Ok, the bank was nice.

BUT the CPF building was a terrifying experience. The whole place was chaotic. I mean seriously! Old folks everywhere and queueing up! They shouldnt have to queue up like that! Some of them look so weak and they had to queue!!! Worse, the whole organisation was bad cos there were too MANY queues and many people didnt even know which led to where so imagine, if ME 21 years of age and so-called-educated cant even comprehend what the heck is going on, then how about the elderly??????

NO proper labelling or directions
NO proper assisstance from the people working there which therefore shows their lack of foresight in planning. Even the ones who were there werent sure or able to communicate effectively.
NO seating area for the old
NO effective dissemination of the protocol or information to these elderly. The elderly folks probably dont know that they will, undoubtedly get their workfare bonuses in due time so there is no need to queue now.
NO one answers the toll free information number.

So in the end, in the midst of all the huru-hara, i managed to get hold of a lady who could speak to my grandma the chaos. Heh, SHE wasnt as helpful either cos she read off the letter my grandma showed her. Like hello, I can do that too you know. Eventually, after my re-explaning what i wanted her to check for my grandma, she got the pic. I dont know if her response is correct but i shall wait. I took her name down in my head and well, i'll check with her in 2 weeks if my grandma hasnt received what she ought to.

And not only that! Insufficient seats at the taxi stands. The pedestrian traffic lights change from green to red too quickly. People are walking to quickly and show such impatience towards the elderly (my poor grandma!)

Wow. Amazing how you see things from a different perspective when you hang with people like 4 times your age. It's really stressful.

who am i?

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Farah!

1. The average duration of sexual intercourse for Farah is two minutes!
2. Snow White's coffin was made of Farah!
3. Owls cannot move their eyes, because their eyeballs are shaped like Farah.
4. The first Farah was made in 1853, and had no pedals.
5. Farah is the largest of Saturn's moons.
6. Farah was first discovered by Alexander the Great in India, and introduced to Europe on his return.
7. During severe windstorms, Farah may sway several feet to either side!
8. Farah can sleep with one eye open.
9. If you lace Farah from the inside to the outside, the fit will be snugger around your big toe!
10. Farah was invented in China in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Najib!

1. Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled Najib.
2. If you kiss Najib for one minute you will burn six or seven calories!
3. Ancient Greeks believed earthquakes were caused by Najib fighting underground.
4. Until the 1960s, Najib was not allowed to enter Disneyland.
5. In Vermont, the ratio of cows to Najib is 10:1.
6. You should always store Najib in an airtight container in the fridge!
7. Over 46,000 pieces of Najib float on every square mile of ocean.
8. Native Americans never actually ate Najib; killing such a timid prey was thought to indicate laziness!
9. There are 336 dimples on Najib!
10. The first American zoo was built in 1794, and contained only Najib!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Oh ya!!

Speaking of happy thoughts...

One year ago, i met him :)

So fast, my gosh. :)

solar system

Im not the centre of the universe

Im not the sun

The world does not revolve around me.
The world does not revolve around me.
The world does not revolve around me.

I cant stand myself. Im getting moody and irritable especially at night. Then after that fiery outburst, i cry and cry because I am angry and I cannot let go of this frustration.

I know its nobody's fault.
I just wish we could all meet up, you know. Just to meet up and clear things up.
Its like im stuck in a rut.

Anyway, which brings me to the point: Im not the centre of the universe and the world does not revolve around Farah.

Gosh, all this ambiguous angsty posts is making my blog like one of those obnoxious ones in which the blogger constantly types the i-hate-the-world-or-smt-like-that kinda posts.

EEK! Im gonna post happy stuff from now on..

NO more angst.

:) Ive let go!

Day 2: Blob Deflection Begins

I kick-started my day 2 refreshed.

Badminton followed swimming :) Thanks jeannie and mel for the company!

Gosh, i feel so alive. Im not even slouching as much anymore. Swimming's good for the posture, i tell you.

I think I'm going to exercise every single morning (right..)

So anyone, ask me out if you wanna exercise or stuff.

Also, WANTED: A travel kaki. Preferably 2.

Gosh, im so pathetic. I have to beg people to travel with me. But ya. I have a budget of $500 for wherever, whenever. Drop me an sms if youre interested.
(although I highly doubt anyone would bother. everyone's got stuff to do or is sadly in need of money or their parents wont allow them to. Blah blah blah.)

So anyway, didnt really want to bring up about yest but yeah, i guess i cant push it aside. I am upset. Not past tense, present tense. I AM upset. I placed such high hopes for this and all that 'planning' we did. so when i came to the inevitable conclusion yesterday evening, i cried. Yeah. I did.

I guess things are better when theyre spontaneous.

ARGH. Im a softie.

On a happier note, tuition resumes today so YAY!I have something productive to do!

And yeah, i think, i might just start studying for next sem.

Yeah right.

Ha. ha. ha.

Day 1: The Return of the Blob

Argh.

My whole body is aching cos ive been like in bed all day. I can feel my brain degenerating already after watching hours and hours of rubbish on youtube while in bed, with my laptop burning at my skin.

I am so screwed. I have absolutely no plans for this hols. I have a nagging suspicion that my Sabah trip is gonna get canned. Even tho ive been looking forward to it since the beginning of the year. But things i look forward to always never happen so im shielding myself from too much optimism.

Its canned Farah. Move on...

Unless the 3 of you reply me soon. -_-

Anyway, aunt from Norway's around town so i might hang around with her if she wants.

Najib's gonna come out soon.

My friends are gonna finish their darn papers soon.

Im going to get a sloggi body.

HAH! Got you there didnt i?

But ya lah, i wanna exercise and stuff. Ive gotta train for something that ive always wanted to do :)

But i truly truly wanna travel. I dont wanna be a tourist. I wanna be a traveller.
(so i ripped that statement off a East Timor promotion thingy)

Really lah..im not in the mood to be all prissy in some 5 star hotel cos
1) i cant afford a 5 star hotel
2) i like the rugged grr-ish experience
3) Cant think of anthing else..see? my brain...its leaving...

And im regressing. Check this conversation out:


Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
and i love hi-5! hahahi wanna watch em in concert! hhahahah
V...A....C....A....T....I...O....N!!!!! says:
oooooh
V...A....C....A....T....I...O....N!!!!! says:
sesame street is coming to town
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
yeah!!!
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
and i wanna watch em too!
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
hahaha
V...A....C....A....T....I...O....N!!!!! says:
heheh....regressing here
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
hahah yes!
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
but heey.. cartoons/kid shows are nice..
Karina // i'm loving my God! says:
they're educational
V...A....C....A....T....I...O....N!!!!! says:

V...A....C....A....T....I...O....N!!!!! says:
indeed


Gosh. So many things to do. And not do.

So much time.

Ok people, ASK ME OUT!

PS: Kenneth, xiaowen or pema, if youre reading this and if youre free during the hols, can you fill me in on what you guys learnt in french 4? I think i may wanna sit for the..oh shoots..whats that test called?

Brain,mind or whoever's in my head, please dont leave me.

Intellectual smintellectual: Evolution

A online conversation with A. Prof John Elliot (JE):

Me: Dear Sir,

Might I just ask something which may not seem to be of relevance but is rather interesting? I remember you saying in lectures that homosexuality is something that is more and more obviously shown to be linked to biological reasons.

I was revising for another module yesterday when i chanced upon an article that challeges that homosexuality can be traces to genetics/biology. The writer argues and wonders how evolution would allow for such genes to be passed down if, from an evolutionary perspective, human beings are made to reproduce and therefore passing such genes down would not be beneficial at all...

So in that case, gender/sexual orientation is then determined by psycho/socialisation etc?

Personally, Im quite on the fence really. But it would be interesting to hear what you think about this, especially about the evolution bit...

Thanks!

JE: Its a very good question. The existence of biologically counterproductive conditions is difficult to account for within an evolutionary perspective, because they clearly do not have any reproductive survival value. Several suggestions have been made for the case of homosexuality, all of which suggest that it is an incidental consequence of some other advantages. Here are three possibilities (this is not ehxaustive):

1. homosexual people 'invest in' (help) their relatives because they do not have children of their own. families with a proportion of homosexual children may therefore end up caring for them better than those which do not. The main objection to this is that there is little evidence to support it.

2. that homosexuals tend to be more creative, and that these things are genetically linked, so that the chances of being gay increase if you are creative, but that creativity is a useful quality, it helps you invent new tools, discover new things, and generally is of value; it may also be of value in attracting mates. On this view honosexuality is an occasional side effect of creativity. It too lacks evidence, though.

3. that women who have homosexual sons are also more fertile, and espcially, have more daughters. There is evidence for this published recently in the Proceedings of the Royal Society, though I do not have the reference handy at this momnet. On this view, homosexual sons are a side effect of advantageous fertility, and the benefits (in total numbers of offspring) outweigh the costs (of some of them never having children of their own). This is the least speculative account; it accounts only for male homosexuality.

Regards

John Elliott

Me: I see. So if that is the case, homosexuals make up for their inability to contribute to continuity (reproduction) by serving some function or other.
Thanks!

JE:Not under option 3.

Me: Actually I dont quite agree that they dont serve a function with regard to point number 3.

Since they are not inclined to reproduce, and even if they did, they would be less fertile (as mentioned in your reply to Zijun), then perhaps, in some way, they serve as somewhat of a 'population control' to make up for the fact that their mothers are very fertile.

This is highly speculative on my part but could that be a possibility?

JE: Well, this suggestion does not make sense in evolutionary theory, because there is no design for the good of the species or to control populations in that theory. Evolution is not about what's good for the species, it is about the unintended consequences of differential reproductive success of individuals.

Of course, viewed from a social perspective one could say that population control was helped by the existence of homosexual individuals. But that is not their biological function, and its not why they exist, which was the original question to be answered.

JE

Me: Well, perhaps my conception of what evolution is all about requires more thinking.

I mean if we are not evolved for the good of the species then why do we have natural selection? Which correct me if im wrong, is essentially about preserving the 'good stuff' and getting rid of the non-beneficial traits.

Which was what therefore led me to pose that question in the first place. But I think I am grasping what you mean (i hope), in that in the end, it is ultimately about unintended outcomes of reproductions, which would perhaps then, serve as a platform for futher refinement in future?

In any case, thank you very much for entertaining my queries. I've always been intrigued about this topic!

JE: We ae not evolved "for" anything. We are just evolved! What you see is the result of a process of evolution, but it was undertaken with anything in mind.

Well, you can always do PL4214, if you do honours, or UAS3006 if you are a scholar.

JE

Undergrads

Yup! So I was liberated from the exams a couple hours ago....FREEEEEDOM!!!!!

:)

Watching this cartoon called Undergrads on Youtube now..you should have a look at some of the episodes if youre bored.

OOh, and while youre at it, check out this guy Anthony Callea. I think some of you might have heard me talking about how lovely his voice is. He is the runner up in Australian Idol. But if there is one song which you must hear him sing, and which is incidentally the first song i heard him singing and which heh, got me hooked is his rendition of "The Prayer". Dont watch the one which he performed in front of the queen in the church cos the sound really sucks. Check out the one where he performed on the Idol show itself.

And yes, i maintain that he has the best voice ive heard from any Idol contestant anywhere. He's like 10000 times better than any american idol. Dont even bother comparing with the local one. Heh.

YOU MUST LISTEN TO HIM!!!!!! And while youre at it, you must bear in mind that he was just a contestant while performing..and yet he exude such style and profession lah! And after that, if youre not impressed, check out the other songs he sang. He's freaking versatile! And his audition was like WHOA.
Such a nice clean, strong voice.
:)

Ahh....

Vacation...:)

whine..WHINE!

I miss my baby.

Wont be seeing him till 11 may. He's been confined. Sheesh. For 3 weeks!

Which means, in total, ive been out with him once...in 6 weeks...1 out of 42 days!!!

Love hurts.

URGH.

The last lap

Im not in the mood to study. At all.

Someone, please help me. I cant seem to focus. And this coming paper on tuesday is the one im really afraid of cos theres too many things to know.

I want to study but i just cant seem to get anything in. The words seem to just fly over my head. I cant focus..

Neeeed tooo foccccusssss......

And im getting super grumpy cos i cant.

bleahhh.

Bleah

NM2219. Hmm. I thoroughly enjoyed the module. Its one of the 2 modules i will definitely look back after graduating and say "man, im glad i took that". The other one is 'film N history'.

So today was the exam. Haiya. In the words of Kelly Pickler "I butchered it". Gargh. It was a do-able paper and I made careless mistakes. Dont you just hate it when you have too much time and you keep checking your answers and start second-guessing yourself and bla bla bla only to realise your first answer was correct..and you just feel like someone dropped a sledgehammer on your head and you just wanna cry. SIGH.

And then there's the fact that even if you think you do well, chances are you might still not get the grade you want. I want an A. I kid you not. I mean ive been doing consistently well. Or so i thought. Until i realise that everyone's marks are superbly high which means that high marks does not = good grade. And so today's 100 MCQs could either make or break my grade. So guess which one?

GROAN.

Anyway, next up is GEK exam on friday. Then dev psych on tues. Then im done.

Nothing much to look forward to. Sent an email for internship at a hospital. Got rejected. But hey, im glad they replied so :) im on their radar. They told me to come back in one year's time when they feel i'll be more ready.

Gonna keep those letters out..just gotta keep trying to land something.

Watched american idol just now. Chris whats-his-name is freaking HOT lah. And when he sang bryan adam's 'Have you ever really loved a woman', my knees went weak. My heart skipped a beat, my tongue started wagging and i even drooled.

I think im a sucker for fashionably bald men. I think they're sexy. I mean, look at Lex Luther. Ahhh..they just exude this air of mystery and come-hitherness, machoness and power...oh i'm such a power whore.


ANYWAY, need to stop dreaming..

Full steam ahead! (hmm, sounds like a band's name. If i ever form a band, i'll call ourselves Full Steam Ahead)

Hey you..

Yes you...you sneaky little thing.

So youre back to haunt me, are you? Havent you learnt your lesson? I told you i'd show you a couple of months back and i did, didnt i?

So you like pain. Stop laughing. I know you're gleefully making comments about my term paper. Just you watch out.

Im gonna make sure you pay tmr.

9am, Temasek Hall.

Beware, health psychology, beware.

I'll do you like no one has done before.

I am ready for you.

FRIDAY! NOT saturday!

Exams start on FRIDAY for Farah.

So much for being on the ball.

Sheesh.

The war has begun.

Now that all the pesky term papers, quizes and whatevers are over, and ive finally managed to spend a few precious hours with my darling since he came back from taiwan on friday without worrying about a looming dateline, I AM satisfied.

I am now all psyched up to MUG all the way to the finals. Hmm, which leaves me 4 days before my SW paper...but finally! I can just focus on studying....

I WANT to just sit down, and study!

Note to self: STUDY!!!!!!

STUDY

STUDY

STUDY!!!

December....is a long way from now.

Is it me or does it feel like its nearing the end of Oct/November? It seems to me that its the end of the year. I guess the rainy weather has something to do with it. But i think a better explanation would be the exams nearing..

And why do i keep thinking that today is either Saturday or Monday?

I hate it when my body clock's all warped up.

I woke up at 9.30 this morning. Im supposed to be up and about at 7.30 for the next two weeks.

I have yet to do anything productive. Think i'll go cut my nails.

Im going to school later to return a very overdue book and to start working on my GEK project which is due on monday. Im gonna make sure i have fun doing this paper. Why wont I? My darling's gonna work on it with me! :)

Aside: If you've watched TV recently, there's this advertisement featuring models parading in Sloggi underwear.

Damn. I want to have a sloggi-model-body.

One more paper..then mug mug mug all the way

Im zonked. Didnt sleep. Unless you consider 3 hours of dreaming about correlations sleep.

Am tired.

My baby's coming home.

:)

Twoday

"We musnt panic....we musnt panic....ahhhhhh"- A hen from Chicken run

Ok. I have 2 days to complete health report. I am SO motivated to do this and to do a good one at that, that i have become obsessed with researching via Psychinfo, neglecting the fact that research is just HALF of what im supposed to do.

The other half is actually WRITING the report...

In the lib now. 5th Floor, sing-mal collection section. Realise that discusion room is not as conducive as i expected. Plus, the toilet is very far....and every time i leave the room i feel many eyes staring at me, wishing for me to vacate the room so they can take the room. EEK.

Anyway, just read vem's blog and kinda disturbed a little. Was i uptight on my birthday? I wasnt...yet did i somehow portray myself as that?

Bleah. Granted, i am (dispositinally) a usually uptight person...but not on my bday what (situationally...oh goodness, im applying what i learnt in health psych..wohhoo)...was i?

This just goes to show that im very affected by how people see me. Haha, wish is why i can never be a celebrity...or i'll go crazy.

Talk abt being neurotic man!

Neuroticism and health.

Im doing THAT for my report i think.

sha la la

GOOOOOOOOOOD morning!

What a happy morning :) I just feel happy.

Even though i did not get a decent sleep on the couch, im still happy.

H

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Even though i have a term paper worth 20% due on thursday and i havent started.

H

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P

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Because my baby called me at 5.45am to bid me good morning. :)

H

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Because I know I can get through this semester

H

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Because i managed to be one of those kanchong spiders standing outside central library doors before they open

H

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Because i got discussion room 3 on level 6 which i will HOG for as long as i can!!! Muahahhaa.

:)

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Because discussion room 3 is bright yellow and has a nice view! :)


Okay. As happy as i am, i have work to do. :)

Crankster

The time of the semester has come once again, when a gray cloud hovers around farah's head, leading her to behave in tsk-tsk ways.

Haiya. To cut the crap, ive started being darn cranky lah. Its the exams period man!

ROAR!!!!!

So, i apologise in advance to any poor sod who will have to be at the receiving end of my bitchy behaviour. This includes

1) Being extremely sarcastic
2) being impatient and hence snapping at ppl more than usual
3) making snide comments abt everything
4) 'So annoying' and 'moron' shall be the most frequent phrases i will mutter to myself
5) I'll just walk away from wherever if i feel that im in the presence of distracting and incompetent people.
6) I will be rather unsociable
7) I will roll my eyes more than usual
8) I may not reply sms-es which i think to be stupid or doesnt deserve to be replied to.

On the other hand,

1)I may be excessively whiny
2)I may cry easily

OR

I may be extremely high....even higher than when i have my plate of guavas.

Hmm.

Just beware of my temporary bipolar personality lah.

But i dont think i'll harm anyone la :) Previous sems were ok right?

Wheeeee~

Growl.

Wheeee~~~`

Growl.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!! :)
(youre not here to read this anyway.boo.)

So what does this mean?

I just received an email from OSA asking me to come down for an RA briefing. Does this imply that i have been given the position? I sure hope not. Let's hope a briefing is just a briefing.

Im really having doubts as to whether i should go for this RA position. I mean, i'll be in year 3. YEAR THREE!!! Do i want to put myself through a whole new experience? Having to be responsible and all that stuff? LIving away from home? It'll all add up to ADDITIONAL stress.

Ya, so what if i cut travel time? Will this travel time then be eaten up by my RA commitments? Then there's fasting month, hari raya...

Then there's being away from my main source of social support....am i willing to risk my focus in my THIRD YEAR??

I was really psyched up for the position until yesterday. For the past week, i was unable to focus. I wasnt able to concentrate for my dev quiz today. And i simply was not motivated. Being alone at home made it worse cos i keep sleeping and stuff...so when my parents and sis came back yesterday, i suddenly found direction again! Its like...i cant describe it...but its like everything is back to as it should be..this inner peace...and then i can focus on what i have to do....

Oh no! Im so dependent on them! Like i need them as a security base before exploring...and being competent and all (bringing in theory of attachment)

Then like that HOW? How will i survive on campus for a whole 4-5 months? I wont be able to survive lah.

Oh NO! then if i wanna do postgrad overseas??? I'll probably be too chicken to break out of my comfort zone!

Hence, the RA position will force me into becoming independent, thrust me into a 'foreign' environment where i'll have to swim or drown (or take the mRT back to tamp crying)...

Plus, having RA on my CV would be darn impeccable lah....

BUT in MY THIRD YEAR??

Whatever lah. I shall go for the briefing. It isnt a confirmation. Its a BRIEFING.

Breathe farah, breathe.

Shall focus on this sem first.

I want my fammy. :( I love my fammy.

Ive just baby-worded family.

(Bang head on table)

Anyway, waiting for bro to pick me up. Need to shop for present for my other bro's birthday....

Till then, im still deciding on a research qn for health psych report. Hmm.

Tear-jerking

Call me a softie but i simply could not stop my tears from flowing as i read the feature article in the little supplementary health paper that comes every wednesday with the main paper i subscribe to.

Its an inspirational story about a man who had such an admirably immense dedication and love for his wife, when she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease, a form of dementia. Im sure you know that this horrendous disease does to people...it takes away every inch of the person that you are and reduces you to nothing. And the saddest part is, the people around you will be hit the most, seeing the person that you were degenerating before their eyes. Gosh. I mean the person with AD will find it frustrating but he/she may not realise whats happening to them at later stages.

So, hit with the disease, the couple decided to make the best of it and go travelling. The husband, Ray, wanted to ensure that his wife's mind received constant stimulation. So they travelled around the world while the disease ate at her mind. My gosh. Can you imagine how painful it is to see the one you love slowly slipping away from you? And yet he went on. I mean wow.
He said "You dont stop loving someone because they are ill"

If there is one disease im so afraid of, its Alzheimer's. Honestly. Im afraid to be incapacitated before i leave. Im afraid of losing everything ive experienced, everything i know...everyone i know, every emotion ive felt...Its so scary, the regression!
And im so scared that someone i know might get it too! I dont think i'll have the strength.

Oh God, i pray no one i love will be afflicted by AD. I pray i dont get AD too.

I learnt in my GEK class that the conclusion of a longitudinal study conducted abt AD uncovered serveral things. The probability of AD depends on:

1) Your education (i suppose this refers to how read/active your mind is)
2) Language ability (ie ability to write fluently)
3) Levels of folic intake (where high levels would prevent this)
4) genetic predisposition

But ultimately, even these 4 probabilities are just possible reasons linked to AD. It also depends on takdir (fate).

Bleah. What a teary start to my wednesday. *Sniffs*

Mental note

Do NOT watch 4 webcast lectures in a row.

Talk about saturation.

Not entirely being

Ihavenoideawhatswrongwithme!

GARGH. wasted the entire saturday (unless you count reading 1 tiny paragraph of dev text productive). Sat was supposed to be mug-till-you-wanna-cry day. But NOOOO. I ended up day-dreaming half the time and actually dreaming the other half. I keep falling asleep and finding it hard to wake up. Like lala dream land keeps sucking me back in even though i WANT to wake up!

Why? accumulated lack of sleep over the past week? Cant be what. I havent really been doing as much as i should.
And why do i keep finding alternative(read: unimportant) things to do instead of studying?

I havent read the dev text since the beginning of this sem and i have a test this friday. I just realised that i have TWO presentations before friday. Can someone please kick my ass and motivate me to start studying seriously? Actually, im quite motivated..i just need someone to kick me. Hard.

The peeps i usually have to spur me on are OVERSEAS.
My dad (who makes me feel guilty if i dont have a book plastered to my face)
Mom (who makes me feel guilty cos she thinks im smart)
Sis (who, well, who's like my hero. bookworm mugger. she's a natural)
and my najib (who's like "you can do it la baby, just work really really hard now..etc")

IM ALL FREAKING ALONE.

Even people who take the same modules as me are not very motivating. They have their own things going on...and quite frankly, apart frm melinda, either Im not close enough to the others or i dont think they actually KNOW what the heck is going on or what the schedule's like etc that it frustrates me and i just want to throw an organiser at them. I mean really. -_- Just hurl it at them.

Ok lah. Disclaimer: My NM2219 group mates are heaven-sent, particularly Yanyan and theresa. If all Nm peeps are like this, I love NM ppl.

I miss sharing modules with Pema. I honestly do. She freaks me out and makes me wanna study. We'll both bitch abt all the work we havent done and then share this silence and then one of us will say "We're so screwed we better do smt now or we'll really be screwed."

I mean i dont have to be the one constantly on the ball and freaking ppl and myself out. Im SO tired of being the one. I want someone to freak ME out for a change.

FREAK ME OUT QUICKLY. Someone....please..

I want my Pema! MY GAWD. Im gonna cry when she goes on exchange. ARGH.

Amazing. typing abt her makes me wanna study. hahahhaa....

I think im losing it.

I hate unproductive days!!!

Oh ya, i had a funny dream today. Dreamt i was back in primary school. and i met my old pri school classmates and we were laughing, reminiscing abt the old days (note: i HATED pri sch so laughing and all did strike me as bizzare). My pri 6 teacher Mr Fun (honest, thats his name. and he isnt all that fun) was giving us a lesson.
In the dream he said smt like "Now we have new technology...bla bla" and whatever he was saying receeded into the background and we went for an excursion.

The funny bit is that in the dream, I was dead. After running away from zombies or whatever it was at the place of the excursion, I had to climb several flights of steps. Gosh, it was scary. So tiring. I wanted to give up but someone beside me kept saying "dont give up. Keep pushing. You'll be one step closer to heaven" And i felt aircon. Hmm. At the same time, i was afraid. I dont deserve it. I was so afraid that i'd reach the top only to slide down. Then, out of nowhere, there was this minibus. And we were supposed to alight at whichever stop we think we ought to. I was once again afraid. I didnt know how to gauge what i deserved. I mean, the first stop was the best...and i had a bad feeling that the last would be hell...so i didnt wanna stick ard for the last stop.

I asked the others on the bus "what happens if you get down at a stop you dont deserve?"

Nobody knew. It was more like "why dont you try to find out?"

After a few stops, i decided that i should alight soon or else i'll reach the end..which i honestly dont want to...and so i got off.....nothing happened so i guess it was the right stop. But in my heart, i knew i didnt deserve it. Anyway, that stop wasnt like "whoa...heaven" or anything. It was the same place i boarded the bus or smt. Only a little different.

ANYWAY, i woke up lah. Strange strange dream.

I think i sleep too much.

KICKS self.

YOU SEEEEEE!!!

HUH????

I thought i uploaded more pics than that?!!!! GARH. Technology hates me. BOO.

Anyway, i guess i'll upload more when i bring my laptop to school. I reckon the school network is faster and wont d/c me as much.

Realise that i havent been blogging much cos of the photos. Heh, im stalling lah. I mean its odd if i blog and not put them up right? As you can see, people are already hunting me down for them on my tagboard.

My parents and sister left for penang/langkawi yesterday morning. So the house is all quiet. AND i am food-less.

Had dinner with Ave last night. First time at Thai Express. Never knew it'd be so expensive. I mean, its not all that great. Yummy but not like WOW or anything. Then Ave went to eat SOME more. Muk!!! hehe.

Wanted to catch up with winston and farhana yest. The latter was busy w school work and the former, well, wanted to go for drinks at clark quay. After some thought, decided to just go home and sleep. Weather was nice. Besides, i was tired. Didnt quite sleep the night before.

Yeah, stayed in school till 10pm to do my PR report. Reached home at 11.30pm, and my parents were packing and bla bla bla...
Couldnt sleep cos I missed my baby. And i so hate it that he's so far away and i cant even have a decent conversation with him...then started feeling all shit insecure...but everything's alright now. I just want him home....

Then lect and stuff and then BAM! I realised over lunch at the swaps table that im gonna be a third year. Freaking hell! IM GONNA BE A 3rd YEAR!!! So fast!!!! Too fast! I dont wanna be among the unemployed, disgruntled arts graduates so soon! Not yet..

Blimey. Another 2 major projects, 1 presentation and 1 so-called 'mid'-term and im done. Done as in done but not DONE done. 3 weeks to exams man.

[bangs head on table]

I WANNA GET STRAIGHT 'A's. whine whine whine.

And i think uncanny is a funny word. uncanny uncanny uncanny.

See ah, over lunch, i told Karina and whoever else that was listening that the OSA peeps didnt call me for the Resident assistant selection interview. And i went on saying "oh,good la. after my bday, i realise how much i love my family and i never ever wanna leave them".

At 6pm-ish, I received a call for the RA interview on monday 1.15pm.

...

Yes, yes, I know.

I was all ready to publish the pictures when my wireless connection screwed up. GARGH. Unfortunately, most of my pics are in my laptop so what i have in the pc im using now will not be as nice as the ones in my Jitsu. BUT since you guys insist i put some more up, i'll put some of em first, ok? :)

NIce mini class pic!

Postmortem

Heh, sounds like a chapter from Decline and Fall. :)

Wow. Yesterday was a blast. I feel so blessed to have all my friends around to celebrate my birthday. MUACKS to all of you for making my 21st a special event! Ive got so many prezzies to last me for a long long time! :)

Hehehehhe, i know im supposed to put the pics up...i know i know...but theres too many lah. So im gonna wait till my other friends send me the photos (cos my camera batt kept dying on me) then i'll put up the ones that *flatter* everyone okie? heheheh. :)

oh yes!!!! Special thanks to ave, nirwan, sharena, isham who came early to help out even when i was away doing my hair. hehhehe.

Ya, i dont think i wanna blab so much abt the party. I mean you were there! In any case, thanks chris for videocaming the whole thing. I had a blast watching it again. Noticed that one person kept recurring on film. Yunxian! haha. So yunxian. Ya....so once the video is edited (actually, i like it like this already :) then perhaps those who wanna see it when youre bored can watch it lah...and those who missed it and wanna see what happened, can also :)

So anyway, the party officially ended after midnight. Special thanks to ma dunman homies for clearing up and shifting the furniture.

To round it off, i finally was able to take the car out on my own. I drove my em home!So being 21 does have its perks huh?

Alright. Party's over. Gem 1525 test tmr. Blimey.

Tagged, im it....scroll down and you could be the ones IVE tagged!

Rules:
1. Bold the following words that are true about you.
2. GREEN! the things you wish were true.
3. add one thing true about you
4. and then tag onetwothreefourFIVE more people.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.(it's heaven on earth!)
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast/unclear.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have alot of friends.
I am currently single!
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before. hahahaha
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant past or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am now.I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying isI have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates and crowns!
I go to school NOT for the sake of lessons.
I can't ride a bicycle.
I think i'm the only person crazy enough to do this at 6 in the morning without any sleep for the night.
I feel crazy.
I love tomatoes!!
I like peanut butter on bananas.
Been told "You're on fire!"
I'm a netballer.
I believe in Serendipity.
I think the word 'RASPBERRY' is sexaaay!
I love to look at people's teeth.
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing.
I am a PRO...procrastinator.

I tag: Muahahaha. I tag, Adeline, Yunxian, Karina, Yihan, Winston, Xiaoyan...whoever else reads my blog? :P

And the number is 44

Give and take,and thats just the number of people who got back to me regarding their attendance for this saturday. These people shall be receiving en e-invite if things go well (najib's doing it for me. Haha, think the lad is trying his darnest to make up for not being there...i still love you, baby)

These 44 people are going to squeeze in my house. Oh dear. Haha, hope you guys can tahan the stuffyness and heat. And of all the cakes my sis went to order for me, she got a puny cake. Haha. Oh well. If more ppl wanna come, think my house will explode. BOOM. haha

But im really really glad these 44 people are coming. I mean, wow. I feel close to each and everyone of these 44 people. Hard to imagine, but at some point of my life or another, I would have been close, or still am close, to each and everyone of you! :)

Blessed blessed blessed. I feel so much love.

Now you guys better show up.Say youre coming and you dont..grrr..

I wonder if its illegal to harbour so many ppl in my flat. Must i get a permit? God forbid. Too much trouble.

Hehehhe...wheeee~

Le/La miserable

Everything was supposed to be perfect. I had almost every nitty gritty detail of next Sat's thing covered. Food, space, bla bla bla...and most importantly people.

Im so blessed to have those of you who's coming. Everyone who matters to me will be coming down...all except the one person i was hoping for.

And he's leaving for overseas training on that very saturday, 25th march. On my 21st.

He wont be there.

But the party must go on. Everything's planned. And im not gonna waste the memory of my 21st bdae wallowing in self-pity. I will smile. I will enjoy myself.

I have all of you and my family. Now I know who's important in my life.

Family and friends. Because at the end of the day, boyfriends or whatevers come and go.

But family and friendships last forever.

The Button Song

Button, oh button..
You are so round
Sometimes youre big and sometimes youre small
You're always hanging around
But sometimes you pop out
And I'll have to sew you back on.

Oh button, oh button, oh button.

This song is dedicated to yunxian because she likes button songs by Sugarbabes and Pussycat dolls.

Farah's button song is the best, though, and you know it. :)

Pity em, neighbors

I cant believe it! Just got off e phone with Shaun my KL friend whom i havent spoken to in over a year. (MSN isnt 'speaking') (

PS: i hope i dont have to pay for the call, shaun

Anyway, he's working at an international delivery company i shall not name and he's handling the singapore liason division. Thing is, I am appalled that they're paying him $6.50 ringgit per hour. Thats like $3/hr for a job that would actually be $6.50 singapore dollars over here!!! In fact, working in a fast food restaurant there you'd earn like RM$3.50! Thats so pathetic and unfair! What happened to purchasing power parity or that crap i learnt in econs where the price of a big mac should be the same everywhere? And shouldnt MNCs pay part time staff the same everywhere?

Anyway, dude, good luck for your STPM (sijil tinggi pelajaran malaysia...) ie equivalent to A levels! :)

The Big 5

Actually, I learnt these 5 factors in health psych. :)

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have low agreeableness. Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all. In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted. And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

The Five Factor Personality Test

SW1101 eeeeeeeeee

Dear SW term paper,

I have been worrying about you for over 2 weeks now. But i just never seem to be able to sit down and just finish you. You're simply too boring! I just wanna throw you out the window and never encounter you again. But i cant until im done with you.

Why must you be so annoying?

Fine, you fiend, im gonna finish you by tmr, just you see.

sun sun sundayyyyy

I amuse myself. I think im the funniest and coolest person ever. (hugs self) Whenever im bored, i read my blog. I get entertained. I mean im so funny! hah ha haaaaah heheheh wheeeeeee :)

I dont know why im in a happy disposition. Is this reverse PMS? Either way, im gonna enjoy this weird and unexpected high.

02a53...muacks!

Why is everyone from 02a53 getting so nostalgic on their blogs? :) Nirwan, ave, adeline and joyce...i mean....my goodness! So many pictures up on ye blogs to make me feel so much loooove for 02a53...

Heh, if only i knew how to upload photos. Boo. Dunno how to do.

Me bodoh tech bimbo. (that rhymes...yay!)

I miss you guys too!

But seriously ah, if there's anything i'd want to keep with me forever and ever and ever from my two years in VJ is you guys. Amazing how we're still in touch..i think the class blog is one of the best things done...And heh, dont forget our 5 year re-union plan okay? I vaguely remember some plan or other abt that. Or was it 10 years? But everybody must must must be there. :)

PS: ade, how i really wish you could be in singapore for my bdae...:( Send yourself over, woman!! Cut yourself up to tiny bits and ask Josh to seal you in an envelope. Heh, i'll get a big, icky bloody and gooey jigsaw puzzle to put together later! :)

.......

..........


On second thoughts, gross.

You know whats coming

Wish List Update

1)Someone to pay for my hair make over. I suppose this would have to be an advance birthday present. I am free on 22nd/ 23rd to do it. So grab me that day and sit me down at a salon. Oh ya, I want a change. So sick of my hair.
2)Earring holder of dimensions no more than 15cm by 15cm. No need for fancy smancy ones. I just need to hand my earrings that are sprawling all over my cupboard
3)Jeans. My current jeans has torn. Sigh.
4)T-shirts!
5)Eye makeup remover that has a storage life of 10 years. I hardly use make up but if I do, it’ll probably come in handy in the next 10 years.
6)Contact lens. My old ones are getting useless. While youre at it, throw in the solutions please. 
7)I don’t need shoes I think. I’m happy with the ones I have now.
8)Goggles with degrees. Heard its bad to use contacts while swimming. Oops.
9)Hair thingy Karina was talking about sounds interesting. Oh gosh. I’m turning into a hair bimbo like my sis.
10)Kotex supply and panty liners for one year. I’m so sick of rushing down to get one pack. Please revert to me so you know which kind I prefer.
11)Ok lah. A bag is easier for you to get right? A bag that I can wear to school and while im out. I don’t really like to change change bag so yeah, a nice versatile bag for school and play.
12)Ooh, moisturizer. Cos I go swimming at least once a week so my hair, skin, blab la might shrivel up and dry if I don’t do something.
13)someone who’d sponsor my visit to the dentist. Ooh, I’d love to do this before my b’day leh…so advance present here. Again, I am free on 22nd and 23rd.
14)Haiya, basically, give me something that I can use lah.
15)Do NOT give me decorative items, soft toys, photoframes etc. If you really are desperate, just buy me chocolates. It is perishable however, so I might not remember what you’ve given me.
16)Massage. Something to refresh my beaten body and soul after the exams..or heh, before my bdae. Again, im free on 22nd/23rd…so please tell me abt it soon.
17)Guava. Mmmmm….BUT don’t you dare give me guavas. -_-
18)Some of you asked if I wanted a watch, wallet, rollerblades or shades…The thing is, Najib already bought me a wallet so don’t waste your money. Watch I suspect my bro is giving me. Rollerblades, I suspect my other brother is giving me. Shades, I don’t know which one is giving me. Hmm. But then, if you wanna buy shades, please bring me along.
19) Ooh, a brown jacket. The nice nice one that can wear when im going out as well. I cant really describe it but ive seen it before.

Okay so there’s my updated birthday want list. Oh ya, I want another thing. YOU to be there for my birthday party. 25th March, either 6.30pm or 7pm…I’ll update you. My place. Those who have said yes, thank you. Those who have not and you just read this, please get back to me so I can tell my parents how many people are coming….bring your paper fans cos it might get hot.

Application smapplications

Haiya. After much thought, ive given up the idea of applying for the NUS-in-YALE thing. Face it lah, its a USP thing. They just sent the emails to the rest of the student population so it would seem that every student would get a fair shot. Even so, only 10 people would be selected. PLUS must write essay by this friday and apply for a copy of transcript when i have a million and one things to think about..like ace-ing (if i can still call it ace-ing..more like surviving) this semester. Pish.

Goodluck Karina and Pema. Dont forget to get me a Yale sweatshirt.

Kit, sorry i couldnt attend your party. Heard it was a blast. :)

Ive decided to apply to be a RA. Free accomodation..hehe. See how la.

Shikin's blog has the photos from ju's bdae. Damn. My ASS is HUGEMONGOUS. GARGHHHHH. (bury face)

La la la....ooooh, its farhana's bdae today. WHY is everyone turning 21 this month? lala...that means me too.

Another source of stress. I want a party. Probably gonna have one. Still trying to find location. If venue too small, expect that some people cannot be invited. Sigh. I want the whole world to come. But its not my wedding and even so, i am not fandi ahmad for reasons like 1)im a girl 2) i cant play and know nothing about soccer 3) im not married 4) im not rich...
Why have i just gone through the reasons why im not fandi?

In the lib now. Suppose to finish my reaction paper by today and start on my sw term paper. HA HA HA. right.

I must i must i must decrease my butt size! I dont wanna be a mini makcik!

(pout)

Clubbing

Im hot, im sweaty cos i just came back from clubbing.

Haha, not really at a club but from Ju's 21st bdae party and my gosh, is is THE most happening party ive ever been to. I mean first, its at the grand ballroom of a hotel!! Everything started all formal. She made a spectacular entrance looking every bit feminine.Then the food....the photos...and finally the dancefloor. The DJ was really good, alternating between Tamil dance music and english RnB whenever he felt the crowd getting bored...and my goodness, her family..all her cousins and even her uncles and aunties and dad rocked the house down!

Haha...and her rugby friends. Wow. I must say, they're not only hot, but they owned the dance floor (i heard from a friend that when they do go clubbing, they dominate the entire dance area). The best thing is, they made me feel completely at ease.

At first i was super hesitant, afraid of making a fool of myself..haha, but eventually, i got into the beat and everything was so fun from there...especially when Kin(amazing how she never runs out of energy),tini,aisyah and nisha were there...and of course ju! I always thought clubbing was sleazy one-one dancing but it isnt! At least just now it wasnt...its like the group of us formed a circle kinda thing...so yeah, it was cool, fun and safe. Not a single bit sleazy.

Then again, it could be because im among friends..so yeah...security and all.

oh dear...i enjoyed myself. BUT i will only go clubbing IF and only IF its with this same bunch of people...esp nisha cos we live near each other and heh, both of us cant be home too late...haha... OR if im in a huge huge group of friends and i can be home by 12.

Then again, maybe its just a passing phase. Either way, fantastic experience.

Spin Spin Spin

So many many things spin spin spinning in my head.

I want to plop down.

PLOP.

"Everything will be alright, rock-a-by...rock-a-by"

A letter...

Dear Health Psych,

Today is Tuesday and I have 2 days before I confront you. I am not afraid of you. On the contrary, you should be afraid of me. I shall disect you, tear you apart and put you back together. And repeat the cycle untill I am done with you.

You will try to trick me, with your ambiguosly formed sentences and fool me by giving me numerous choices which are close to one another but hear me, Health Psych, I WILL NOT FALL PREY.

Till Thursday, my ill-fated foe.

Till Thursday.

I shall be prepared.

The question is, will you be prepared for me?

Yours,

far

Saturday

Managed to negotiate my tuition fees to a respectable amount. Cannot wait till my pay day next week. Im going broke. Been spending too much.

TV's on now. Keanu Reeves looks fatter than expected with his shirt off. Boo.

And contrary to the movie reviews in ST, Pink Panther is actually quite nice. Maybe its the relief from the stress. But i laughed so hard at Inspector Clueso (how do you spell it) :)

Lesson learnt from this week: Start on projects/papers earlier.

What break?

Its been one of the most rushed and stressful week so far this sem. For those who know, you'd know the reason.

A very special shout out of thanks to Cheryl Nott and Chris and Nudgie, my darling for the support you gave me. I wouldnt have been able to finish my 2000 essay in 24 hours had it not been for you guys. And Adeline as well...thanks babe. You were sorta my inspiration. Telling me that you managed to write 3000 words in 2 days really gave me a sense of hope right when i needed it.Gosh, i love you people. And of course, Farhana for helping me out with my surprise for Nudgie on Wednesday when all my plans got messed up. Ahh, Nudgie.....cant believe after coming back from Brunei, you came to my rescue, researching and proof reading and coming to my house to deliver anti-stress goodie bag..And ooh, cheryl lee, my life saver for handing my PR essay for me so i wouldnt have to go to school today.....:)

And to all those who couldnt muster anything but give me a bewildered look and calling me crazy (even implicitly, i can tell) when you heard I had very little time to finish my term paper....GRRRRR. GRRRRR. GRRRRRR.

I DID IT.

Even if, admittedly, it isnt very good, at least i did it. I pushed on. Phew. I need a recharge.

Alamak

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I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.
I SHOULD have started my developmental term paper earlier.

I have 3 days to finish a 2000 words term paper. And I am still second questioning myself as to whether the topic im doing is feasible. More importantly, i cannot seem to find a matching international research. Darn you papers. COME OUT wherever you are! Published in 1947. Where on earth am i gonna find that? The library only has collection from 70s lah. In the journal section. Ive actually gone thru child development journals dating from 1999 to 2005. I have yet to go thru 1985-1998. Thats like another 13 years. The info is out there. I want it. Please come to me. Soon.

PS: Welcome home, darling :)
(not that i can see you because *mutter mutter* I have a term paper *mutter mutter* so i cant *mutter mutter*. GROWL)

The Broken Road. Nice. :)

I set out on the narrow way
Many years ago,
Hoping i would find true love
Along the broken road.
I got lost a time or two,
Wiped my brow, kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you.

Every long-lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were just northern stars,
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms.
This much i know is true
That god blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

I think about the years i spent
I'd like to find the time i lost and give it back to you.
You just smile and take my hand; you've been there, you understand,
It's all part of a greater plan that is coming true.

Every longlost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were just falling stars,
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms.
This much i know is true
That god blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

Term Break!

WOHOO!

I must remind myself that this isnt a break break. Its a mug-all-you-can-and-do-the-term-papers-properly-and-quickly-so-you-wont-be-stressed-when-school-reopens-so-ARGH-period.

Developmental psych paper and pr reaction paper due on friday. Then, health psych mid-terms on thurs. GARGH.

Had a major crisis yesterday...i think for those whom i talked abt it with would know. Too lazy to type it all out. In sum, i was having doubts as to whether psych is my calling. Its gonna be an incredibly long journey that only the toughest would survive. Will i burn out and crash out of the race by then? Will i get jaded? The theres pr. Then i concluded that i could always take another degree or study more if i find myself dissatisfied when i suddenly realised that hey, studying would require MONEY. Then thought abt the school fees.

SO, anyway, a shitty trip home on the mrt after Ridge's AGM, (amazing how i think abt the future a lot while on the train), i had dinner with my amazing friend Winston...who help me sought everything out. :) Well, you really really untangled the freaking knots in my head, dude. After that, we went on a joyride in Briony's new car...She just passed her driving test. :) Pasir Ris park at night. Gorgeous. Stars, moon, music...breeze :)

Also, thanks yunxian for making me feel better too.

Oohh, and kenneth!! Havent seen you for so long so even though we chatted for less than 10mins, it was really nice! :)

3 more days before i get my nudgie.

THEN AGAIN, THAT WOULD MEAN MY DATELINES ARE NEARING TOO!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH.

All i want for my 21st

Well, I went to yet another birthday party last night.
Manju's 21st. It was a surprise party although I heard she wasnt surprised.
Still, something stuck with me after last night. I want a party.
And i want all my friends to be there.
Yeah, I realize that it'd be really really nice to have a birthday party...to finally have all your friends in one place, just for me.

But I realize that this will never happen simply because everyones too busy. 25th march is like one month before exams and im pretty sure that’s when deadlines are.

Still, if there is a someone, who is able to organize a party, in which all my friends will be invited to. This someone, or team, will plan everything…and surprise me...then, heh, I would be the happiest person. Hah.

In any case, let me just indulge myself in a fantasy.
If I were to have a humongous party, I’d want all these people there…even tho I may not be close to some of these ppl, it’d still be nice to have them ard….im sure in some way, they’ve made me who I am today. And ooh, these names are the ones that came from the top of my head so apologies, if i forgot someone.

Dunman
Winston
Briony
Farhana
Sabrina
Yuan Man
Widya
Manju
Layhong
The entire NCO girls hafiza,Noreen,etc and boys squad, NPCC. Esp firdaus,jiawei,terence,etc etc
Gracia
Izhar
Leepei
Yunzi
Raj
Kartini
Shikin
Nisha Issacs
Jihan
Aisyah
Armar
Kassim
Rauf
Omar
Nadeem
Luqman
Prashant
Whoever else from 1E, 2-4A whod like to come

JC
The entire 02a53
Adeline,Ave,Amy,Alina,Cheryl,Mel,jeannie,huiboon,
susian,joyce,steph,
Norman,ian,nirwan,chris yeo,vemalan,xiaowen,Joanne,kit,angela
Nabilah
Afidah
Uni
Pearl (from violin)
02MCS

IRAS
Yunxian
Pema
Shareena
Lynn
Jinhong
Huimin
Brenda

NUS
SWAPS 18th exco:
Gene, zhisheng,jean,Eugene,xiaoyan,chinyong,shaun o,
Shaun G, Kim, charmaine, giang, julaina,justina,linyen,Joanna,
Karina
Chris ong
Cheryl Nott
Genevieve
Katherine
Kenneth
Liangcai
Wantsin
Wani
Anah

Teachers
Mdm Suharni
Mrs Neo (yes, e principal. Why not. Fantasy party)
Ms Goh!!
Mrs Ng (lau kao. Hahhahah.)

Family (Although, I would prefer a seperate, small scall thingy with my family)
Mom, dad, brother, brother, sister, nenek.

Najib.

That’s like 95 people. Heh, good luck, mysterious surprise birthday planner. Haha.

I think I'll have to wait till my wedding day.

Drama-kemama

My gosh. Student activism in NUS? GASP.

Silent protest by wearing black on thurs? (darn it, i was already planning to wear black tmr..even before this brouhaha.)
A mass university scale sit out?
Personal attacks to the president of the SU?

All this because people are unhappy with the increase in school fees and with the current NUS Student union?

My my my my my.

Cant fight the power, people. Face it. Thats what happened to SWAPS VS DEPT. Thats whats gonna happen to NUSSU VS UNI and know what? The entire student population making noise reminds me of certain people in a certain year of a certain major who made noise during swaps agm but didnt do nothing when they could have. Oh puhlease.

Politics is a sticky tricky thing if you ask me.

Balik kampung lah. All of you. Just go study can? Make use of central library. Make use of the electricity in the classroom. Make use of anything you want and can in school to appease your unhappiness. Get your degree and get the heck out.

Still, it is brilliant fun to read the numerous disgruntled posts!

Wantlist ver 1.0

In no particular order of preference....

- Brown jacket
- Earring holder (cos i have too many earrings sprawling all over my cupboard)
- A surprise birthday party (hur hur)
- Bag
- Shoes
- Massage. Better still, an OSIM chair
- Roller blades, with wrist and knee guards
- A more functioning and thinking brain who can get me a CAP of 5.0
- A treat at the hair saloon, which includes a haircut and dye (cos my darn whites
are showing already)
- Jeannie's black dress
- Shades
- Tops. Need more tops.
- Jeans
- A personal trainer who'd help me lose weight before i turn 21.
- A car I can drive to school in
- A printer

Thats what ive come up with so far...hey, can someone teach me how to strike a word out? Like ___________ but across the word?? Need to do that so i wont get 2 of the same things. Anyhoo, this is only a draft. The final one would be up on 25th Feb so thats one month to make necessary arrangements. :)

PS: My dad thinks im shameless and despicable for demanding things. Look at it this way. Im helping you so you wouldnt have to think "What shall i give farah" in the event youre thinkng of giving me something, of course.

Husky

I am losing my voice!!!!!! I dont even know why.

Anyway, thank you so much jeannie for having me over yesterday. You looked SO pretty!!!!!! I want your dress!!! Heh, is it free size? Gosh, i love the whole outfit. The hair was so 50s..and the dress.....argh...i want the dress!!!
Check out Ave's blog for pics :)

So got home late last night only to discover that I had a paper due the next morning. Thankfully, i drafted something up on tuesday..so phew...just needed to tweek here and there.

Got to speak to nudgie last night too. His mom is gonna kill him when e bill arrives.

Hmm. Something about sleep deprivation and language ability. I realise that when i lack sleep, i dont make sense. Thoughts are disjointed. I forget what i would like to say to people. I cant remember things.

And i become a shoperholic.

I bought 5 pair of earring and a flip flop.

(grin)

The Lone Ranger

Sometime back, I published a post, admitting how much I am afraid of loneliness. To wake up one day and realise that I have no one, besides family, to spend time with and to do fun stuff with. Even earlier than that post, was a one wherein I questioned whether certain connection I feel with people only relates to the domain of studies, after which, zilch.

And so with the effects of the 3-day week (with minimal breaks) coming into play, I begin to notice how my previous posts carried with them certain elements of truth. Im losing touch with people. And i cant help but feel that they too, have forgotten about me. With the exception of one person, I hardly share modules with my other friends. I try to have lunch with another yet we both find it difficult to meet up. I try to blend once again every fri for lunch w another grp but for the past few times, i did, i felt left out.

Gosh, i sound like im wallowing in self-pity eh? Haha. Yeah, i suppose having free time at home does make you think abt things a lot. Doesnt help that Farhana's busy with school, najib's overseas and Winston's well, busy i suppose. Everyone's busy. I should be too. Maybe at least then, i can keep myself from wandering into insecure thoughts. Heh, i was showering when i tried to imagine who would actually turn up for my 21st birthday party. Im not gonna have one, by the way. Bad timing. Everyone, including me, will have term papers due and all. Too much hype about the 21st. In fact, im not expecting anything from anyone except close friends (u better) and family. But heh, just for kicks, i will still come up with a birthday wishlist.

Ok lah, should not sound so pessimistic lah. I know you guys are busy. But that doesnt mean you wont be there right? Besides, I know of a friend who seldom talks to me but when we do chat, it can last for hours! Right, Kat? :)

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I think i need a shot of happy hormones and stop whining!

Going for a swim tmr...cant wait :)

Comics

Sometimes, you shouldnt hide under the banner of 'freedom of speech' when you know that half the world's gonna be a mess because of what you say, drew or did. With 'freedom of speech' comes responsibility, you know.

Im so glad I live in this country. At least we're not as hot-headed nor insensitive enough to cause an international uproar. I agree with the gov. We must NEVER ever take racial/religious harmony for granted. It only takes a spark, to set the fire going.

Peace. I really do want world peace. I mean seriously. And greater understanding.

N

Tonight was super.

Thank you so much, for everything.

I love you.

:)

RING!!!!

AHDUIIIII!!!!!!!!

Shut up already! In the central lib now using the pc to print stuff out. And the stupid firebell is ringing. Amazingly, the ppl ard me have like this in-built mechanism to shut the noise out.

WAH. Thank God, its stopped. Haha, if there was really a real fire, i think we might actually die here, glued to the pcs. After all, now theres a one hour limit before the pc automatically shuts down. Fantastic policy if you ask me! :)

Just finished zapping health psych readings. Met Huijun in the lib and i saw her zapping dev readings. GARGH. More stuff to print.

I think i need to invest in a new printer at home, which doesnt require me flip the pages manually in the event i want to print double sided.

Right. Next lesson's at 4pm. I better make use of my time wisely.

Sw1101E

Groan.
I admit, one of the reasons Im taking SW is because I would very much like to score and pull my cap up. Another reason is that with the intro mod, i am able to take other sw modules which requires it as a pre-req. However, those who know me would know which one im more concern with.

So anyway, lectures have been absolutely boring. "Bored to tears" as a tutorial mate of mine mentioned earlier today. And the readings. OH MY GOSH the readings. But hey, wantsin and cheryl got thru the mod without doing the readings right? :/

Tutorial today was dratful. I was compelled to join several people for the tutorial discussion. The most horrifying group ever. It was like trying to squeeze blood from a rock, trying to get them to air their views. There were 5 of us. Lets call them Tomboy, Princess, Mouse and Kiddo and me. Kiddo was ok. At least he made an attempt. Tomboy and princess were so sulky as tho they were forced to join the module because they committed petty theft or the like and was sent down to be punished. Mouse was well, mousey. ARGH.

Thank goodness discussion groups are not fixed. Im so not gonna sit near them again. I quickly made friends with more farah friendly people after tutorial :)

Tmr's PR lect AND dev psych lect is cancelled. Gonna go to school for a 10-11am make-up health tut and sw lect (God, help me) from 4-6pm.

Then HOME. Then tuition the next day (woohooo...after a long hiatus, i cannot wait to have cash inflow)then....Im not too sure what.

But one thing is for sure.

I need to start studying and keep up with my readings.

PS: Jeannie and I signed up for Salsa lessons :) Haha. I know.

Neoprints?!

I feel sick. I cant believe my nudgie and I succumbed to the neo-print madness albeit 5/6 years late. The boyfriend had never taken a neoprint before so as much as I had always been against it, what the heck, might as well.

My gosh, i felt so embarrased to enter the ultra pink shop (yes, my blog is pink but this is different) at century square. Surrounded by secondary school kids. EEK. Then, we went into the machine and everything happened so bleeping fast! It didnt help that the instructions were in japanese and we were like "HUH?? POSE, SMILE LAUGH" in that order. It was admittedly fun and i suppose the "adrenalin" possessed us to take ANOTHER one at tamp mall. At least the one there was in english.

But you know what? We both felt superbly dizzy and felt like hurling after looking at the photos again and again, shaking our heads in disbelief. As in, at first, there were kinda nice but the more we looked at them, the more we felt so jelak of it..it was so....so....."kawaii". YUCK.

So we've both resolved not to look at them more than once a month. Haha. We even thought of throwing them away. But no, must not waste money. Besides, quite memorable...the stupid things we do together! Haha.

Anyway, he accompanied me at the lib as i mugged and he finished his assignment. Apparently, ocs gives them reports to do and stuff. So yeah, i can actually STUDY with him around. :)

Yesterday was nice too..went to ave's place for CNY. Must credit her parents and )ave too :)) for their hospitality. I really really felt overwhelmed that they made accomodations for me.

Nudgie met Jeannie yesterday. He remarked that all my friends are bubbly. Really ah? I mean he's met Cheryl, justina, yunxian, winston, briony, farhana and several others...hey, yeah, i am noticing a pattern! Most of my friends are really jovial people! :)

Happy New Year

Today is also the Islamic new year which I suspect not very many people actually notice. It incidentally coincides with the lunar new year because of reasons to do with the way the lunar calendar, islamic calendar and gregorian calendar are as so. Basically, I read about it somewhere about the way each calendar functions but truth be told, i wasnt really interested in that article very much.

And so, I am here today. Just came back from my nenek's place. She arrived in singapore yesterday after her Haj pilgrimage. She told us stories about how unorderly people from other countries are as opposed to their asian counterparts. It all boils down to the fact that when people from many different cultures congregate, many fascinating and simultaneously frightening experiences can be expected. Yet, my aunt told us, that it is also the most beautiful thing of all. To witness people from all parts of the world, with different languages, cultures, experiences, socio-economic nuances coming together for Allah :)

Shop N Run

Went shopping with my darling yest :) He bought me an Esprit wallet and a pair of nice shoes!! I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE my darling so much!

Then, we went for a nice slow jog till the end of pasir ris park...and i got my well-deserved foot massage. hehe.

Oh ya, yesterday was so peaceful. As in even in town,peak hour mind you, there were so few people (relatively speaking) and on our way home, the mrt and the interchange were nice and quiet. Ahh...if only everyday was like this.

Oh yes, Gong Xi Fa Cai!

FATigue

I walked out of Social work lect yest. I couldnt take it. The guy kept going on and on and on and did not even offer the class a lect break. EVIL. A friday evening lecture some more. So i left at and returned a while later only to discover, as soon as mu butt touched the Lt seat, that class was adjourned. So thats why he didnt give a break. Ah well. I think the lecture is webcasted.

Speaking of webcasts.I ought to remind myself to watch dev psych lect again. Elliot was mumbling and speaking too fast sometimes.

Speaking up. I spoke up in a lecture for the first time. I actually raised my hand to ask my PR lecturer something. Heh, ive always wondered why students (particularly in health psych) do that. And yes, i was one of those people who shoot them dirty looks and yesterday, i was at the receiving end. But now that im one of them, i realise that its not like theyre boasting or being "action-aje menyampah" they actually do earnestly want to contribute to the discussion. I mean, isnt that what students should do? Or is it just in singapore where you stick up like a sore, unlikable thumb, if you speak up? So sad.

Anyway, i was thoroughly spent by the end of the day. I wanted to cry thinking of the journey back home. I guess the pile of social work notes handed to me by ting ting (oh so kind to zap them for me in the first place) kinda added to my already bleah state of mind. THEN, farhana made me travel to science to get her sports medicine book. ARGH. The things you do for friends. So i walked all the way to science co-op after dumping my bag at munchie monkey with yx, justina, ting ting and this dude kyle.

Sat at munchies till 9 plus and finally treated justina and yunxian to their long overdue bdae treat. Must cover that before my birthday lah. :) Amazing how a bunch of people can just sit there, and do nothing. Also, i realise that ive developed an incredible tolerance for people conversing in a different language when around me. I mean if it makes them happy so be it. I shouldnt make noise. I am but one person who should be grateful to have them ard. Either that, or i was just too damn shacked to notice. But seriously, my tolerance has increased ever since i came to NUS. haha.

Then at 9 plus, nudgie FINALLY managed to find Yusof ishak house and we went off. We walked all the way back to arts :) NUS is really nice at night. And we hailed a cab home...and the cab driver adamantly believed he was younger than me. "you call me uncle? Haha, i think i younger than you"

Darn you. GRRRRRR. unless of course you are younger than me lah. But still. BOOO.

PS: im fat. FAT!

PPS: I love CNY!!! wohoo! Long break! :)

:)

Lovely evening, it was. I finished school at 4pm, headed down to the co-op to finally purchase my Health psych book. After perusing the two books, i finally settled on buying Sarrafino's book instead of Ogden. The latter, no doubt is more encompassing and detailed but I bought sarrafino instead because 1) its hardcover, 2) its cheaper 3) most importantly, its better organised.

But no, im not that big a geek to classify my evening as lovely simply because i bought myself a new book. No no no.

I met up with my nudgie!!! Spontaneous date as he had a "night out". So i went to the esplande library and read the first chap of health psych (ah, i am a mugging nerd and im not ashamed of it at all)while waiting for him. He called me around 7 plus but even before i could answer, he hung up. Naturally, i looked around as he tends to hang up once he sees me. So i scanned the lib for him but couldnt find him. Decided to continue reading my book while calling him when suddenly, i felt something brushing against my cheek...

A rose. A big red rose. :) And there he was, dressed in his 'penguin' outfit, looking all charming....we went for dinner at the same place 5/3 went the last time... :) Perfect :)

Oh ya, can you believe, that my nudgie almost became a tv star? Remember the show moulmein high? The lousy drama on a local channel? Hahah. Apparently, he went for the casting after someone came up to him and asked him if he was interested. I dont really know how the conversation came up. Haha, but at least i learnt something new about him....he cant act for nuts! :) And im glad he didnt get the role. Else i wouldnt have him in my life.

Ahh. :)

Midweek and im home :)

Hmm. Im probably gonna regret saying this in a few weeks time..but man! I have nothing to do!!!!

Having a 3-day work week is starting to grow on me. At first I thought i might be making a big mistake by packing everything in 3 days but the more i think about it, the more im convinced that staying home to study is a good idea. After all, i wont need to waste 3 hours of my life each day travelling (not to mention the time spent reeling in from the bleahness of travel when i reach home). PLUS, the days that i AM in school, i dont have long stretches of unnecessary breaks during which i would have extremely long unneccessary lunches (realise i eat significantly faster when i eat alone) and i wouldnt wonder to a certain table somewhere and waste my time while waiting for the next lesson. So in that case, my time would be well spent. I would truly go to school for lessons, and then head on home to concuss.

Hmm. but then that would mean i would have less time to catch up with friends who are no longer taking modules with me. That could be detrimental to my sanity. I hate feeling lonely. Hmm. I suppose wondering to the table would do me some good once in a while. Even weeks on monday i guess. Thats the only time when i have a break lasting more than 2 hours. yes, i will not be anti-social. Cannot afford to.

That said, ive only got one text left to buy. Health psych. Still deciding which book to buy but i really got to get one by this week so i can read up this weekend. Read my PR chap last night and i even started on my first reaction paper. Then i read my Gek lect notes to sleep. Today, i shall print all my lect notes for next week and then read the first chap of my dev text. MUGger me. hehe. I quite enjoy reading my texts actually. I guess its something to do with new books...the smell, the crisp of each page :)

And i cant seem to get an article i read last week out of my head. The one in which a certain actress claims that eating placenta (yes, the thing that provides nourishment from mother to child in the womb) is good for you. My gosh. Thats like tantamount to bordeline cannibalism. Gross. And sheesh, the placenta comes out through the uterus. Double gross. To think she bakes it and eat it makes me wanna throw up. Imagine collecting curdled blood from your menses and baking it. YUCK.

Speaking of revolting things, bombing a place and killing 18 innocent people when your target is focused on one man whom you presumed to be there is barbaric. Why dont you just annihilate the entire planet while you're at it? Shame on you.

First 21st

I went to my first invitation to a friends' 21st Birthday party. My buddy layhong from dunman Npcc. Hadnt met her in ages. When i arrived, none of her dunman friends were there except her bf (of 6 years!). It was a bit awkward for me at first but being the extremely sensitive person that she is, LH made sure to stay by me as much as possible until widya came along. I honestly didnt mind that she was often called away to greet the newly arrived guests, etc. But she still apologised. So polite. So layhong :)Anyway, i managed to catch up with wid. She's into photography so she brought this big camera and we started taking pics.Like 2 hours later, the guys came. Met a lot of old faces there as well, mostly her classmates. I reckon i wont be bumping into them much in future so it was a good occasion to catch up and take photos. It was fun :)


Then, i heard that it was a classmate of mine who passed away. (apparently, i had mistaken this other guy to be the one who died but he was very much alive at the party just now). Jokes aside, Suresh was such a sweet guy. He sat beside me in Sec 1. After sec 1, we didnt really get to talk much but he always smiled whenever i saw him. Wished i had known him better. And now, he's gone. And i didnt even know about it.


Moral of the story? Catch up with your friends whenever you can, particularly the ones you never had a chance to know better and the ones you have not seen in a long time. Just get to know where they are, what theyre doing, etc etc.

To buy or not to buy?

Its the time of the year to visit to the co-op and get my textbooks. Usually, i wouldnt think much before buying but this sem, im taking two UEs. Non major modules. Hence the hesitation. I mean, why would i want to own a social work textbook? I dont even think i will actually use it for this mod...but still.. The PR textbook might come in handy..but 45 buckeroos??? Or should i just get an earlier edition from some senior who's willing to sell it for 25? Or should i just Z@% it?

Then health psych. Do i buy sarrofino's textbook or Odjen textboook? which one?????

That said, at LEAST i bought the dev psych text so i can finally start on my readings. Ive been so bored without anything to read.

And i do feel a bit insecure that i still dont have the remaining textbooks.

Argh.

And tutorial balloting starts tmr night.

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Just another rainy sunday.

Rain. Again.

On the bright side, I can breathe through both nostrills. Ahhhh... :)

Such a nice sleepy-ish weather. Im gonna curl up in bed and start on another Tom Holt book. Gosh. The guy is darn funny. Witty funny. Which is good funny. Cos its intellectual funny. Intellectual=good. There.

School starts tmr. What to wear...what to wear. Hmm. Jeans, t-shirt, sneakers. That's my uniform anyway.
First class: Eva claims rel to health. Starts at 5.30pm. Hope i wont be late.

Rode on cable car for the first time yest :) With my darling :) (who's the only one who can tolerate my mood swings and who's ever so patient that i cant help falling in love with him over and over again.....7 months :) )
Anyway, it was ok lah. Although the seats were rather uncomfortable and the cabin was stuffy.

Alright, gonna enjoy my last sunday of having nothing to do :)

Color Code

Now that ive finally gotten all 5 modules, Im facing yet another problem. Yes, this might sound a little bimbo...but im color coding my modules and i cant think of appropriate colors!!! help!

Any suggestions guys?

Im taking

1) Developmental Psychology
2) Health Psychology
3) Introduction to Social Work
4) Evaluating claims related to Health
5) Principals of Communication Management (Public Relations)

So far, the colors involved are: Yellow, purple, red, blue and green. The problem is, which color suits which module??

SIGH.

Knowledge the Torch of Life

:)

That's Dunman Sec's school motto. I just came back from Dunman. heh, me and my dad decided to pop in to see if things have changed. My my my. A LOT has. For one, there's a security post at the walkway leading to the canteen. Next, Mrs Ng, who's usually be lurking around the atrium isnt there anymore. In fact i saw new faces dressed in the PE teacher-ish gear. The girls no longer wear their skirts above their knees. Not a minah in sight. Haha!! Wow.

And yet, some things never change!! The canteen looks the same. The vendors are still there and the pak cik recognised me. The NPCC room looks the same...and the banner proclaiming the "SYF GOLD award since 2000" brings back memories....and there, in the canteen eating, was my classmate Lee Pei!!! hhahahahha! So coincidental. Saw familiar teachers like Mr Gan, the maths teacher. I didnt get the chance to bump into the others as they were having class. But my gosh...being back there again made me so happy...this heartwarming "ahhh-ness"....fond memories welcomingly came flooding back in. I miss sec school so much. If only the people who made it fonder were there too.Heh, i remember that there was this segment of the canteen that ive was afraid to venture to cos the soccer boys and other mats were always there....hhaha...so silly...then there's the fish pond where my friends and i would take pics in. Then the parade square. Ah, the parade square. And the classroom! The one i had to sit in for detention. :)


And yes, my name's still up there :)

You know what? I want to go back to school. Im ready. Bring it on Year 2 Sem 2. Bring it on.

All Clean :)

Feeling pleased with myself. I finally overcame the inertia to start packing my things properly and got my room in order. I managed to get rid of a lot of old notes and i filed everything up neatly. The result? One a and a half shelf of space for my new books for the coming semester.

And i realise now that i do have a lot of bags.

Anyway, mental note: return Eugene his stats 1 file and return xiaoyan her Stats 2 file. Get rid of the pile of Swaps thingies.

PS: I think im addicted to the indonesian soap opera "Dia" on suria. Gosh. I cant help it!!! That Fi-fi woman is EVIL. I realise that most indonesian villains are cunning deceitful women (who are often played by fantastic actresses). How fantastic? So fantastic that it makes the viewers blood boil each time she appears on screen...and thinking of them simply riles you. ARGH. To make matters worse, they always seem to get their way because the people around them are so stupid. Haha. Okay, im getting carried away. Anyway, indonesian actors are gorgeous.

First Post of The Year 2006

Ive taken quite some time to blog this time. Theres so many things to say! So this is gonna be a rather long post.

I spent NYEve with Najib in the morn/afternoon. We went rollerblading. heh, i can rollerblade now!!! Got caught in the rain and thats most likely the source of my flu. (sniffs). Then met up with Cheryl. Three years in a row we've managed this! :) AT night, what was supposed to be a family dinner at 10 was delayed and was even threateningly on the verge of being cancelled, if not for the super sour face i pulled. So my family went for dinner/supper at 12.30am at Changi Village. Yes, there were Bapuks there. Haha. Every single year, my family would have dinner and a little party together. The little party was gone. But i pray the family get together would still remain...

Then on 1st Jan, my relatives came over. My nenek and almost 4 or 5 families including mine were packed into my humble abode. It was really nice...We had some prayers cum lunch cos my nenek and my aunt is going to Haj. In fact they left at 2am this morn. (Went to the airport but they went into the gate already). It was a very emotional moment when my nenek was leaving my home. We said goodbye and she hugged us and told us to never forget her..and to never forget to pray....you see, she thinks she might not make it back. :( I couldnt help but cry and hugged her so tightly. I pray Allah will look after both my grandma and my aunt....
My maternal aunt and my cousin are leaving tmr morning...i'll be praying for them too.

So with all the leftover food from the previous day, i decided to call in Winston, Briony and Najib for lunch and to watch DVDs. I enjoyed myself...and at least the food was almost finished...i mean...i thought my dad kinda overcooked...and if nobody finished his curry, then for a week, i would have ended up eating leftovers! haha...

And then theres today. Woke up....and realise that i cannot bid in this phase. I only have 2 modules allocated to me right now. Dev and health psych. Hmm.

Im also having the post-holiday blues. I realise that im not big on changes! haha. I had post exam blues and now post holiday. But seriously lah....i dont feel prepared for the next battle. My brain's too rusty and my body's too used to waking up when it feels like it.

I still havent finished the books i borrowed and for goodness sake, my book cupboard's still not cleared of the exams aftermath. I oughta do something about it. Fast.