All that Ive worked hard for. It's all falling apart. I'm not getting the participants I need. So close yet so far. And that is the worst thing of all. Im so close to where I want to be and yet I will never be able to reach it because of this. Ive done everthing I can. Ive practically begged them to come down for lab. Ive come down on public holidays. On saturdays. On sundays. At any time as long as they're willing to come. And all for what?

Now I sit in my lab, 21 dec 2007. Crying my eyes out. Ive always been optimistic. Always thought that I just have to be patient and my participants will respond. Will reply. Will come. But reality has slowly been seeping in.

First, the response is trickling down and so is my pool of subjects. Ive tried asking friends. Not working at all as they dont fulfill the criteria I need. Heck, i even decided to reduce the number of participants per condition to 15!

Then I found out that they brought forward the dateline to 30th march.

But the last straw came down with my participant today. I had to take the painful decision to exclude her data. Exclude! Im moving backwards.

Oh my god. How will my sup react when I report to him my sample size? He's going to tell me something I dont want to hear. He's going to make me change my entire research question because that is the only way to salvage my thesis. And I know that.

But everything I put in...I keep thinking of all that Ive done...its all going to waste. and it hurts so much.

it hurts so much.

I worked so hard. All that.

I cant type anymore

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