Yay...Its the HOLIDAYS!

Hey..I'm so thrilled I can blog from home!! Finally! There's so many things I want to type in. Was gonna start blabbing about the exams i had but since its OVER, i shall not bother about it! Whatever happens, happens.

Went for a movie with pema yesterday. Watched Bridget Jones diary. Hilarious! Haha, gives hope to non "skinny people who still require slimming pills cos they think without it they'd grow fat and die ugly". Haha. I mean really, it just gets to me when you see a naturally lean celebrity endorsing slimming supplements. Oh puhlease! Get Lydia Sum to lose weight using your supplements or smt and then it'd be at least credible! In any case, i believe in pure exercise and a healthy diet. Pish.As if i do that. Still, at least I know that that's the proper and ideal way to do it.

I need to start exercising again. Feel like a slob lately. Havent had a run since before the fasting month. Oh gosh, the inertia to start again!!! Argh.

Speaking of which, I think ive pretty much outgrown the jalan hari raya phase. I mean, really, I dont know why, but everytime i see a big group of people dressed in their baju kurungs and heavy make-up, i cringe. Such attention seeking. I mean come on la...why so much make up??? And some as young as like what?? 9 years old? Am i being hypocritcal? Yes, its fun, i know...to be able to get all ya-ya with your friends..and it gives you a valid reason to check your friends place out...homes tell a lot about people. I mean they grow up in there......then there's the money issue. Ok, look, yes yes, it is customary to give out green packets to unmarried and unworking people...but seriously, i think its ridiculous to accept green packets from your friends' parents! They dont even know you! What difference would a couple of bucks be to a 19 yr old? I mean sure, the kids would be thrilled but i think its embarrassing to see a bunch of 19-20++ yr olds lining up to accept the token. I mean you go to a persons house, enjoy his/her hospitality and get paid for what exactly? hmm? So im reluctant. Thank goodness i had exams as a polite means of declining certain invitations. Open houses and parties are okay. Just dont give me the green packets! I come solely to chill and well most importantly to see my friends at their most comfortable- in their homes. Now, Im not saying everyone who goes jalan raya are like that but some of them are. They go out in a big group and serbu (attack) one of their friends homes...some of them in the group arent even the person's friends! like what the!!!
Anyway, thats why i prefer the open house concept. Have a party. Get your friends together on the same day. And have fun!!!!!!

Singapore idol is this wednesday. VOTE Taufik!!!!!!!! Cos honestly he's talented isnt he? I mean he's definitely better at representing singapore than the other fellow..Slyvester(sounds like salivester...btw, his name is supposed to be spelled sylvester..not that his fans care to take notice). Okay, not gonna dive into this idol fever crap. Just vote Taufik will ya? If youre willing to pay 0.50 cents la. Btw, if taufik makes it big and if i ever see him on the streets or smt, the first thing i'd say to him is "Oi, when are you gonna pay my family $5 back??". haha.

Gonna be a busy december. Incidentally, i might be going to sentosa like 3/4 times! I mean really, why sentosa? Ah well, singapore's a tad tiny to go anywhere anyway. Im going Langkawi with my bro! We're gonna do it the amazing race style....get the tix and stuff on the spot! haha..looking forward to that.

I need beach wear. I need a bag. I need a dress. I need shades. I need to go SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love the holidays......dont you?

Okay, since this blog-from-home thing is highly unpredictable, the next time i blog might be the next time im in school. As such, HAPPY NEW YEAR evreyone!!

Exams are over!!!!!

Mental Constipation...(copyright)

Let the mugging begin

Indeed! Im in school now, finally getting started on E lang. Strangely, I actually enjoy reading the text!

Tiring day indeed yest....but I had fun! 26 ppl turned up! People i never even expected to come like Norman!!! Haha..he actually reads my blog! 26 people managed to squeeze into my humble home. It was kinda stuffy so i apologise to all those who had to perspire and worse, who didnt get to seat for long!!!

Video-cam(ed) the whole affair..I'll be editing and making it into a VCD soon;that is, once i figure out how to!

Once again, Thanks to all those who turned up! Really appreciated that I didnt end up like the little boy in the psych video...the one where nobody turned up for his birthday party!
And thanks for the Ferraro Rochers.(I have 6 boxes of it now, heh, one for each member of my family)

Mug!!!!!!!!!!1

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

C'est Finis

Indeed, it's over. Whoosh, one semester of french, gone with the wind. I just had my final oral just now..and well, yesterday was the last french lecture. We had a test and then we played a game. It was a nice ending to a nice module with nice classmates and nice teachers. Nice. I mean we see each other twice, sometimes 3 times a week! We gave yannick the markers after all! And he's no longer teaching in NUS from next semester. In any case, the few of us who'll be continuing with french are plotting to join the same lecture next semester!

Whooshh...again. Time flies. A week left before the onset of the FINALs. THE finals. So i suppose i wont be typing in any time soon cos its officially the reading week and i wont need to come to school. Even if i do, i think bringing a lap top would do me no good.

Okie, so in any case, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI! Maaf zahir batin (that translates to :forgive me if ive offended any of you in the past yr)

Good luck to everyone out there!

PS: me and pema gonna celebrate now...shopping or movie..hmmm...what? we deserve it! we've mugged hard!

Inspiration-less

I mean really, I thought I'd be able to type something out. I mean i havent typed in in a while and quite a lot has happened i think....i think....i think.....i think i need to eat gingko tablets. I cant seem to recall....

Okay, for one, i had my maiden drive last night. Aba finally gave me the P plate and fixed it on the car. Whoa...it was just like i dreamed the moment to be....A nice relaxing drive, with the stereo playing my Michael Buble CD....cruising down the expressway....ahhhh.....
I must say, driving an automatic car is super easy! Anybody can drive! Anybody with a $1300++ license to drive that is! Haha..speaking of license, can you imagine how efficient Singapore is? I mean, i received my real, permenant license via registered mail yesterday! Yesterday!!! When i just passed on monday!!!!!

Anyway, I still havent gotten my Hari raya baju...should i even get one? My mom already gave me the money but seriously, its not like im miserly or anything but I think its a waste of money. I hardly use the baju kurungs i bought in the last few years..and since im not gonna go jalan raya with my friends this yr cos of exams...and that i only have a few relatives to visit, why should i buy a >50 dollars 'traditional' baju (which has nothing to do with my tradition..whatever that is..im still trying to figure out if i have one)....i might as well buy clothes to wear to school right??? or that black dress i saw in Metro....ahh...

Im feeling pretty jaded now...perhaps that's cos i woke up late and that morning laziness has yet to be purged from my system...WAKE UP FARAH! It's 1.40pm!!!!

Im having a hari raya lunch thingy on the 15th and i know this is gonna sound craazyyyy...but there's 50 people on my list! Crap. I mean I thought i invited my SWAPS and VJ friends and stuff....and i didnt expect to have that huge a number. I hope they'll be able to squeeze into my place..and that Umi can cook enough food....

okay, 13 days to go. I better start studying...LIKE NOW.

I PASSED MY DRIVING!!!!!!!!

okay, ive actually typed out a nice entry about this...so i shall paste it up when i bring my laptop to school...

so here it is:
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST-an edited excerpt from Farah’s personal diary

You bet I did! Its raining heavily now but I’m still so thrilled. It’s been raining since I left for the test centre. By then, grey clouds were hovering threateningly over me. And when it finally showered, I thought to myself “God really doesn’t want me to pass”. The visibility was pretty bad too! But thank god (alhamdulilllah) that when it came to the actual test time, the rain trickled to a drizzle and stopped eventually. I got Route 7-the hardest route. Difficult route + bad weather = Bad luck….or so I thought. But in Cheryl’s words, it turned out to be “a blessing in disguise”. The tester modified the route as he claimed that the original route would be jammed. So, with only 10 points, ladies and gentlemen, Farah passed her driving! After the whole test, (which seemed to pass by so fast), I got back my marksheet and then proceeded to this room to watch some video on road safety. While waiting for the video to air, I started calling and messaging almost everyone! What can I say? I just needed to gush and celebrate with people! I deserved it. Thanks a million Cheryl for remembering and for psyching me up for the test!

I gave my driving instructor (uncle) a box of hari raya cookies to thank him. (Thank god I was fasting or he would have cornered my into treating him to lunch…eeeyew…). Before we parted, he said to me “Drive carefully and slowly ah….young girl like you..must take care”…For a tiny-whiny moment, I felt the soft mush one usually feels when you have to part from someone who saw you through some ordeal…and well, come on, he taught me for nearly 11 months..then the moment vanished. I’ll never see my quirky ci-ko-pek of a driving instructor again! Haha….It’s also weird that “my boyfriend” (the driving instructor’s pathetic attempt to matchmake me with another one of his student learners) called him to ask if I passed. One heck of a strange relationship. I’ve only seen the bugger once.

Came home and was still high and absolutely thrilled. Showed the slip of paper to my dad and bro..who were waiting for me to break the news….Now that driving’s over and tuition’s ended (Rena did abysmally for her finals but she’s contented so oh well…I did my best for her anyway), I have no excuse not to focus….19 days more!!!!!!!!

I CAN DO IT!!!

I got back my psych test results yesterday! Im so so so so happy. ;) I was super high the whole day...then the french paper came back...and Farah was high no more. Ah well! C'est la vie!

French lecturer was pretty irritated yesterday. Was complaining about the admin system in NUS and about how NUS wont pay him till a few months later...and how he had to buy his own markers...so I thought of a very gd idea..since our last lesson's coming soon, haha as a joke, I propose buying him a bunch of markers. I toldd kenneth about it..he thinks its funny! HAHA..

la la la...half an hr more to RP.

Resistance is futile

Just finished my psych lecture. A pretty interesting one, i must say. It dealt with motivation and emotion, and how some people get anorexic and stuff. There was this one thing Dr Cha said that was so hilarious I had to put it as my title today...you see, there is something called the weight set point. Basically, its this equilibrium thingy in your body that controls your metabolic rate. So below this wight set point, your metabolic rate would decrease, vice-versa...which is why dieting never works. Anyway, so what determines the weight set point? its the no of fat cells in your body. So when you were a child, whenever you increased weight, the no of fat cells increase..all the way till youre 2 yrs old. Thats when the weight set point's determine....so, Dr Cha said smt like "so to all the ladies who wanna lose somemore weight, resistance is futile"....

Hahahhaha.......and i went damn. So fat babies shall remain fat babies!

anyway, yesterday, i was on the bus...293 on the way home at about 4.20. I couldnt understand the bus driver.Like wassup man! You see, these two really old folks got up the bus. Its really amazing that they managed to get to their seats in the first place...such fragile looking people. They didnt pay for their trip and after a while, the stern looking bus driver rudely asked "Lu belum bayar ah?" (you havent paid) So the old indian lady muttered to her husband and both began searching for change in their purses. oh no...they didnt have enough. All this while, as i looked on, i noticed this malay lady taking her purse and digging for money too...then she made her way to the front and placed some change in the old lady's hand. All this while, the bus driver casted furtive glances from the rear view window..and worse, he looked angry that the malay lady helped out! Like what the!! Wierd bus driver on a power trip I suppose. I mean, give the old folks a break will ya??

Red Monday

So im wearing red. Couldnt come up with a better title. I've just finished my only lesson of the day.Im supposed to send my handphone for repair but somehow, i just cant seem to get my butt un-glued to the bench. A little while more then.....

Handed up the research paper. Oh dear, i should not have read other people's titles. Im so gonna score shitly for this paper. ah well. Got back my museum report.The lowest in class was a B+....so yup. Should i be happy? :)

Random thought of the day: WHY why cant women wearing skirts be mindful of their sitting decorum? I mean like hello, i dont wanna see your panties!

Anyway, yest was the last episode of Mists of Avalon. So that leaves me with Witchblade(still trying to figure out the show) and Gilmore Girls as my weekend entertainment. Oh, and law and order of course.

I love gilmore girls. I mean, its a fantastic show. I practically grew up watching it. When Rory had her final exams, so did I. When rory worried about which university to pick, so did I. When rory had her vacation, so did I. When rory went to university, so did I. I supose in a way, She represents an ideal role modern for gals my age. She's brilliant, independant, pretty, has a understanding and totally cool mom, she had a gorgeous boyfriend who still loves her. Like whoa.

Okay, enough...ive really gotta go home now!

IVE FINISHED MY Southeast Asia TERM PAPER!!!!!!

Personality Disorder Test results! HAHA...

Please remember that this test isn't meant to diagnose you. Only a professional can do that. Below are your test results, broken down for the ten different personality disorders. You are rated "low," "moderate," "high," or "very high" probability for each disorder. Low or moderate ratings mean that you are unlikely to have the disorder. High or very high means you are more likely to have the disorder. Only a professional can diagnose a disorder, however. Scroll down past the results for recommended books that might help you.


Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

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Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.

Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.


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sigh

okay, so yesterday's french test was a bummer. I kept getting mixed up between imperatif and passe compose. It was such an easy paper...and i made such a stupid mistake. I well, felt shity after that. It was mainly cos of my English test result as well. i just passed. and so now, im frantically looking for people to tutor me. So far, ive managed to get karina and ranjani to help......to think i even had nightmares about that. I didnt want to come for eng lect today but conscience prevail...besides, I WILL NOT BE A SORE QUITER. i will not resent a subject when i do not do well in it. ive gotta change my mentality. so erhem I like EL1101E. I like EL1101e. I like El1101E. I Like EL1101E.

ok, ive gotta go for econs tutorial now. I will try not to skip my lect later. If i do, that would be like 4 times in a row, one whole month, 1/3 of a semester of cutting econs lect. HAHA. no no i will not.....

sigh. i think im PMS-ing.

i dropped my hp yest..and now it cant switch off. :(

Englisheeeesssssssshhhhh

Argh. Argh. Argh. I dont understand. why am i still at the bottom of the class for stupid EL1101E???? i mean its freaking English! I have been scoring for eng since like primary one! like what the? Its like some cruel joke. Ha ha ha.

Breathe farah breathe....

everything
happens
for
a reason.....

maybe im too cocky..and im paying for it.....
i'll go kiss the floor now. just kidding just kidding. -_-

A post from home!

I am so full. So so full and contented. Had a great dinner a an hour ago. Nothing beats my Umi's cooking! I was gonna type something actually but I cant seem to remember. Talk about short term memory. Which reminds me, Ive gotta study psych.


Oh! I remember what it is now...I PASSED MY ECONS TEST!!!!!! Just when i thought there was no hope! That I would embarass myself with low marks considering exactly one yr ago I was studying the exact same thing! Whee~

Is it me or is the weather really really hot at night?

Earlier today, I had my last tuition session with Rena. In a way, she reminds me a lot of myself when I was 14. Troubled with studies and finding out who my friends really are. Imagining that teachers are from a totally different planet. Thinking your parents just dont understand. Feel like you're spinning and spinning and spinning around, trying to find and come to terms with who you are. I hated Sec 2. I had a discussion with Pema about this after French class. The french lecturer had previously said someting rather patronising..."Maybe you asians have adolescence problems later in life" Yeah, right..like when we're 40? So i made a hypothesis.. most of us would have probably encountered it when we're 14...and i bagan asking a few ppl and well, they concured.Well, it isnt an accurant survey anyway. The sample size was far too small. But still, it doesnt change the fact that being 14 was a nightmare.

In any case, I should get back to work.

And yes, while and after praying with my family yest, I remembered about all the things that has happened over the past year. I have truly been blessed. I have a great life. Prayers really do work. They really do. So i just have to keep my faith...Amin!

French test IS on THU!!! PHEW

God loves me

Yes, HE does. French is postponed to thursday. Phew. So farah's weekend schedule:
1) Mug for psychology
2) Mug for French
3) Worry about SEA research paper because i will only have four days since i intend to get started only when both my tests are over. It doesnt help to know SOME people finished theirs! (nudge nudge karina) -_-

English, cute babies, and bulan ramadan.

I just finished the dreaded EL paper. I just feel this overwhelming relief.It wasnt easy but i was already expecting that. Besides, i fell asleep reading the book and only managed to read/skim through the book on the MRT.(sat between two sleeeeeepy heads. are my shoulders that comfortable?) so there, its over. Thank god I brought a dictionary. A BIG help indeed.

Went out with pema, kenneth and Mark yest. Buka-ed at NYDC. There was this super dooperly cute baby. i think he's iranian or smt and he's soooooooo cuteeeeeeeee... he kept seeking our attention and he even grabbed the waitress' butt. Her reaction was so hilarious! Gosh, i hope my children would be as gorgeous as that!

Its the start of the fasting month. I wonder if i should skip my econs lect. so that would be 3 in a row. But really! the whole family would be breaking fast together...and since Umi's working the afternoon shift and Mhd's shifts are irregular....this yr would be different....

anyway, i received a msg from a very old friend. hmm.

haha i just met Monsiuer(how do you spell it...ARGH) Gilbert...and we spoke french..hahah.

okay, ive gotta be a lab rat...after Eugene briefs me on the survey thingy.

Taking it slow.....

I have decided...i am not going to panic. I am going to take this semester easy. It is my first semester after all and i should cut my self some slack. So what if i had initially planned on making it into the Deans list and getting on my way to a first class honours? Ambitions ambitions ambitions. Tsk tsk. remember what happened earlier in J1? I wanted to take 4 A levels with 2 S papers...remember how I wanted to take maths and econs S? hahah...I ended up dropping an A level sub. But Im still happy. But that doesnt mean im gonna be a completely unmotivated person. i will keep trying hard and do my work and all but i will not be stressed. I want to live longer! Plus, i dont really know what i should expect for the exams so i'll be using this sem as a gauge.

Im in the SWAPS room right now actually...was storing some stuff and since i brought my lap top i might as well try if this room has reception and what do you know? it does!!!! Signal Strength=Very Good. It's pretty quiet in here and heck, i think its more conducive to do my work here than in the lib. At least i'll have my privacy. Am i even allowed to do this? I don't know..but as far as im concerned, i have the keys so why not? Im not doing anything bad here.

I have officially ended my lessons and i intended to study my english BUT i didnt bring my file. Urgh. Too bad...i think i'll just go home later...