Crybaby

Im such a cry baby. I cant believe I cried today after watching snippets (not even the whole movie)..SNIPPETS of this show called 'Tuesdays with Mourrie'. I was in school watching it as part of this Hospice Care Association awareness program. Man, i dont even know why tears welled up in the first place! I mean the movie was about a dying man and how he was coping with his impending death due to this disease he has which would render his limbs wasted bit by bit. The two main characters were this guy called Mitch and Mourrie, the dying professor. Mitch was his ex-student. I think the show/book is about how Mitch realised the beauty and fragility of life after being completely submerged and lost in the hustle and bustle of work..it was Mourrie's final lesson for him....

There were some pretty beautiful quotes from the show...its in my bag now and im darn lazy to take it out and type....but wow. really.

I tried stifling my tears and all. Each time I felt that lump in my throat, I reached for my water bottle....but no.....one tear escaped and then the shower began. I couldnt help myself. I told myslef to suck it up cos no one else in the brightly lit room was crying! But i couldnt stop. I couldnt imagine losing anyone I love. It was too painful to even think about it.

Anyway, thankfully, the program ended shortly. I laughed it off. How silly of me.

Then had social psych proj meeting. And one of my groupmates was telling us how she lost her boyfriend the day before she had an exam last year. They were gonna get married in due time. Sad. sad. sad. But i admire her soooooo much. She was able to recount the event and all....I couldnt do anything. I didnt know what to say. I just told her that i admired her tenacity. Her will to go on. Indeed i do.

Would I be able to continue? I dont want to find out at all.