Why have I not blogged? I guess its always the same old things over and over again huh? My anxieties with school, yadda yadda yadda. Is that interesting? Interesting or not, who cares? Im gonna blog abt them anyway :P Haha. So redundant asking the previous question right?hee... Im in a la-di-dah kinda mood right now.

So, my research has started full swing. Over the past week Ive been obsessively checking the online research participant sign up sheet to see if Ive reached my target number of participants. As of now, I have 128 out of 200 females and an abysmal number of males..35 our of the 100 I need. Come on guys...sign up!!!

That aside, the fasting month started a 4 days ago last Thursday and I dont know why, but I feel more at peace with myself and the world. All my anxieties about dateline and thesis and stuff doesnt seem so significant when I think about the big picture. Academics is only a small part of life. And whats important is that I do my best in everything I do. The rest is truly up to Allah. I need to keep reminding myself about this. The more I let go of things I cannot control, the more I pray and submit to God, the less anxious I feel...and the more satisfied I'd feel with whatever life hits me with. After all, everything, good and bad, comes from Allah, doesnt it? :) Everything in life. Who I am today. What I have around me. Alhamdullillah.

I really need to let go and stop fussing and worrying abt the snowballed consequences of everything I do. I was talking to Najib the other day and it hit me. The reason why I feel so pressured to perform is because I dont want to let the people who entrusted me with certain responsibilities/expectations to be let down. Good and bad, I suppose. At least that drives me. One does need motivation in life.

And so, mine is : Do the best in everything you do, put in all that you can, then leave the rest to God. Whatever the results may be, always say Alhamdulillah. Never feel anger, jealousy nor pride. What matters is that having done everything you can, you should feel satisfied. :)

I need to keep reminding myself about this. But even as I type this, it seems harder than it seems.

Anyhoos, now that its fasting month, I'll also spend less time eating so that should pretty much free up my time to mug.Oooh, Im trying to factor in my new fav activity other than eating: running :) Think i'll run after breaking my fast. :)

Speaking of run, Ive put off blogging abt my shape run last sunday cos I was waiting for the pic to come out. It has but I cant seem to put pics on blogger without having it appear above my text. The run was fantastic. My first. My sis and I were running alongside each other and when we reached the finish line, we held hands :) We did it together. We trained and we ran. Yay. And and and, I'm so proud of us because we ran non-stop. Having never run 5 km prior to signing up for the run, we've come a long long way. Now, when I go jogging, I dont run below 5k anymore because its psychological la. Because its become very do-able :)

I'm thinking 10k by next year. Insya-Allah.

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